AM I WORTH SO LITTLE?
riyah starr@ 10:57 am
Monday, January 14, 2008
A whole lot of things happened the past weekend. Pretty short to absorb what's happening. I'm not very lucky in the job search department and was offered an interview at Tuas on Saturday. Yes, waking up super duper early was like hell and with the eyes damn small, I can barely keep my concentration. He was sweet as to want to send me for the interview although we had major breakdown the previous night. I am always quiet before an interview so he took that as a sign of me being nervous. And there he was going on and on that I was going to do just fine. I know i'm going to come out alive and all so I kindly asked him to talk less and accompany me in peace.
The poor man waited for me in the HOT sun for a burning ONE hour. Don't go thinking I'm heartless by making him wait like that but I did tell him to wait for me at the sheltered bus stop. Sent me to school and picked me up from school. Anyhoos, interview was okay but I believe that they were not really convinced with me. The contract teaching was a disaster and it seriosuly has taken its bad looks on me now. But nonetheless, I'll keep fighting to find a suitable job for myself.
When I mentioned that I wanted to find a challenging job, the guy was saying that being an admin assistant is a downgrade from a teacher. BUT he said that the amount of stress is much more. Isn't he contradicting himself?
SUNDAY was the big day :) Dear boy was truly becoming a man already. The 21st birthday and it's spent with yours truly. I know he probably felt bad that I bought him presents and showered him with good food although I'm not working. Seriously, doesn't mean I'm ot working I ain't got no money on me :) I have! Just have a small lunch date with him which was really sweet with the sound of jazz music to our ears. I for once couldn't be bothered with the surrounding and was oh-so concentrating on my food :) Jazz music is so romantic!!
Okay, for now I have to start truly on my project! Another group consisting of all men has already done up their main draft and showed it to the lecturer. And for us girls, we're just sitting our butts off till the last minute. I thought it was the other way round : Alright, time to get started! :)
The poor man waited for me in the HOT sun for a burning ONE hour. Don't go thinking I'm heartless by making him wait like that but I did tell him to wait for me at the sheltered bus stop. Sent me to school and picked me up from school. Anyhoos, interview was okay but I believe that they were not really convinced with me. The contract teaching was a disaster and it seriosuly has taken its bad looks on me now. But nonetheless, I'll keep fighting to find a suitable job for myself.
When I mentioned that I wanted to find a challenging job, the guy was saying that being an admin assistant is a downgrade from a teacher. BUT he said that the amount of stress is much more. Isn't he contradicting himself?
SUNDAY was the big day :) Dear boy was truly becoming a man already. The 21st birthday and it's spent with yours truly. I know he probably felt bad that I bought him presents and showered him with good food although I'm not working. Seriously, doesn't mean I'm ot working I ain't got no money on me :) I have! Just have a small lunch date with him which was really sweet with the sound of jazz music to our ears. I for once couldn't be bothered with the surrounding and was oh-so concentrating on my food :) Jazz music is so romantic!!
Okay, for now I have to start truly on my project! Another group consisting of all men has already done up their main draft and showed it to the lecturer. And for us girls, we're just sitting our butts off till the last minute. I thought it was the other way round : Alright, time to get started! :)
riyah starr@ 2:33 pm
Sunday, January 06, 2008
I pity Britney Spears. I know people has been critizing her on a whole of things in her life but seriously, who's to blame? Who are we really to judge who she is in the first place? For all we know, our lives might have been similar to her outstanding life. We can't even notice ourselves yet we only know how to talk about other people. I guess it would have been normal for her to breakdown FINALLY like that. Nobody could have taken the pressures that she took right now. So I hope that she'll remain strong!
Alright, my weekend was SUPERB! :) I love my tiring weekends cause it's alwasy fruitful. I thought I was going to stay home the whole day so I sulked half the time. I did my chores in peace and only responded when needed to. Pretty much, I'm just very quiet in my movement. So the main reason I'm sulking is that I was being too demanding about my man not messaging me. I know it's silly like that. I get upset over the little darndest thing ever. Sometimes, I'd even wanna slap myself. Planned to go to the library with mummy since daddy was on the night shift. Yes, we always take advantage of the situation.
