the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
its funny how things are the last days. just when i thought i got rid of one particular stalker, now it seems that i have another one. a chinese one to be exact. not that i have anything against chinese guys but i think that he should have checked himself first. im not trying to be meanie but i feel kinda wish that someone else would notice me and not him. i mean it would be better that he just added me on friendster. but asking for my hp number without knowing me first kinda is moving a lil bit too far.im meanie. im kinda sensitive when it comes to guys and issues of friendship. oh man! but now my priority aint on guys. so no worries!!
and im pretty upset that i didnt get to study the whole day yesterday.i was too tired to even pack my bag last night.but i think it was a great time just watching tv and not worrying a thing about exams.but today i managed to put something into my head cause i was super freshed.however, here i am sitting here chatting away with syirah & siti.laughs.i promise ill get back to books and notes later. :D
lunch was crazy!huda was picking on siti all the way.i mean who doesnt know huda right?she is so mean sometimes.laughs,and after huda left eralier than me, siti and aishah, we girls were laughing pigs.maybe not pigs la.but i cant think of anything nicer to say.everything was like a joke to us.and we were laughing for like more than 20 minutes which left me with a painful chest than ever.for a moment, i actually did thought that i was going to die la.but can you actually die from laughing?if can right, ill be the happiest laughing princess alive.hahahahaha.
syirah-i've missed chatting with you la.its good to be back on track.font give up k?i know you will do just fine for O's.though your prelims may sucked, it will soi much better.i promise :D
siti-new haircut means new personality.you dont doubt yourself k?you know you will face this well.sayang.
its funny how things are the last days. just when i thought i got rid of one particular stalker, now it seems that i have another one. a chinese one to be exact. not that i have anything against chinese guys but i think that he should have checked himself first. im not trying to be meanie but i feel kinda wish that someone else would notice me and not him. i mean it would be better that he just added me on friendster. but asking for my hp number without knowing me first kinda is moving a lil bit too far.im meanie. im kinda sensitive when it comes to guys and issues of friendship. oh man! but now my priority aint on guys. so no worries!!
and im pretty upset that i didnt get to study the whole day yesterday.i was too tired to even pack my bag last night.but i think it was a great time just watching tv and not worrying a thing about exams.but today i managed to put something into my head cause i was super freshed.however, here i am sitting here chatting away with syirah & siti.laughs.i promise ill get back to books and notes later. :D
lunch was crazy!huda was picking on siti all the way.i mean who doesnt know huda right?she is so mean sometimes.laughs,and after huda left eralier than me, siti and aishah, we girls were laughing pigs.maybe not pigs la.but i cant think of anything nicer to say.everything was like a joke to us.and we were laughing for like more than 20 minutes which left me with a painful chest than ever.for a moment, i actually did thought that i was going to die la.but can you actually die from laughing?if can right, ill be the happiest laughing princess alive.hahahahaha.
syirah-i've missed chatting with you la.its good to be back on track.font give up k?i know you will do just fine for O's.though your prelims may sucked, it will soi much better.i promise :D
siti-new haircut means new personality.you dont doubt yourself k?you know you will face this well.sayang.
riyah starr@ 5:27 pm
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
finally, my beauty sleep arises.
a short nap became a long nap.
im loving it.
super fidgety in class today,the whole day,
qin was sleeping in econs.
i was nudging her all the time.
came in phusical geog which we both listened to.
management was a killer.
my head spun and i went nuts.
lay on the table and i feel asleep.
like really asleep.
for the first period, i slept much.
for the second period, i was chtting with qin.
home i went after which i ate a wonderful lunch.
slept till 530pm.
im all freshed up right now.
be here for a while then ill shower and hit the books.
muahs.
finally, my beauty sleep arises.
a short nap became a long nap.
im loving it.
super fidgety in class today,the whole day,
qin was sleeping in econs.
i was nudging her all the time.
came in phusical geog which we both listened to.
management was a killer.
my head spun and i went nuts.
lay on the table and i feel asleep.
like really asleep.
for the first period, i slept much.
for the second period, i was chtting with qin.
home i went after which i ate a wonderful lunch.
slept till 530pm.
im all freshed up right now.
be here for a while then ill shower and hit the books.
muahs.
riyah starr@ 6:07 pm
Sunday, September 25, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
the only thing that can save me now is my own sanity.
i have very little of that left.
goodness!!
pray for me!!
the only thing that can save me now is my own sanity.
i have very little of that left.
goodness!!
pray for me!!
riyah starr@ 3:37 pm
Saturday, September 24, 2005
..when you see the ugliness of the picture..it must cause of me..hahaha..
..for the record..scholes and his son..*winks*..
..those times..
..when you have nothing to do..sit down&smile..take a picture..the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
alrighty alright.
didnt manage to stay up late last night.
my eyes were too tired.
after chatting with aishah and saha, i went straight to bed.
and i think it was a weird night to sleep in.
i was all cuddled up in my blanket covered from my neck down.
and i was right in the center of the bed since deee wasnt there.
and i realised that i was sleeping in an awkward position.
i was actually sliding downwards.
i dont think you'll get me anyways.
alrighty alright.
didnt manage to stay up late last night.
my eyes were too tired.
after chatting with aishah and saha, i went straight to bed.
and i think it was a weird night to sleep in.
i was all cuddled up in my blanket covered from my neck down.
and i was right in the center of the bed since deee wasnt there.
and i realised that i was sleeping in an awkward position.
i was actually sliding downwards.
i dont think you'll get me anyways.
and i had a dream about being chased by a dog.
so isit a ghost?
so i was with another friend running away from it.
entered a shop.
saw this guy and realised that he was dee' s friend whom i had a crush on before.
said hi to him.
chatted with him and stuff.
feels weird to see him smile again in my dream.
oh my!!
so isit a ghost?
so i was with another friend running away from it.
entered a shop.
saw this guy and realised that he was dee' s friend whom i had a crush on before.
said hi to him.
chatted with him and stuff.
feels weird to see him smile again in my dream.
oh my!!
and yesh
i havent been talking about any guys lately
thats a great big leap man
besides talking about my guy classmates and such,i have no particular interest in guys right now
alienated creatures from the world of mars
no offense guys but you guys are wierdos
really really are
i havent been talking about any guys lately
thats a great big leap man
besides talking about my guy classmates and such,i have no particular interest in guys right now
alienated creatures from the world of mars
no offense guys but you guys are wierdos
really really are
so ill be alone again later.
but ill try to take it as an advantage aight.
study study study.
but ill try to take it as an advantage aight.
study study study.
ill be back for more if i have the time tonight.
cant wait for the match tonight.
cant wait to watch FBI files in the noon.
wow!!!
i've missed my TV!!
cant wait for the match tonight.
cant wait to watch FBI files in the noon.
wow!!!
i've missed my TV!!
to whoever in need of inspiration:
when you feel that you are not worth it,
think again.
look within yourself and you'll find the answers.
when you lose faith in yourself,
grab a chance instead of sitting on it.
p.s:i dont think that made sense to any of you right.
oh well.
all the best aight.
good weekend people.
i love you all.
when you feel that you are not worth it,
think again.
look within yourself and you'll find the answers.
when you lose faith in yourself,
grab a chance instead of sitting on it.
p.s:i dont think that made sense to any of you right.
oh well.
all the best aight.
good weekend people.
i love you all.
riyah starr@ 12:25 pm
Friday, September 23, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
dee's out for camp the next few days.
gonna have a hell of a time sleeping on that queen sized bed.
woah!
but i do miss her.
yes,i do.
are you'all suprised or something?
dee's out for camp the next few days.
