For the first time, things didn't feel so real.I had to come to terms with things.2006 definitely ended pretty much with one hell of a bang but i'm looking forward to the new year.

And now lookin' back,i wonder if it was your fault or mine?But i have put it all behind me.

91-30th December 2006

riyah starr@ 6:19 pm

Saturday, December 30, 2006

i have no idea why i'm waiting.

riyah starr@ 7:00 pm

Thursday, December 21, 2006

The members of the jury of Survivor Cook Islands.

I decided to change the skin yet again.I get bored really quickly these days and honestly, the pinkish one was getting on my nerves.The past days i have only lived on my fantasy and makin major plans for myself.Sound selfish yeap but my plans would take some people with me.

I've been checking out websites on USA and i'm feeling really excited for something that would take me 10 more years to achieve.And within days, i decided that i need to pick up some new hobbies.I get inspired easily and i lose interest just as easily.I'll let you know of my progress some time soon when i have the time, that is!

riyah starr@ 3:04 pm

Monday, December 18, 2006

It's just so frustrating that i'm not sleepy at this very hour of 0145.I can't even begin on my new book cause i don't have the drive to read it.I'll start again tomorrow, that i can promise.

It's even more frustrating that Manchester United is trailing behind with their match with West Ham.I suppose there were some chances they created but it all sucked!Maybe daddy was right, if they miss that many chances, they would lose the game altogether.

I hope i can get to sleep after this maych ends because i honestly can't deal with being alone at night with no one to talk to.Sounds like a miserable night for me.But indeed, the whole day it has been.Thanks baby for being there when i needed you most.Hell, i know you're going to be there no matter what time of the day.Good luck for your first day at work love :) MUACKS!!

riyah starr@ 1:45 am

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Met up with the ever darling Jacky on tuesday with my baby girls Nani&Geetha (: Jacky was bored at some point cause the girls were really just so tired.Sorry ah, bro!Hahaha!But it was one fruitful outingt, i could never love a day as much as i love that day!Things were out in the open, more than anyone of is had wanted to hear.

Things you hear sometimes don't seem pleasant but you know you have to hear them out sooner or later.It definitely hurt me how i'm hearing things about myself for the first time but i suppose it's a lesson to learn and move on.There is nothing that can make me stop being spiteful towards you.I don't think there is anything needed to explain casue there is no explanation needed.

One note to oneself: Never honestly trust the people you call your friends.Know them from back to front, up till down and in and outbefore making judgment about someone.You'd be suprised you don't really know the friend you're talking to right now.

riyah starr@ 12:05 pm

travis wall-he makes me feel like dancing (:
oscar lusth-arrogance never seem this good
tyler&james-winning a million bucks.i want i want!

riyah starr@ 11:52 am

Monday, December 11, 2006

Goodness!I have no idea where i left off.But i'll just fill in the loopholes.
It just seems that the days go on pretty fast and slowly at the same time.I barely remember the dates or days anymore, practically living it by itself.

Now reading the Devil's Feather.Pretty good i must say, i just keep wanting to read it without stopping but that's impossible of course.It's the mystery kind of book so i hope it doesn't dissappoint me.Went out with Geetha and Aishah through last week.The last Kiss is one great movie.M18 some more so it was definitely comical yet romantic.I love it!!

Everything else is a blurrrr!I can't seem remember details like i use to.Anyways, Dhaz is back!Good for all of us (:

riyah starr@ 12:32 pm

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

At the end of the day, i look back in reflection to find myself enveloped in my own innocent self.Yet i can't help loving myself for the right reasons (:

riyah starr@ 8:14 pm

Monday, December 04, 2006

Sean Preston.One of the few celeb babies i don't find cute AT ALL!
Uncensored!What were they thinking?

This is gonna be one random entry.
Just thought i could put some things relating to Britney Spears.

Goodness!

I don't belive she became this madness of a parent overnight.

riyah starr@ 12:10 pm

Sunday, December 03, 2006

I've been rather lazy to update lately but there is nothing interesting going on in my life right now.Stagnation, that's what it all is!Anyways, i finally had the opportunity to follow my mum and some other members of the family to visit the cemetery.It was really just a peaceful day and me thinking back on the days i lost the people i loved.I could have three other cousins to play with and lighten up the mood of this family.And deep inside, i'm only missing him the most for he was the closest to me.

I've been caught up with reading up books i barely know the time anymore.The syat at home has made me more forgetgul and ignorant of the world outside.I desperately need to get out more often to keep in touch with the world that i have dearly missed.

At the same time, i'm more than happy to stay home and keep my mum accompany half the time though i would be left in my own solace sometimes.Laundry and laundry and the household chores never seem to end but that's what keeps me going.And finally, i managed to cook by myself with my mum giving me the instructions required.And this time around, i'm confident i'll be able to cook without my mum's help.My brother though doesn't seem to believe that i cooked yesterday so i shall prove to him that i have what it takes to cook.

I'll have to end here cause i still have many things to do around the house.Although i've been stubborn in more ways than one, i miss my dearest friends terribly.

riyah starr@ 11:32 am

Friday, December 01, 2006

Her impersonation of someone (:
If everyday was as happy as this, we would smile like this.
Pizza Hut Crazy!!

A lot has happened since the last time i updated.Brother has been back from Thailand and it's good to hear so many stories from that beautiful land.I suppose i could go there with some money at the end of next year.I'm looking forward to go to yet abother foreign country.Got myself a bag and a sunglass (as requested by myself).I love the gifts& what more it's rather cheap!!Woo!

Going out with Nani was definitely a great idea to escape the endless drama of being at home.I was running away from a possible father outrage and Nani was escaping from the nightmares of mother being around.It was rather a journey out just to have thosai at tekka.Yes, weird stuff but the food was great!I suppose our main purpose was to have thosai and then no idea where we would be heading.But we walked to Bugis and just window-shopped.We didn't really splurged that day.It's sucha suprise!Hahaha!

From Tekka to Bugis to the Library to Vivo City and finally to Pizza Hut at Clementi.We did tonnes of travelling with no purpose at all but at the same time it feels good to be out with the company of laughter and happiness.That was my happy happy day yet!

Then days after i became rather gloomy and basically snap at every single little thing that people do or say.It's not really in my control but i just do it for the sake of hurting people.I suppose the negative energy i have within me has finally let itself exploded to the people closest to me.I turned that energy to rage and penned my thoughts down via my own medium.I thought i wanted to put out what i had created but it would only create a whole lotta controversy.It's only a matter of time before things fall to its place once again.

I just needed to talk to someone but there is no one to talk to seriously.Everyone at home is too caved in on their own lives that they don't see the hurting i feel.I tried telling mum what i was feeling but i know she feels exactly the same way.The betrayal of friendship& the trust gone with one mistake.

riyah starr@ 12:16 pm