We went to Woodlands Regional Library cause I was searching for a book on my research topic. It's a good thing to bring dear mummy along cause she's always occupied with the cooking section. So I don't really have to worry about her whereabouts. I couldn't really find the thing that I was looking for but I managed to get some useful books that I will read up :) And I have to thank him for travelling all the way from Changi to meet me!Had dinner, walked around a little bit and went home.
He slept over cause he was too tired to go back and he was fast asleep even before I was. Watching him sleep was the nicest feeling and it made me realise just how lucky I am. Truly he must have dealt with a lot with my constant rants about not spending much time together. Yet there he was sleeping soundly like a baby, nothing stirred him at all.
And he was kind today to have allowed me to buy TWO books from Harris. It's a big deal to be buying TWO books since I'm currently still unemployed. To own my own books again, is completely a guilty pleasure :) The fact that buying it makes me feel guilty and reading it gives me the tingly pleasure :)
I should be going to sleep right now since I have been having minor little heaadaches for the past 5 days and it doesn't help so far. Till next time, take care! :)
Alright, my weekend was SUPERB! :) I love my tiring weekends cause it's alwasy fruitful. I thought I was going to stay home the whole day so I sulked half the time. I did my chores in peace and only responded when needed to. Pretty much, I'm just very quiet in my movement. So the main reason I'm sulking is that I was being too demanding about my man not messaging me. I know it's silly like that. I get upset over the little darndest thing ever. Sometimes, I'd even wanna slap myself. Planned to go to the library with mummy since daddy was on the night shift. Yes, we always take advantage of the situation.
We went to Woodlands Regional Library cause I was searching for a book on my research topic. It's a good thing to bring dear mummy along cause she's always occupied with the cooking section. So I don't really have to worry about her whereabouts. I couldn't really find the thing that I was looking for but I managed to get some useful books that I will read up :) And I have to thank him for travelling all the way from Changi to meet me!Had dinner, walked around a little bit and went home.
He slept over cause he was too tired to go back and he was fast asleep even before I was. Watching him sleep was the nicest feeling and it made me realise just how lucky I am. Truly he must have dealt with a lot with my constant rants about not spending much time together. Yet there he was sleeping soundly like a baby, nothing stirred him at all.
And he was kind today to have allowed me to buy TWO books from Harris. It's a big deal to be buying TWO books since I'm currently still unemployed. To own my own books again, is completely a guilty pleasure :) The fact that buying it makes me feel guilty and reading it gives me the tingly pleasure :)
I should be going to sleep right now since I have been having minor little heaadaches for the past 5 days and it doesn't help so far. Till next time, take care! :)
riyah starr@ 10:32 pm
Saturday, January 05, 2008
Alright, I seem to be on a roll with my life. It just seems normal that people are busy with their lives. That just goes to show how much I need to be as busy as these people. But nonetheless, my life is turning out to be pretty busy as well. Busy with school research that is. I'm enjoying the process right now since i'm doing my project with a genius. And i really mean a genius. This lady is only like 26 years old and the amount of information she has inside her petite figure blows me away. She seems pretty quiet at first but seriously, she's one smart lady! All my respect for her :) And always a pleasure working with smarter people.
Going back to school yesterday was like a nightmare. I was pretty early and it was like scary cause it's the first time i went to school without the dearest aunt. And halfway in class,I was on the dozing off mode.That sucks cause i so wanted to pay attention in class. And yet I was three-quarter times on Be Right Back status. And thankfully, Daddy came to fetch me after school. I had to take advantage of the fact that he was working morning shift. So I kindly asked him to fetch me after his work was done. I miss Daddy's bike rides. It was awesome! It has been like 6 months since the last time i rode on his bike!! That long, yes!
Going back to school yesterday was like a nightmare. I was pretty early and it was like scary cause it's the first time i went to school without the dearest aunt. And halfway in class,I was on the dozing off mode.That sucks cause i so wanted to pay attention in class. And yet I was three-quarter times on Be Right Back status. And thankfully, Daddy came to fetch me after school. I had to take advantage of the fact that he was working morning shift. So I kindly asked him to fetch me after his work was done. I miss Daddy's bike rides. It was awesome! It has been like 6 months since the last time i rode on his bike!! That long, yes!
riyah starr@ 2:37 pm
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Alright, the best damn thing is that it's the new year! Hurray! I spent my eve doing something i haven't been doing for a really long time. Normally, NYE is always a quiet night with mummy and myself watching tv till we can't stand it anymore. I expected it to be exactly the same yesterday but it was different :) We went out for dinner with my aunt, uncle, Hafiz and nenek. Fickle-minded is truly part of a women's trait. To decide on an eating place was like torture, so yours truly met a rather good decision to go and eat at Bedok Simpang. Nice food and nice company!