gonna have a hell of a time sleeping on that queen sized bed.
woah!
but i do miss her.
yes,i do.
are you'all suprised or something?
im beginning to study a lil bit
not that much as i struggle to come to terms with myself
laugh.ill getback up soon
not that much as i struggle to come to terms with myself
laugh.ill getback up soon
sometimes i wonder when i ever will have company thru the night?
maybe you've guessed it.
im all alone.
i dont like cause ill be slacking, like what im doing right now.
laughs.but it gives me a reason to come online.
maybe you've guessed it.
im all alone.
i dont like cause ill be slacking, like what im doing right now.
laughs.but it gives me a reason to come online.
so what happened today was that i wake up with the smallest eyes i ever had.
i couldnt open it at all.
i had to use my fingers to ensure that its open properly.
and when i enter into the rays of sunlight, my eyes hurt.
damn!!
and im planning to stay in late again tonight.
i need all the time i can find to study with little distractions.
i know i can do it.
with less than a week to exams, who wont worry right?
i couldnt open it at all.
i had to use my fingers to ensure that its open properly.
and when i enter into the rays of sunlight, my eyes hurt.
damn!!
and im planning to stay in late again tonight.
i need all the time i can find to study with little distractions.
i know i can do it.
with less than a week to exams, who wont worry right?
and im beginning to worry for my friends too
not that im trying to say anything
i just hope that my dearest will have strength to face this exams
i know its scary to be studying all day and night
i know its scary if we had brain freeze or something
insyaallah we wont have any of that right?
and huda, i will help if you need me aight.
remember some strategies k?
not that im trying to say anything
i just hope that my dearest will have strength to face this exams
i know its scary to be studying all day and night
i know its scary if we had brain freeze or something
insyaallah we wont have any of that right?
and huda, i will help if you need me aight.
remember some strategies k?
haven been talking to brother.
working night shifts the past few nights.
and tmr he will work in the morning.
great timings?definitely not.
lets just say that half the time i wish that we were all younger again and he had to stay home to take care of me.hahaha.
working night shifts the past few nights.
and tmr he will work in the morning.
great timings?definitely not.
lets just say that half the time i wish that we were all younger again and he had to stay home to take care of me.hahaha.
riyah starr@ 8:25 pm
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
the past are all erased personally by me!!i'd rather forget those moments then live in torments of it.im happy that we are all back to normal.
and finally, i have the arms of my lovely little sister.yes,im sorry for tearing when you were hugging me.i felt that moment so much that i had to cry.somehow, i do miss that hug of yours.i do!!and great you are missing me.hahaha.
and i have discovered loads about you, siti!!i have i have.and 1 hours and 48 minutes is worth great time of mine.maybe we should do that more often.we have many similarities that we hold deep within uorselves.and like you, my stubbornness remain as a rock that wont break.but that aside, you have shown me something that i have been waiting for.and for that,i love you many muches.we should take our similarities and use that as an advantage to overcome any obstacles.
shiqin,was i too fast?or you were too slow?hahaha.sorry darling.you're still the ultimate best!!and im proud that you're not sleeping in class that much now.hehe.
i have all that i want by my side right now.aishah, siti, shiqin, huda.not forgetting geetha too!!its all blessings.i have what it takes to make you happy,i would do just that for you girls.i would :D
and no, i dont take things for granted.but i guess for some reason, human being human, i tend to forget certain things.thats my weakness!!but im hoping to work on it muchbetter than anything else.
some parts of me were hurting when i read what i saw right in front of myself.i know i was been made the fool.a big fool who was just blinded by what she thought was good.but now i know.!what's good and what's bad.definitely she's bad.im bad in my own way but i do realise that and i make new commitments to better myself.but i dont think she will ever come to realise anything.to her, she is in control.i mean everyone likes being in control but we have to compromise i guess.i was mean but i tried not to be super mean cause i felt for her.but now im just plain wrong.oh well.we'll have to see what's going to happen.
and siti, aishah, shiqin-please remind me not to be too kind nexttime k?i think with constant reminders i can pursue what i came here to do the first time.yes :D
the past are all erased personally by me!!i'd rather forget those moments then live in torments of it.im happy that we are all back to normal.
and finally, i have the arms of my lovely little sister.yes,im sorry for tearing when you were hugging me.i felt that moment so much that i had to cry.somehow, i do miss that hug of yours.i do!!and great you are missing me.hahaha.
and i have discovered loads about you, siti!!i have i have.and 1 hours and 48 minutes is worth great time of mine.maybe we should do that more often.we have many similarities that we hold deep within uorselves.and like you, my stubbornness remain as a rock that wont break.but that aside, you have shown me something that i have been waiting for.and for that,i love you many muches.we should take our similarities and use that as an advantage to overcome any obstacles.
shiqin,was i too fast?or you were too slow?hahaha.sorry darling.you're still the ultimate best!!and im proud that you're not sleeping in class that much now.hehe.
i have all that i want by my side right now.aishah, siti, shiqin, huda.not forgetting geetha too!!its all blessings.i have what it takes to make you happy,i would do just that for you girls.i would :D
and no, i dont take things for granted.but i guess for some reason, human being human, i tend to forget certain things.thats my weakness!!but im hoping to work on it muchbetter than anything else.
some parts of me were hurting when i read what i saw right in front of myself.i know i was been made the fool.a big fool who was just blinded by what she thought was good.but now i know.!what's good and what's bad.definitely she's bad.im bad in my own way but i do realise that and i make new commitments to better myself.but i dont think she will ever come to realise anything.to her, she is in control.i mean everyone likes being in control but we have to compromise i guess.i was mean but i tried not to be super mean cause i felt for her.but now im just plain wrong.oh well.we'll have to see what's going to happen.
and siti, aishah, shiqin-please remind me not to be too kind nexttime k?i think with constant reminders i can pursue what i came here to do the first time.yes :D
to my little tots:
a deepest mistake made by me was human.
im glad you came to rescue me out.
i wont know and i might never know if you didnt open my eyes to see things.
i have been showered with love.
with amazing time.
and wonderful smiles.
i was demanding.
but you understood me the bestest you could.
thank you for being you.!!
i love you much little tots :D
[you know who you are]
a deepest mistake made by me was human.
im glad you came to rescue me out.
i wont know and i might never know if you didnt open my eyes to see things.
i have been showered with love.
with amazing time.
and wonderful smiles.
i was demanding.
but you understood me the bestest you could.
thank you for being you.!!
i love you much little tots :D
[you know who you are]
riyah starr@ 4:35 pm
Sunday, September 18, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
couldnt do much yesterday and today.feels tiring but not sure from what.maybe its just a mind trick on my part.took me almost two hours to come up with the points for my GP essay.great!this shows that im pretty slow in my thoughts lately.its either im becoming more dumb or just too old to think properly.
courts, lawyers, money, family.doesnt seem to make any sense to me?why cant they just end their dispute in a nicer fashion than that?all they care about is themselves and yes, that i know very well.if she doesnt care about her own mother, what more her own father-in-law.there goes the almost recovered wound.its now left open with bacteria attacking it that she [in this case me] cant handle things that she hear.yes, i should leave these worries to the adults to care for.but no, i cant.as a member of this family, i have the right to worry about their beings.and i care for mummy.lets just hope things will work out for daddy soon.ill be praying for you daddy!all the time!!
and yesterday was just peaceful.laughters and smiles.means more wrinkles in the near future.hahaha.i cant help recalling the fact that i was laughing so hard that even tears fell down my cheeks which i didnt even realise.part of me just wanna burst out crying right then but i couldnt cause i was just too happy.and so i still hold backthe pain that i just wanna cry out loud.i do.!!
