Okay! After so long missing in action, I am so called back again for a little while :) The only reason I am in here today is because I am haunted by Nurul's words that I'm not updating.
Firstly, Thankful that exams are over :) I did I can manage to pass all the subjects and it's more painful when the results will only be known like in June. Don't tell me they take so long to mark right? But still, I'm looking forward to new classes starting next Tuesday! Yes, I love going for classes cause it means I can go and meet my friends to de-stress at the same time.
Work has been pretty tough on me and all I can think about right now is the negative things that I am thinking about. I know it ain't good to be bringing home such thoughts cause it will only dampen my spirits when I get back. But honestly, I just can't get the pile of work that seems to be catching up with me faster than the days that go by. I keep complaining the same damn thing to him and he has been kind enough to tell me that if i don't like the work, i can leave. In my heart, leavintg this job will yet be another failure to my name. At the same time, how can you let happiness be ruined by work? Bearing in mind that I did think about having lotsa kids. Looks like that's not going to happen if all I can think about is quitting.
How would you like it to chase everyday just to meet deadlines? And most of the things that the customers are chasing is really not within your control. It's cause we're the middle people having to talk to customers and the bloody people at the factory. Where is their sense of urgency? I am tired of it already! Mummy told me to just leave cause she said working's not for me. Yet when you think about it, then what's the point of me studying so much? Am I just wasting my own time in this life if I can't find meaning out of the things I do?
I just want to get over this period of being dumped with many things that are new to me.I guess people are truly just very tempted to leave by the amount of workload given. And now, I'm the victim. I can't stand it when they say they're recruiting new staff yet they never let the load of me. Looks like i'll have to voice out my opinion some day.
Let's take it till the end of this month ookay? And then i'll decide whether to tell them that i can't cope. but to tell them that i can't cope is like showing that i have no capibilites. but on second thought, i'm sure they are pretty desperate to keep me in the company cause they are just too tired to handle people leaving them. Alright, enough rants!
Nurul darling :) I hope you're okay :)
Firstly, Thankful that exams are over :) I did I can manage to pass all the subjects and it's more painful when the results will only be known like in June. Don't tell me they take so long to mark right? But still, I'm looking forward to new classes starting next Tuesday! Yes, I love going for classes cause it means I can go and meet my friends to de-stress at the same time.
Work has been pretty tough on me and all I can think about right now is the negative things that I am thinking about. I know it ain't good to be bringing home such thoughts cause it will only dampen my spirits when I get back. But honestly, I just can't get the pile of work that seems to be catching up with me faster than the days that go by. I keep complaining the same damn thing to him and he has been kind enough to tell me that if i don't like the work, i can leave. In my heart, leavintg this job will yet be another failure to my name. At the same time, how can you let happiness be ruined by work? Bearing in mind that I did think about having lotsa kids. Looks like that's not going to happen if all I can think about is quitting.
How would you like it to chase everyday just to meet deadlines? And most of the things that the customers are chasing is really not within your control. It's cause we're the middle people having to talk to customers and the bloody people at the factory. Where is their sense of urgency? I am tired of it already! Mummy told me to just leave cause she said working's not for me. Yet when you think about it, then what's the point of me studying so much? Am I just wasting my own time in this life if I can't find meaning out of the things I do?
I just want to get over this period of being dumped with many things that are new to me.I guess people are truly just very tempted to leave by the amount of workload given. And now, I'm the victim. I can't stand it when they say they're recruiting new staff yet they never let the load of me. Looks like i'll have to voice out my opinion some day.
Let's take it till the end of this month ookay? And then i'll decide whether to tell them that i can't cope. but to tell them that i can't cope is like showing that i have no capibilites. but on second thought, i'm sure they are pretty desperate to keep me in the company cause they are just too tired to handle people leaving them. Alright, enough rants!
Nurul darling :) I hope you're okay :)
riyah starr@ 9:04 pm