After which we went to Sentosa. Yes, old people want some time for fun too you know. I forgot that the buses inside were free and didn't hop on thinking that the only form of transport was the car that uncle was driving. How did i forget? I'm not too sure myself. So missed the chance of seeing daddy at work and also the well-missed best friend who was working along side daddy :( Home it was soon after that! When the clock struck midnight, i was more than happy to have been talking to dear boy on the phone :)
I've been wanting to update alot the past weeks but i'm just plain lazy. But today was nice! I discover alot of things about men that i thought i didn't know before. I can be nasty sometimes and he can be nasty too. I don't meet dear boy during the weekdays unless he's working on special day like today. He was supposed to end work at 530pm but he was released at 1pm. So he kindly SMSed me to tell me to get ready right now. Of course, i was shocked! I haven't had my shower. I only just finished vacuumming the house and was on the way to the toilet to do some business. He kept pestering me that he was on the way to fetch me. I was very pissed then, i claimed that i was not to meet him till 4 hours later so he can't blame me if i was late! He came all the way to my home and i gave this really can't-be-bothered face to him.
He was happy after i told him that we'll go out once we are done eating. And of course, i had to dally cause mummy's always finding it hard to let her lil girl go out. So we went to City Hall area. Walked at Padang and i showed off my knowledge of Geography to him. And i happily told him that the museums are free today. Damn cheapskate i know! He ain't a museum kinda person and so knowing that it's free, he won't regret going in. Happy as i was, my mood escalates down again! Have you ever felt like there was nothing that's making you upset but you're upset still? That was what i was feeling, He kept asking if i was okay and i said of course, i'm fine. But really inside, it was tearing apart. It's weird, i know!
I'm just looking forward to school again although Projects are on my mind. Sighs! I'm going to die. I'll find out about something and keep you posted soon. See you soon!
After which we went to Sentosa. Yes, old people want some time for fun too you know. I forgot that the buses inside were free and didn't hop on thinking that the only form of transport was the car that uncle was driving. How did i forget? I'm not too sure myself. So missed the chance of seeing daddy at work and also the well-missed best friend who was working along side daddy :( Home it was soon after that! When the clock struck midnight, i was more than happy to have been talking to dear boy on the phone :)
I've been wanting to update alot the past weeks but i'm just plain lazy. But today was nice! I discover alot of things about men that i thought i didn't know before. I can be nasty sometimes and he can be nasty too. I don't meet dear boy during the weekdays unless he's working on special day like today. He was supposed to end work at 530pm but he was released at 1pm. So he kindly SMSed me to tell me to get ready right now. Of course, i was shocked! I haven't had my shower. I only just finished vacuumming the house and was on the way to the toilet to do some business. He kept pestering me that he was on the way to fetch me. I was very pissed then, i claimed that i was not to meet him till 4 hours later so he can't blame me if i was late! He came all the way to my home and i gave this really can't-be-bothered face to him.
He was happy after i told him that we'll go out once we are done eating. And of course, i had to dally cause mummy's always finding it hard to let her lil girl go out. So we went to City Hall area. Walked at Padang and i showed off my knowledge of Geography to him. And i happily told him that the museums are free today. Damn cheapskate i know! He ain't a museum kinda person and so knowing that it's free, he won't regret going in. Happy as i was, my mood escalates down again! Have you ever felt like there was nothing that's making you upset but you're upset still? That was what i was feeling, He kept asking if i was okay and i said of course, i'm fine. But really inside, it was tearing apart. It's weird, i know!
I'm just looking forward to school again although Projects are on my mind. Sighs! I'm going to die. I'll find out about something and keep you posted soon. See you soon!
riyah starr@ 12:38 am