okays back to my second point.i feel like my world should just crumble.maybe its a part of me that i should blame.yes,i definitely should.i cant make anyone understand the way i feel.cause no matter what i tell people, i cant just let them know how i truly feel.and maybe its really time that i consider taking a part time job during the holidays.no, the money wont be for myself.i wanna contribute o this family.seeing how my father have to save every penny that he's got to bring us to terms with so many things kinda make me feel that i've been blessed.and seeing that now im faced with so many problems i cant seem to help with, it makes me feel helpless.i worry if daddy finds out about dee's bank account.his hard work washed down the drained.i worry if we couoldnt meet end meets cause the children dont know how to save. maybe i should starve myself so i can account for my own bills and such.i cannot describe how painful it is to hear the aftermath of grandmother's crying on the phone.it breaks my heart that i cant be there for her.and yes, my aunt was stupid so stupid that karma has reached her.she desrved it.not my grandmother.if i can find a way to help, i would.and findinf a job might be out of the option cause i have my commitments to council.orientation again so i have to be there for them.sighs.
as i resurface from my recovery, i watch as my world crumble again.
couldnt do much yesterday and today.feels tiring but not sure from what.maybe its just a mind trick on my part.took me almost two hours to come up with the points for my GP essay.great!this shows that im pretty slow in my thoughts lately.its either im becoming more dumb or just too old to think properly.
courts, lawyers, money, family.doesnt seem to make any sense to me?why cant they just end their dispute in a nicer fashion than that?all they care about is themselves and yes, that i know very well.if she doesnt care about her own mother, what more her own father-in-law.there goes the almost recovered wound.its now left open with bacteria attacking it that she [in this case me] cant handle things that she hear.yes, i should leave these worries to the adults to care for.but no, i cant.as a member of this family, i have the right to worry about their beings.and i care for mummy.lets just hope things will work out for daddy soon.ill be praying for you daddy!all the time!!
and yesterday was just peaceful.laughters and smiles.means more wrinkles in the near future.hahaha.i cant help recalling the fact that i was laughing so hard that even tears fell down my cheeks which i didnt even realise.part of me just wanna burst out crying right then but i couldnt cause i was just too happy.and so i still hold backthe pain that i just wanna cry out loud.i do.!!
okays back to my second point.i feel like my world should just crumble.maybe its a part of me that i should blame.yes,i definitely should.i cant make anyone understand the way i feel.cause no matter what i tell people, i cant just let them know how i truly feel.and maybe its really time that i consider taking a part time job during the holidays.no, the money wont be for myself.i wanna contribute o this family.seeing how my father have to save every penny that he's got to bring us to terms with so many things kinda make me feel that i've been blessed.and seeing that now im faced with so many problems i cant seem to help with, it makes me feel helpless.i worry if daddy finds out about dee's bank account.his hard work washed down the drained.i worry if we couoldnt meet end meets cause the children dont know how to save. maybe i should starve myself so i can account for my own bills and such.i cannot describe how painful it is to hear the aftermath of grandmother's crying on the phone.it breaks my heart that i cant be there for her.and yes, my aunt was stupid so stupid that karma has reached her.she desrved it.not my grandmother.if i can find a way to help, i would.and findinf a job might be out of the option cause i have my commitments to council.orientation again so i have to be there for them.sighs.
as i resurface from my recovery, i watch as my world crumble again.
riyah starr@ 4:25 pm
Saturday, September 17, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenziehopefully today will be a good day.see i brought my pain to my dreams last night.i dreamt of them having fun and me stuck in my dreams?it doesnt make sense actually but its almost like a sign to me.really it ought to be.but let's put the aside for the weekend.i dont need no trouble man.
let's just enjoy studying the weekwnd without any worries!!im so pumped up this weekend.and considering the fact that i managed to read the front page of berita harian.i still dont have the discipline to read the whole paper.i never enjoy reading the papers these days.oh well.
mummy is going to geylang later with grandmother and littlest aunt.and the little ones,i assume.how cute!haven seen my cousins for weeks now!and what's worse ill prolly wont see them for the next few months.my life is not highlighted with family events this year.its really kinda sad i must say.but i know that grandmother would understand what im going through right now.
its pretty scary whatthe rest of the year holds for me.here's the little highlight for you:
promo exams.
written report deadline.
oral presentation-my group would be one of the first,i believe.and to think that the first day of the OP begins on the second day of hari raya.looks like my money runs away from me.boohoo!!
SLE camp.
another camp [i think].
im having a good time chatting with kira now.still feels pretty upset over what happened but i hope he will be fine.really really hope so!! :D
riyah starr@ 11:50 am
Thursday, September 15, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
yes,tomorrow is the mother tongue promo paper!yes,im pretty stressed out just thinking about it.its crazy!my mind is like playing games with me saying that i might justfail this paper.arghh!!for now,all i can do is to admire people like saha who doesnt have to worry a hoot about mother tongue.goodness!so im just gonna give all my best for tomorrow.whatever happens shall happen!sighs.
my tummy now aches but i dont know why.i guess i have indigestion or something.hahahaha.erm,mummy was scolding me just now telling to shower the minute i got home.she scolded me twice in a span of 3 minutes.oh well.what a luck!!im going outta here and to the books.im like a mugger freak.is there even such a term?funnyness!!hahahah.
last night was an incredible night i guess.had an equal dosage of fun, joy and mugging.yes,i did enjoy myself putting my face into the notes till the very early of the morning.i slept like 2am with the hopes that i can catch the manchester match after.i didnt get up so the tv was literally watching me sleep rather than me watching it.make sense!!??but i guess my studying time was efficient cause i did manage to complete a set of notes while messaging syirah.i think it just jeeps me more alive at night.hahahahah.
now i gotta go already.a short entry it shall be.i shall get outta here before mummy starts to scream her hearts out at me again.and daddy's up from a nap!!
yes,tomorrow is the mother tongue promo paper!yes,im pretty stressed out just thinking about it.its crazy!my mind is like playing games with me saying that i might justfail this paper.arghh!!for now,all i can do is to admire people like saha who doesnt have to worry a hoot about mother tongue.goodness!so im just gonna give all my best for tomorrow.whatever happens shall happen!sighs.
my tummy now aches but i dont know why.i guess i have indigestion or something.hahahaha.erm,mummy was scolding me just now telling to shower the minute i got home.she scolded me twice in a span of 3 minutes.oh well.what a luck!!im going outta here and to the books.im like a mugger freak.is there even such a term?funnyness!!hahahah.
last night was an incredible night i guess.had an equal dosage of fun, joy and mugging.yes,i did enjoy myself putting my face into the notes till the very early of the morning.i slept like 2am with the hopes that i can catch the manchester match after.i didnt get up so the tv was literally watching me sleep rather than me watching it.make sense!!??but i guess my studying time was efficient cause i did manage to complete a set of notes while messaging syirah.i think it just jeeps me more alive at night.hahahahah.
now i gotta go already.a short entry it shall be.i shall get outta here before mummy starts to scream her hearts out at me again.and daddy's up from a nap!!
riyah starr@ 5:40 pm
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
yes!these past few days has been pretty hard on me.very hard indeed!all these masks that i put on to show the world that i can still live on.yes,im blessed to have all the love and support from my family and friends.somehow,still alone and abandoned i feel.!
