The dose of everything nice.I love working with her and i love her too.It's amazing how i can totally get along with her since we were both finding it hard to fit in.And it's always nice to be calling each other at different stations and start bickering when we hear each other's voice.I'll miss working with you, Wei Ling! (:
Eyshah- new found friend.They say the craziness begins when we meet each other.That's kinda true considering the fact that i can't stop talking and our mouths keep moving.Let's continue to do the crazy things in life!
And when life gets me down, i have adik with me around.Thank you so much for being a listening ear and bringing me back to earth when i daze away.It's only natural to be in an upset mood after all i've been through.But you believed in me more than i can even imagine (: It gave me loads of strength to think back about my decisions.It can only get better darling.Much loves (:
The crazy people.You can go ballistically nuts with them!
I love this picture and the many pictures she takes. I can't wait for more!And then when working life ends for us, we can only start whining about school.About how we wished we're still working because we'd get paid for the tiring long hours.Oh well!Life's unfair.Shopping spree and more gossip columns.I miss you (:

riyah starr@ 1:30 pm

Monday, June 25, 2007

I'm at the main crossroad in my life.Never before have i felt like i don't belong anywhere even with time.All along i've taken for granted the things that i have been through since i was in secondary school.Now i understand.I'll just have to move forward because i cannot possibly look back into the past which i won't be able to tap.

I need retail therapy- real badd!
I wanna shop till i feel extremely guilty about gping shoppin.What a stupid theory since i need retail therapy.I'm just extremely jealous right now that XieAi went to Bangkok to shop while i'm still busily working my ass off.I so need to catch up!

I miss my girlfriends.Felt like I've neglected them.Each time they plan something for us, i just have this excuse of working.In fact, it is about work!Want to change shift also cannot.And i'm not that type of person who will no show at work.I'm terribly missing Illya and Amira :(
And it gets worse when i keep bumping into Shafiq at work.Haiya!

I miss Jim suddenly.Stupid dreams with no reasons to appear at all.

I need a life of my own.Something i can gladly say that i have enjoyed.

riyah starr@ 11:51 pm

Friday, June 15, 2007

It isn't my fault that things turned out this way.I didn't expect it to anyways.I've tried helping once and that one time was enough for me.I SAID ENOUGH!So it ain't my problem that my own mother wanted to have some things to do with this matter.Yes, people are not blind.Certainly not me.I see and i tell what i think i know so that i can indirectly help you.Just one moment you had shattered your own dreams.Don't blame me that this family runs into problems, you created them.You tried to avoid it all but it comes back haunting you over and over.Now not only have you hurt yourself, you've hurt the one person you shouldn't hurt at all; MUM!

It breaks my heart because all this has got nothing to do with me yet people put me in the spot.How would you feel if i hide something from you?Even though i tried to, i can never hide anything because i trusted you enough.My strength has now crumbled to the lowest it has as i face these pressures around me by myself.I've lost ALL sense of directions since i started working.Can i blame myself?Yes, i certainly can!I lost direction when i seek less in my prayers and i let fatigueness consume me.I loved myself but only to find myself disliking the person i have found within.How do i tell my family that happiness means nothing to me anymore?How dare i lie to myself about happiness when people within my reach are faking it themselves?

I don't know how to help anymore.I just want to give in.I just want to give up.On everything that i ever have and everything that i'll most likely never have.At times like this i wished things would be better.But i know it won't.I need to repair myself in order to stop myself from crying each day.

riyah starr@ 11:38 pm