pretty busy today cause i have to do written report which was like due two weeks back.i have to study for management test which i wont be studying by the looks of it.i have to re-memorise the peribahasa.i have to do my long overdued management assignment.and i have to figure out what else im supposed to do.thats not much i supposed but i can tell you that i was pretty disappointed with myself today in school.i did study a little bit for the human geography test but the minute i received the paper on my desk, my brain suddenly went blank.and i was staring atthe question and at shiqin.my goodness!i was then wondering what if that had occurred to me during exams?i would just break down and cry.!!boohoo!!
and i did try not to sleep during lessons today.i think i dint sleep but i was daydreaming less than 2 minutes.management lesson was an improvement cause i paid attention and i understood what chelvy was talking about.and yes, shiqin got picked by chelvy loads today.thanks to her daydreaming too!!hahaha.but GP was a killer cause my eyes were droopy enough and my ears shut from her voice.i think im gonna have to try harder.that reminds me that i have GP essay outline due on friday.
the sudden SC meeting kinda caught me off caught.cause i was so prepared to go home and have a good restbefore starting on any of my tasks.i thought the meeting would end like about 15 minutes or 30 minutes max.but then it kinda dragged till 430pm and we started like about 210pm.oh my god!!just two main issues and we had to stay behind for like hours on end.i cant remember how many times i yawned in the den just now.
and im proud of myself.so not looking so hard!!thank goodness riyah!!you have finally keep to your words of wisdom!!hahahaha.lets pray that no charming guy comes my way la..hahaha..
what you see is what you get.if you dont like it,then dont see.its as simple as that!!
p.s. syirah-i know you're going thru a rough phase right now but remember to stay strong always.you still have me dearie.and remember to revise more!'o' levels is coming! :D
yes!these past few days has been pretty hard on me.very hard indeed!all these masks that i put on to show the world that i can still live on.yes,im blessed to have all the love and support from my family and friends.somehow,still alone and abandoned i feel.!
pretty busy today cause i have to do written report which was like due two weeks back.i have to study for management test which i wont be studying by the looks of it.i have to re-memorise the peribahasa.i have to do my long overdued management assignment.and i have to figure out what else im supposed to do.thats not much i supposed but i can tell you that i was pretty disappointed with myself today in school.i did study a little bit for the human geography test but the minute i received the paper on my desk, my brain suddenly went blank.and i was staring atthe question and at shiqin.my goodness!i was then wondering what if that had occurred to me during exams?i would just break down and cry.!!boohoo!!
and i did try not to sleep during lessons today.i think i dint sleep but i was daydreaming less than 2 minutes.management lesson was an improvement cause i paid attention and i understood what chelvy was talking about.and yes, shiqin got picked by chelvy loads today.thanks to her daydreaming too!!hahaha.but GP was a killer cause my eyes were droopy enough and my ears shut from her voice.i think im gonna have to try harder.that reminds me that i have GP essay outline due on friday.
the sudden SC meeting kinda caught me off caught.cause i was so prepared to go home and have a good restbefore starting on any of my tasks.i thought the meeting would end like about 15 minutes or 30 minutes max.but then it kinda dragged till 430pm and we started like about 210pm.oh my god!!just two main issues and we had to stay behind for like hours on end.i cant remember how many times i yawned in the den just now.
and im proud of myself.so not looking so hard!!thank goodness riyah!!you have finally keep to your words of wisdom!!hahahaha.lets pray that no charming guy comes my way la..hahaha..
what you see is what you get.if you dont like it,then dont see.its as simple as that!!
p.s. syirah-i know you're going thru a rough phase right now but remember to stay strong always.you still have me dearie.and remember to revise more!'o' levels is coming! :D
riyah starr@ 7:07 pm
Sunday, September 11, 2005
so much of being away from this bloggy.
just have to let out my frustrations somehow.
the betrayal too.
it doesnt really matter to me if friendship turns sour.
but me being kind somejow will take it so hard on myself.
suck.
and family can hurt you as much.
when blood runs thicker than water.
what do you get?
those sweet little betrayals.
so you're angry at daddy for a decision he made.
you think im not angry or even sad about it?
i am as angry as traumatised as you can be.
i thank you for protecting me for from a monster of a grandfather that i have.
i do i appreciate that.
but you shouldnt blame daddy for what he decide on.
nobody knew that it was going to be this way,
nobody knew that he was going to be so crazy.
nobody nobody NOBODY!!
why cant you just forget that it happened 2 months back?
its over now.
we all have to move on and you're still hurting about it.
it haunts me at night to sleep.
it frightens me to go the toilet and knowing that he stood there once.
it freaked me to enter the house and know that he attacked me.
it scares me to sit at this computer and remember that my fingers were cold.
im putting all that behind now.
can you just leave it all behind?
please dee.
somehow you're angry with daddy.
must you take out on mummy?
must you hurt her?
and hurt me?
we are all victims in this family.
if daddy didnt take him, grandfather would be left in the hands of unfilial children.
but we know now that he is far from us.
we prolly wont see him till the day he die.
so forget that fact would you?
i dont like you hurting my family.
your family too.
just dont.
i know you have a boyfriend now.
you wanna share your joys of him with me.
i cant pretend to be happy for you when you're just hurting me.
you never let mummy know your whereabouts anymore.
its almost like you forgot your roots.
your mother.
the person who carried you for nine months.
in your case ten months.
i hope you realise that soon enough,
or i shall say karma gets back to you.
brother, i need you right now.
please come home
just have to let out my frustrations somehow.
the betrayal too.
it doesnt really matter to me if friendship turns sour.
but me being kind somejow will take it so hard on myself.
suck.
and family can hurt you as much.
when blood runs thicker than water.
what do you get?
those sweet little betrayals.
so you're angry at daddy for a decision he made.
you think im not angry or even sad about it?
i am as angry as traumatised as you can be.
i thank you for protecting me for from a monster of a grandfather that i have.
i do i appreciate that.
but you shouldnt blame daddy for what he decide on.
nobody knew that it was going to be this way,
nobody knew that he was going to be so crazy.
nobody nobody NOBODY!!
why cant you just forget that it happened 2 months back?
its over now.
we all have to move on and you're still hurting about it.
it haunts me at night to sleep.
it frightens me to go the toilet and knowing that he stood there once.
it freaked me to enter the house and know that he attacked me.
it scares me to sit at this computer and remember that my fingers were cold.
im putting all that behind now.
can you just leave it all behind?
please dee.
somehow you're angry with daddy.
must you take out on mummy?
must you hurt her?
and hurt me?
we are all victims in this family.
if daddy didnt take him, grandfather would be left in the hands of unfilial children.
but we know now that he is far from us.
we prolly wont see him till the day he die.
so forget that fact would you?
i dont like you hurting my family.
your family too.
just dont.
i know you have a boyfriend now.
you wanna share your joys of him with me.
i cant pretend to be happy for you when you're just hurting me.
you never let mummy know your whereabouts anymore.
its almost like you forgot your roots.
your mother.
the person who carried you for nine months.
in your case ten months.
i hope you realise that soon enough,
or i shall say karma gets back to you.
brother, i need you right now.
please come home
riyah starr@ 4:09 pm
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
self discipline.
thats what i need right now.
move that lazy ass of yours riyah!!
yesterday was horrible.
came online a couple of times.
studied my malay peribahasa till its finished.
thank goodness at least i can put my mind at ease.
did another MCQ topic for economics.
im handling MCQs first before proceeding to concentrate on essays.
i know i can score for essays so i gotta take this advantage.
planning to finish up weathering today.
and long run MCQ.
and maybe read up on management.
and not forgetting to do my essay outlines for malay.
self discipline.
thats what i need right now.
move that lazy ass of yours riyah!!
yesterday was horrible.
came online a couple of times.
studied my malay peribahasa till its finished.
thank goodness at least i can put my mind at ease.
did another MCQ topic for economics.
im handling MCQs first before proceeding to concentrate on essays.
i know i can score for essays so i gotta take this advantage.
planning to finish up weathering today.
and long run MCQ.
and maybe read up on management.
and not forgetting to do my essay outlines for malay.
home alone.
as always the usual.
so its going to be peaceful morning till noon.
hope mummy and daddy will come back like 5pm?
hahahaha.
as always the usual.
so its going to be peaceful morning till noon.
hope mummy and daddy will come back like 5pm?
hahahaha.
past days were merely listening to the discman.
had to put the MP3 aside man.
it kinda took my life away from my CD collection.
and now im like listening to moffatts.
westlife.
a1.
spice girls.
hahaha.
wanted to listen to avril&simple plan's second album.
but one's with jiang jin&another with jacky.
when you'all wanna giveback ah??
just kidding.
had to put the MP3 aside man.
it kinda took my life away from my CD collection.
and now im like listening to moffatts.
westlife.
a1.
spice girls.
hahaha.
wanted to listen to avril&simple plan's second album.
but one's with jiang jin&another with jacky.
when you'all wanna giveback ah??
just kidding.
watched VMAs last night.
great music beautiful people.
cant believe the guys were much much better-looking than the ladies.
hilary duff was such a big turn-off.
she doesnt look pretty even with her extreme makeover.
sometimes i wonder why we people lust over such stars?
they're not really living in a real world.
money i guess.
oh well.
great music beautiful people.
cant believe the guys were much much better-looking than the ladies.
hilary duff was such a big turn-off.
she doesnt look pretty even with her extreme makeover.
sometimes i wonder why we people lust over such stars?
they're not really living in a real world.
money i guess.
oh well.
just two days and i kinda missed chatting with my friends.
SMS geetha but she like not enthu to talk to me.
maybe she already got something better to do.
SMS shiqin also the same.
goodness!
i think i dont have a proper life.
they all seemed so busy or faking to be busy.
argh!i must do something.
as i speak, shiqin's prolly studying her ass off.
i cant let this happen.
SMS geetha but she like not enthu to talk to me.
maybe she already got something better to do.
SMS shiqin also the same.
goodness!
i think i dont have a proper life.
they all seemed so busy or faking to be busy.
argh!i must do something.
as i speak, shiqin's prolly studying her ass off.
i cant let this happen.
p.s
if conditions get worse,
i might not blog the next few days.
i just figure i might be a bad girl and not do revision.
i will miss you bloggy.
muahs.
and soccer last night was terrible memories.
to think that i stayed up to watch two disappoiting matches.
damn man utd and arsenal.
if conditions get worse,
i might not blog the next few days.
i just figure i might be a bad girl and not do revision.
i will miss you bloggy.
muahs.
and soccer last night was terrible memories.
to think that i stayed up to watch two disappoiting matches.
damn man utd and arsenal.
riyah starr@ 10:24 am
Saturday, September 10, 2005
..as quoted by kumari "cute princess riyah"..the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
feels like a sunday morning today.
its not.
looks like i gotta start on more revision today.
past days been slack as usual.
feels like a sunday morning today.
its not.
looks like i gotta start on more revision today.
past days been slack as usual.
woke up to the sound of the silence
daddy wasnt in
brother went to work just when i was waking up
thank god i saw his face
i shall not sleep tonight till i at least say a few words to him
i need to talk to my only brother!!
mummy scolded me for not showering yet using the computer
her words fall on deaf ears
too bad really!!
im not listening!!
daddy wasnt in
brother went to work just when i was waking up
thank god i saw his face
i shall not sleep tonight till i at least say a few words to him
i need to talk to my only brother!!
mummy scolded me for not showering yet using the computer
her words fall on deaf ears
too bad really!!
im not listening!!
think mummy's pretty stressed up lately.
daddy's been thru so much ups&downs that she always hears him rant.
his impatience eats me up inside.
daddy's been thru so much ups&downs that she always hears him rant.
his impatience eats me up inside.
and last night.
the one i called an idiot SMS me.
dumb ass!
i was willing to make him my friend.
and he had to ask me "what i would say if he asked me to be his girl?"
what the hell!!??
seriously, what was he thinking?
i didnt reply him back cause i didnt wanna hurt him or myself in this matter.
its not the idiot i want.
its someone else.
but its okay.
no, i didnt accept it!!
and today i dont regret that decision.
you know why?
though having a guy would seem really really special,
ihave more important things in my mind.
like how i would be like suffering behind in revision and stuff.
so pat yourself in the back riyah!!
good job for not acting on an impulse!!
the one i called an idiot SMS me.
dumb ass!
i was willing to make him my friend.
and he had to ask me "what i would say if he asked me to be his girl?"
what the hell!!??
seriously, what was he thinking?
i didnt reply him back cause i didnt wanna hurt him or myself in this matter.
its not the idiot i want.
its someone else.
but its okay.
no, i didnt accept it!!
and today i dont regret that decision.
you know why?
though having a guy would seem really really special,
ihave more important things in my mind.
like how i would be like suffering behind in revision and stuff.
so pat yourself in the back riyah!!
good job for not acting on an impulse!!
p.s. after three weeks, another poetry is written.
its dedicated to geetha.
its dedicated to geetha.
riyah starr@ 10:07 am
Friday, September 09, 2005
..liyun&riyah..all smiles all happiness..the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
awesomeness!
a wonderful night ended last night like that.
full of laughters,joys and cuteness!
woaps!
met liyun with her new braces on.
i didnt laugh at her but i thought she looked cute in it.
and the pronunciations are still having some problems.
neoprints were wonderful with her.
definitely us!hahaha.
dinner was alrighty.
a little bit awkward here and there cause i felt a lil left out somehow.
but liyun never failed to cheer me on.
ate their chicken sandwich and was full up!
cool!
but i definitely enjoyed myself laughing my heads off to the lame jokes oft he guys.
and akira did a stupid game!truly stupid!hahahaha.
second round of neoprints with liyun,kumari,michelle and shahani.
my dearest sweethearts all in skirts!
i think we looked good in it.hahaha.self praising here!!hahaha.
awesomeness!
a wonderful night ended last night like that.
full of laughters,joys and cuteness!
woaps!
met liyun with her new braces on.
i didnt laugh at her but i thought she looked cute in it.
and the pronunciations are still having some problems.
neoprints were wonderful with her.
definitely us!hahaha.
dinner was alrighty.
a little bit awkward here and there cause i felt a lil left out somehow.
but liyun never failed to cheer me on.
ate their chicken sandwich and was full up!
cool!
but i definitely enjoyed myself laughing my heads off to the lame jokes oft he guys.
and akira did a stupid game!truly stupid!hahahaha.
second round of neoprints with liyun,kumari,michelle and shahani.
my dearest sweethearts all in skirts!
i think we looked good in it.hahaha.self praising here!!hahaha.
movie with liyun was great too!
its the firstt ime im watching a movie which starts at 915pm.
herbie:fully loaded was great!!
woah!!
reached home like around 1210am already.
phew!
lucky got no friendly ghost followed me back.
believe me i was scared to the bones while i was walking home.
and it didnt occur to me that i could call up a friend while walking back
dummy me!!
its the firstt ime im watching a movie which starts at 915pm.
herbie:fully loaded was great!!
woah!!
reached home like around 1210am already.
phew!
lucky got no friendly ghost followed me back.
believe me i was scared to the bones while i was walking home.
and it didnt occur to me that i could call up a friend while walking back
dummy me!!
today.
chinatown was horrible.
the weather was not good.
super duper doubly hot.
sticky bodies around and smelly people.
including me that is.
place not as interesting.
didnt learn much today.
kinda funny cause i was all over the place.
aishah was with her secondary friend.
huda was busy talking to mark.
siti and shiqin was either with me or with each other.
oh well.
teasing was lorryloads today.
lucky me didnt get teased.
thank goodness man!
i would be dead if i was being teased by some heartless friends of mine.
i was heartless too teasing shiqin like that.
but you know i love you darling :)
chinatown was horrible.
the weather was not good.
super duper doubly hot.
sticky bodies around and smelly people.
including me that is.
place not as interesting.
didnt learn much today.
kinda funny cause i was all over the place.
aishah was with her secondary friend.
huda was busy talking to mark.
siti and shiqin was either with me or with each other.
oh well.
teasing was lorryloads today.
lucky me didnt get teased.
thank goodness man!
i would be dead if i was being teased by some heartless friends of mine.
i was heartless too teasing shiqin like that.
but you know i love you darling :)
lunching was good too.
the best part of the day.
pizza hut!
ate like a pig.yes,a pig.
yes, yuo got me right!a pig.hahaha.
the table was full with plates and pizza and what-nots.
awesomeness!
went outta there with a full belly which wasnt nice to see.
hahahaha.
the best part of the day.
pizza hut!
ate like a pig.yes,a pig.
yes, yuo got me right!a pig.hahaha.
the table was full with plates and pizza and what-nots.
awesomeness!
went outta there with a full belly which wasnt nice to see.
hahahaha.
so here i am kinda feeling tired.
from the sun.
from the thoughts.
funnyness how i can change these thoughts of mine in an instant.
hmmph!
from the sun.
from the thoughts.
funnyness how i can change these thoughts of mine in an instant.
hmmph!
thank you kumari, michelle and shahani.
for giving me a peace of mind and so much happiness in SC.
you girls are already like family to me.
more neoprinting soon?
and kumari,im suprised you didnt know that we could decorate neoprints.
hahahaha.
funnyness.
for giving me a peace of mind and so much happiness in SC.
you girls are already like family to me.
more neoprinting soon?
and kumari,im suprised you didnt know that we could decorate neoprints.
hahahaha.
funnyness.
and liyun.
thank you for accepting a last minute request to watch a movie.
we did it..!!
lets watch another late night movie together.
and that seoul garden date we will have with jiali&yin.
after promos k?
thank you for accepting a last minute request to watch a movie.
we did it..!!
lets watch another late night movie together.
and that seoul garden date we will have with jiali&yin.
after promos k?
somehow i feel things are different this time around
i cant help thinking that i have so many crushes over the past months
i know its loads as my friends have told me
but right now all it comes back is to him
its not supposed to be this way
not supposed to fall anymore for him
but can i help this?
i cant
funnyness how i fall and get out of it
but now i feel the barrier
is it me?
is it someone else?
kinda freaky
i never planned it to be like this alrighty
lets pray for the better of things
you're supposed to be from nothingville
i cant help thinking that i have so many crushes over the past months
i know its loads as my friends have told me
but right now all it comes back is to him
its not supposed to be this way
not supposed to fall anymore for him
but can i help this?
i cant
funnyness how i fall and get out of it
but now i feel the barrier
is it me?
is it someone else?
kinda freaky
i never planned it to be like this alrighty
lets pray for the better of things
you're supposed to be from nothingville
riyah starr@ 6:50 pm
Thursday, September 08, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
difficult night.
damn hot night.
couldnt get to sleep cause it was freaking hot.
was still tossing and turning in bed at 244am.
what the hell?
missed the england match cause i couldnt hear the freaking alarm.
popped some music into the ears so i was like forcing myself to sleep.
difficult night.
damn hot night.
couldnt get to sleep cause it was freaking hot.
was still tossing and turning in bed at 244am.
what the hell?
missed the england match cause i couldnt hear the freaking alarm.
popped some music into the ears so i was like forcing myself to sleep.
damn the weather
today i woke up at 10
thats late alrighty
more than 2 hours wasted
i could have studied with those 2 hours
today i woke up at 10
thats late alrighty
more than 2 hours wasted
i could have studied with those 2 hours
so im kinda struggling to get the remaining of the peribahasa into my head
right now im only at number 72.
i have 8 more to memorise.
argghh!!
why is it so difficult man??
right now im only at number 72.
i have 8 more to memorise.
argghh!!
why is it so difficult man??
all i do now is to count the hours down.
i cant wait to get out of this house.
truly cant wait.
i mean daddy's not home but somehow staying home would kill me today.
i cant wait to get out of this house.
truly cant wait.
i mean daddy's not home but somehow staying home would kill me today.
i think my ears would burst soon
the whole night last night dee was practically talking about him
oh my god!
so being the little sweetest sister she ever had, i listened
i listened to her telling me how sweet her sayang was
must she do that to me?
i love hearing her most of the times but kinda torturous to hear her say
"its kinda nice since its quite long i was single"
i went like "what?i have been single longer than you lo"
and she went like "duh!"
how rude can she get
so i was kinda hurt that she said that
oh well
if its not rude, its not dee right??
the whole night last night dee was practically talking about him
oh my god!
so being the little sweetest sister she ever had, i listened
i listened to her telling me how sweet her sayang was
must she do that to me?
i love hearing her most of the times but kinda torturous to hear her say
"its kinda nice since its quite long i was single"
i went like "what?i have been single longer than you lo"
and she went like "duh!"
how rude can she get
so i was kinda hurt that she said that
oh well
if its not rude, its not dee right??
and suddenly someone asked me if wanna meet earlier.
not that i care really.
but i was taken aback by him suddenly asking.
but luckily i found out that he didnt asked me alone.
phew!
sigh of relief, thank goodness!
not that i care really.
but i was taken aback by him suddenly asking.
but luckily i found out that he didnt asked me alone.
phew!
sigh of relief, thank goodness!
so i wont be online tonight.
how sad!
i cant chat with syirah.
my hands were damn itchy la yesterday.
had to come online just for awhile so that i can chat with her.
i mean i would practically die if i didnt say hi.
hahahahahaha.
so im kinda pretty low that i cant chat with her.
its okay, there's still friday right syirah??
how sad!
i cant chat with syirah.
my hands were damn itchy la yesterday.
had to come online just for awhile so that i can chat with her.
i mean i would practically die if i didnt say hi.
hahahahahaha.
so im kinda pretty low that i cant chat with her.
its okay, there's still friday right syirah??
riyah starr@ 1:20 pm
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
..the ray of light..
..aww..how sweet..
..all green..pictures courtesy of miss syirah;the editor.
finally, i have a date.
well, its not really a date actually.
at least i found someone to watch a movie with me.
none other than liyun.
muahahaha.
luckily she was like so 'on' and steady about it.
so im on a hyper mood cause im kinda dying to watch something on the big screen.
finally, i have a date.
well, its not really a date actually.
at least i found someone to watch a movie with me.
none other than liyun.
muahahaha.
luckily she was like so 'on' and steady about it.
so im on a hyper mood cause im kinda dying to watch something on the big screen.
so i have begin to mug.
not to the fullest but its started nonetheless.
oh well.
the brain cells are alive after my nap.
learnt my peribahasa till number 62.
still got 18 more to go before next friday.
all the best RIYAH!!
not to the fullest but its started nonetheless.
oh well.
the brain cells are alive after my nap.
learnt my peribahasa till number 62.
still got 18 more to go before next friday.
all the best RIYAH!!
im insane
filled with adrenaline rush
filled with blushes when im reminded of him
enlightened with smiles of thougths of him
how sweet
but yet impossible i know
i give my blessings to him.
filled with adrenaline rush
filled with blushes when im reminded of him
enlightened with smiles of thougths of him
how sweet
but yet impossible i know
i give my blessings to him.
riyah starr@ 5:51 pm
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
swirls and twirls.
brain dead.
dont know when ill begin to study truly.
just think that i cant stay put on the chair for long hours.
when i lay on the bed,i fall asleep.
look who's the pig now??
hahahahaha.
swirls and twirls.
brain dead.
dont know when ill begin to study truly.
just think that i cant stay put on the chair for long hours.
when i lay on the bed,i fall asleep.
look who's the pig now??
hahahahaha.
mugging is good cause it takes your mind of things.
kinda let you drift away into the lands of geography.
the theories for business&economics.
but that playstation tempts me.
months untouched by me.
no fun.
kinda let you drift away into the lands of geography.
the theories for business&economics.
but that playstation tempts me.
months untouched by me.
no fun.
focus.
i will when the time comes.
is it too soon to mug?
next week will be too late.
so this week it shall start.
i will when the time comes.
is it too soon to mug?
next week will be too late.
so this week it shall start.
im superduper excited for dinner tommorrow.
woah!
but i wanna watch a movie.
but no one wants to accompany me.
boohoo.
looks like im dead.
I WANNA WATCH A MOVIE.
but it beats staying around at home right?
coolness..!!
dinner im gonna swallow you down in one whole mouthful.
if its possible.
woah!
but i wanna watch a movie.
but no one wants to accompany me.
boohoo.
looks like im dead.
I WANNA WATCH A MOVIE.
but it beats staying around at home right?
coolness..!!
dinner im gonna swallow you down in one whole mouthful.
if its possible.
friday.
a trip to chinatown.
where the chinese dominates?
can i watch a movie?
pizza hut?
a trip to chinatown.
where the chinese dominates?
can i watch a movie?
pizza hut?
never mind.
shall not demand too much.
to my little ones.
i love you all.
i miss you all too.
stare at me next time k?
cause i know you miss me too.
hahahaha
shall not demand too much.
to my little ones.
i love you all.
i miss you all too.
stare at me next time k?
cause i know you miss me too.
hahahaha
riyah starr@ 10:33 am
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
chills in a humid weather.
aches in the mind&soul.
pleasure seeked for freedom.
away from your screaming views.
pretense is your front.
i dont want it all.
truth shall be told.
i can take the fall.
deceived.
how i feel and what i feel.
bittersweet memories of you.
unsure if its sincerity.
i doubt it now.
i doubt it ever.
your words are my thoughts.
to recover i shall.
blind were my eyes.
wrapped in your promises&lies.
can i trust anybody?
can i trust you?
can i trust anyone?
can i trust somebody
who wont use me for my weakness?
chills in a humid weather.
aches in the mind&soul.
pleasure seeked for freedom.
away from your screaming views.
pretense is your front.
i dont want it all.
truth shall be told.
i can take the fall.
deceived.
how i feel and what i feel.
bittersweet memories of you.
unsure if its sincerity.
i doubt it now.
i doubt it ever.
your words are my thoughts.
to recover i shall.
blind were my eyes.
wrapped in your promises&lies.
can i trust anybody?
can i trust you?
can i trust anyone?
can i trust somebody
who wont use me for my weakness?
riyah starr@ 4:15 pm
Monday, September 05, 2005
..i think the syirah's side is better for me..
..acting all sweet&lady-like for the camera..
..preparations for a so called date..the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
alright weekend.
perfect start to september hols.
saturday was a day out with nani.
went to the asian civilisation museum.
was packed loads of fun and heels running around.
artefacts were great.
awesome paintings.
pixels attack.
cuteness unleashed.
sweetness divine.
alright weekend.
perfect start to september hols.
saturday was a day out with nani.
went to the asian civilisation museum.
was packed loads of fun and heels running around.
artefacts were great.
awesome paintings.
pixels attack.
cuteness unleashed.
sweetness divine.
sunday boredom.
screaming of the lungs of the ape.
sardine in a little car with 11 human soul.
sentosa was gloomy.
unwelcoming.
gorgeous looking people.
malay was all of them.
smiles were recieved.
heart was crazy!
screaming of the lungs of the ape.
sardine in a little car with 11 human soul.
sentosa was gloomy.
unwelcoming.
gorgeous looking people.
malay was all of them.
smiles were recieved.
heart was crazy!
school's in on a monday.
wakey wokey up late at 7am.
geetha waited for me.
entered class late at 825.
but others were much later.
so tomorrow we will be much much much more later.
economics is fun!
believe that!
im in the mood for study.
more study.
more study.
masters degree here i come.!
wakey wokey up late at 7am.
geetha waited for me.
entered class late at 825.
but others were much later.
so tomorrow we will be much much much more later.
economics is fun!
believe that!
im in the mood for study.
more study.
more study.
masters degree here i come.!
rocky night.
mood swings.
emotions rocked.
unstable tears.
unblinkable thoughts.
the sadness you bear burdens me twice more.
i feel the gap between us, i really do.
i try to make it up to you.
but i forget to just send you the littlest thing i can give.
my hectic schedule makes me a robot.
im sorry you're sad.
it makes me rotten.
mood swings.
emotions rocked.
unstable tears.
unblinkable thoughts.
the sadness you bear burdens me twice more.
i feel the gap between us, i really do.
i try to make it up to you.
but i forget to just send you the littlest thing i can give.
my hectic schedule makes me a robot.
im sorry you're sad.
it makes me rotten.
urge to bury myself alive.
you asked why?
i told you why.
didnt feel it yesterday but i felt it today.
its on a roll.
my kindness cant be repaid by anything else.
i dont understand.
what will become of me?
you asked why?
i told you why.
didnt feel it yesterday but i felt it today.
its on a roll.
my kindness cant be repaid by anything else.
i dont understand.
what will become of me?
nasha.
it does matter to me how you feel.
dont mean to make you feel sad.
dont know why you felt unwelcomed.
it wasnt supposed to be like this.
but i hope you would give just a little but to keep us alive.
please!
it does matter to me how you feel.
dont mean to make you feel sad.
dont know why you felt unwelcomed.
it wasnt supposed to be like this.
but i hope you would give just a little but to keep us alive.
please!
syirah.
thank you so much for rescuing me!
hearing me rant on about me.
but you played your part and told me yours.
it kinda made me feel much much better after the release with you.
and boy!
i was super duper happy to see you!!!
yes, iam!!
we did managed to talk a little bit!!
YEAH!!!a good leap of improvement..
and love you loads for sharing many things with me now.
muahs.
thank you so much for rescuing me!
hearing me rant on about me.
but you played your part and told me yours.
it kinda made me feel much much better after the release with you.
and boy!
i was super duper happy to see you!!!
yes, iam!!
we did managed to talk a little bit!!
YEAH!!!a good leap of improvement..
and love you loads for sharing many things with me now.
muahs.
riyah starr@ 5:05 pm
Friday, September 02, 2005
..adik&me..she is so sweet..
..the unplanned ladies in pink..we swear we didnt plan to wear this colour..
..my dearest bestie in council..shahani&me..
..04a3 rawks..with some missing peeps..
..jacky&me..
..my assistant..kai ling&me..the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
im on a high today.
pretty excited that its the weekend and next week is term break.
sadly,its only a week long.
but thank goodness ill be kept busy throughout the whole week.
im on a high today.
pretty excited that its the weekend and next week is term break.
sadly,its only a week long.
but thank goodness ill be kept busy throughout the whole week.
going to school was alrighty.
usual chats with huda on the way.
was still sleepy on the journey to school.
i felt fat today and i thought my uniform was small.
damn!
i hate periods!!!!!
usual chats with huda on the way.
was still sleepy on the journey to school.
i felt fat today and i thought my uniform was small.
damn!
i hate periods!!!!!
management test was a torture!
i didnt study one bit for the freaking test.
thank you qin baby for giving me the points.
at least got write something on the paper.
there goes another chance to prove myself.
its alrighty.
i dont play with small little tests.
i go for the big fish now.
i didnt study one bit for the freaking test.
thank you qin baby for giving me the points.
at least got write something on the paper.
there goes another chance to prove myself.
its alrighty.
i dont play with small little tests.
i go for the big fish now.
changed the class seating arrangements today.
liyun, jiali &yinlei sparked off this idea.
coolness ladies!
i think that you all made a job out of it.
im still sitting beside qin with the sea of lonely!!!
sighs.
liyun, jiali &yinlei sparked off this idea.
coolness ladies!
i think that you all made a job out of it.
im still sitting beside qin with the sea of lonely!!!
sighs.
was still surviving during break.
but GP was torture and the cramps got worse.
tried to shake it off by laughing with me friends.
didnt help one bit!
popped two menstrual panadol but then the pain didnt go away.
forgo going to SC meeting today.
pretty sad for me!!
it was supposed to start at 430pm but i cant bear the pain.
dammit!!
but GP was torture and the cramps got worse.
tried to shake it off by laughing with me friends.
didnt help one bit!
popped two menstrual panadol but then the pain didnt go away.
forgo going to SC meeting today.
pretty sad for me!!
it was supposed to start at 430pm but i cant bear the pain.
dammit!!
told zanura that i wasnt coming.
went home to rest.
slept through the hours and now im still suffering in pain.
oh man!
went home to rest.
slept through the hours and now im still suffering in pain.
oh man!
something's wrong with jacky today.
guess he was on a high but then he kept quiet after sometime.
oh well!
something wrong dude?
guess he was on a high but then he kept quiet after sometime.
oh well!
something wrong dude?
monday we shall have econ lessons.
boring econs lessons with mr lim.
im gonna fall asleep through the freaking three hours.
then after that geetha,shiqin,jiang jin, nasri and i will meet at JP for meeting.
its for the convenience of mr syed nasri.
winks.
but he still complains.
i wonder why we cant ever meet his needs sometimes.
nutshell.
i thought of watching a movie after that.
but i dont know who to ask to go with me.
sighs.
boring econs lessons with mr lim.
im gonna fall asleep through the freaking three hours.
then after that geetha,shiqin,jiang jin, nasri and i will meet at JP for meeting.
its for the convenience of mr syed nasri.
winks.
but he still complains.
i wonder why we cant ever meet his needs sometimes.
nutshell.
i thought of watching a movie after that.
but i dont know who to ask to go with me.
sighs.
riyah starr@ 8:05 pm
Thursday, September 01, 2005
i feel like i have loads to do.
but i cant seem to figure out what.
i did my management assignment.
then i went back to sleep for a long time.
weirdness.
strange feeling that i missed out something lays within me.
but i cant seem to figure out what.
i did my management assignment.
then i went back to sleep for a long time.
weirdness.
strange feeling that i missed out something lays within me.
i shall take back my words right now.
i feel that i want to have my life back right now.
i wanna spend every single waking day with my family.
and other times with my loveliest of friends.
i wanna make sure that i will have my life back.
its so much that i can do with it.
with much thoughts, i guess i was just being childrenish again.
people, i want my life back.
i feel that i want to have my life back right now.
i wanna spend every single waking day with my family.
and other times with my loveliest of friends.
i wanna make sure that i will have my life back.
its so much that i can do with it.
with much thoughts, i guess i was just being childrenish again.
people, i want my life back.
i think i have come to realise that exams are pretty much important.
was going to start on revision today.
but my tiredness just made me slept even longer hours.
with blasting music on my mp3 with music on mtv, i lay asleep.
like a child.
with no worries but weird dreams.
i know i shall not dissapoint myself or my family.
i know their dreams and aspirations lies with me.
their hope that i can bring glory to this family is in my hands.
i shall make it happen to them and for them.
was going to start on revision today.
but my tiredness just made me slept even longer hours.
with blasting music on my mp3 with music on mtv, i lay asleep.
like a child.
with no worries but weird dreams.
i know i shall not dissapoint myself or my family.
i know their dreams and aspirations lies with me.
their hope that i can bring glory to this family is in my hands.
i shall make it happen to them and for them.
finally, i got time to blog hop around.
accidentally, read his blog.
apparently, he must have been interested in someone else.
i guess he still craves for her.
i dont crave for him.
never did. it was just a thought in my mind that made me think that i was.
i hope that he might hop around and find this blog of mine.
and read this:
"I DONT NEED YOU TO MAKE ME HAPPY.
THE MORE I SEE YOU,THE MORE UPSET I GET.
SO ITS BEST NOT WONDERING ABOUT YOU.
I DO THAT NOW BUT IM FORGETTING SOON."
somehow, im contradicting myself.
accidentally, read his blog.
apparently, he must have been interested in someone else.
i guess he still craves for her.
i dont crave for him.
never did. it was just a thought in my mind that made me think that i was.
i hope that he might hop around and find this blog of mine.
and read this:
"I DONT NEED YOU TO MAKE ME HAPPY.
THE MORE I SEE YOU,THE MORE UPSET I GET.
SO ITS BEST NOT WONDERING ABOUT YOU.
I DO THAT NOW BUT IM FORGETTING SOON."
somehow, im contradicting myself.
and my dearest friends,
i hold no hard feelings against you.
my happiness evolves just around you.
my laughters and my joys come from you.
my sadness i shall share with you.
everything i will do it with you.
hope you peeps know that i love you.
muahs.
i hold no hard feelings against you.
my happiness evolves just around you.
my laughters and my joys come from you.
my sadness i shall share with you.
everything i will do it with you.
hope you peeps know that i love you.
muahs.
riyah starr@ 8:47 pm
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
its just me.
let's take it that nothing happened on the previous entry.
its just me.
again.
like i told myself, i just felt super duper lonely.
nobody's home.
my friends out having fun without me.
damn!
im just super duper alone.
no one but this damn computer to accompany me.
but what the fuck can i do with this computer?
sighs.
maybe today, it can be something different.
hopefully i would just be doing my thing.
i cant talk cause my throat creates trouble.
i can barely talk alrighty.
my body aches and i still feel tired.
slept thru the night.
coke float is good.
good rest deprived still.
lets just hope that i dont fall asleep when i do my homework.
alrighty peeps.
ill see you soon aight.
ill be fine soon too ya.
its just me.
let's take it that nothing happened on the previous entry.
its just me.
again.
like i told myself, i just felt super duper lonely.
nobody's home.
my friends out having fun without me.
damn!
im just super duper alone.
no one but this damn computer to accompany me.
but what the fuck can i do with this computer?
sighs.
maybe today, it can be something different.
hopefully i would just be doing my thing.
i cant talk cause my throat creates trouble.
i can barely talk alrighty.
my body aches and i still feel tired.
slept thru the night.
coke float is good.
good rest deprived still.
lets just hope that i dont fall asleep when i do my homework.
alrighty peeps.
ill see you soon aight.
ill be fine soon too ya.
riyah starr@ 12:27 pm