the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
::mind still in turmoil::
::sighs::
::tired from school though i feel good::
::dont know how to survive::
::needs pills::
::needs sayang-ing::
::needs love::
::needs hugs::
::needs people::
::needs brother::boohoo!!::
::chatting with dear siti::
::needs cheering up::
::feels so alone and deserted::why did you always have to leave me alone?::i hate you sometimes::
::i feel abandoned::
::i need my dosage to cry on::
::i need help::
yet another episode of full shitting drama.i dont understand this family.why?why?stop this ok!?i need to concentrate on my studies.stop killing me!thats enough!
::mind still in turmoil::
::sighs::
::tired from school though i feel good::
::dont know how to survive::
::needs pills::
::needs sayang-ing::
::needs love::
::needs hugs::
::needs people::
::needs brother::boohoo!!::
::chatting with dear siti::
::needs cheering up::
::feels so alone and deserted::why did you always have to leave me alone?::i hate you sometimes::
::i feel abandoned::
::i need my dosage to cry on::
::i need help::
yet another episode of full shitting drama.i dont understand this family.why?why?stop this ok!?i need to concentrate on my studies.stop killing me!thats enough!
riyah starr@ 9:16 pm
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
i feel like im updating my blog on a daily basis already.i feel so alive when i recall back on what i do everyday.its so fast the time.for all i know its already thursday.sighs.but im looking forward to the end of the year so that i can wrap up the most difficult year of my life.yeah!i really think this year is a blessing in disguise.
today,i received the most and greatest gift i was waiting for.a hug from hui wen!walking to econs class then she remembered that she havent hug me yet.in the middle of the corridor just hug her.so sweet!i miss talking to her but did that just now. (:just now i didnt talk to geetha alot and i dont know why.maybe cause got mother tongue lessons then lessons all very difficult to talk. went to school with huda in silence except for the companion of our discmans.its scary when i think that mid-years are coming.but im working hard enough to get where i wannabe.seriously hope that my efforts will pay off soon!!
as usual smelly boy was making fun of me.then i got no more words to say already so i just smiled la.smelly boy!dont happy ah.you are still smelly!laughs.
i wasnt in a great mood today but i managed to smile my way thru.being with shiqin rocks.just peaceful time with her and she bullied me.smelly boy and the ex-wife bullied me.maybe they have a plot with each other.man!i must begin to worry already.LOL!!but i owe alot to shiqin cause she have done a lot for me.jangan kembang baby!muahs
project work time was so stressful.i really didnt know that we have to do a lot of shit man.research was one thing.then gotta worry about the final survey.i had trouble with shiqin putting the info together.all thanks to syed and JJ who wont do it themselves.as a good friend we did it for them.they were pretty.syed had loads of questions to ask me.but the questions are repetitive.sighs.i already have a lot under my schedule then keep disturbing me.right now i gotta prepare the survey for mrs lee.gotta do some more reseach on racial riots.gotta type out the GPP of the group.gotta do so many things.sighs.help me!
i miss my brother.only managed to say a few lines yesterday.he is working night tonight.i hate him for having stupid schedule.ill wait for him if i can.i miss him!dee is going out later.so im gonna be alone with mummy.sighs.why must they all abandon me man!?
i got testimonials from my camp friend and siti.yeah!thank you so mucj darling for the testi.its very nice!i ;love it and i love you! (:
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
a.k.a the "smelly girl"
has ended.
i feel like im updating my blog on a daily basis already.i feel so alive when i recall back on what i do everyday.its so fast the time.for all i know its already thursday.sighs.but im looking forward to the end of the year so that i can wrap up the most difficult year of my life.yeah!i really think this year is a blessing in disguise.
today,i received the most and greatest gift i was waiting for.a hug from hui wen!walking to econs class then she remembered that she havent hug me yet.in the middle of the corridor just hug her.so sweet!i miss talking to her but did that just now. (:just now i didnt talk to geetha alot and i dont know why.maybe cause got mother tongue lessons then lessons all very difficult to talk. went to school with huda in silence except for the companion of our discmans.its scary when i think that mid-years are coming.but im working hard enough to get where i wannabe.seriously hope that my efforts will pay off soon!!
as usual smelly boy was making fun of me.then i got no more words to say already so i just smiled la.smelly boy!dont happy ah.you are still smelly!laughs.
i wasnt in a great mood today but i managed to smile my way thru.being with shiqin rocks.just peaceful time with her and she bullied me.smelly boy and the ex-wife bullied me.maybe they have a plot with each other.man!i must begin to worry already.LOL!!but i owe alot to shiqin cause she have done a lot for me.jangan kembang baby!muahs
project work time was so stressful.i really didnt know that we have to do a lot of shit man.research was one thing.then gotta worry about the final survey.i had trouble with shiqin putting the info together.all thanks to syed and JJ who wont do it themselves.as a good friend we did it for them.they were pretty.syed had loads of questions to ask me.but the questions are repetitive.sighs.i already have a lot under my schedule then keep disturbing me.right now i gotta prepare the survey for mrs lee.gotta do some more reseach on racial riots.gotta type out the GPP of the group.gotta do so many things.sighs.help me!
i miss my brother.only managed to say a few lines yesterday.he is working night tonight.i hate him for having stupid schedule.ill wait for him if i can.i miss him!dee is going out later.so im gonna be alone with mummy.sighs.why must they all abandon me man!?
i got testimonials from my camp friend and siti.yeah!thank you so mucj darling for the testi.its very nice!i ;love it and i love you! (:
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
a.k.a the "smelly girl"
has ended.
riyah starr@ 5:38 pm
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
::my mind in turmoil::
::so much anger::so much pain::so much sorrow::so much fear::
::these tears just wanna drop::
::please dont do this to my family::
::and YOU;dont do whatever you're doing to me and my friends::i really BEG you to stop HURTING me::it hurts and it burns deep within::
::crying and crying::brother where are you now?::
::SYIRAH SWEETHEART::i know things may be rough right now but you will always have a friend in me.i will be there for you because i dont like to see my closest friends being hurt.really,i dont.thank you for believing in me and confiding in me.i really am willing to help you out in any matter. :) thanks darling! muahs.i love you too!::
::LILA DARLING::im missing your huggies and so much more.cannot bear the thought.and i miss you and i love you::
::SHIQIN SAYANG::thanks for your ears everytime.my life is put together yet its falling apart.thanks for giving me strength again!::
::HUDA DEARIE::thanks for listening on me complain.i cant take the pressure.i can lean on you.thanks.muahs::
has ended.
::my mind in turmoil::
::so much anger::so much pain::so much sorrow::so much fear::
::these tears just wanna drop::
::please dont do this to my family::
::and YOU;dont do whatever you're doing to me and my friends::i really BEG you to stop HURTING me::it hurts and it burns deep within::
::crying and crying::brother where are you now?::
::SYIRAH SWEETHEART::i know things may be rough right now but you will always have a friend in me.i will be there for you because i dont like to see my closest friends being hurt.really,i dont.thank you for believing in me and confiding in me.i really am willing to help you out in any matter. :) thanks darling! muahs.i love you too!::
::LILA DARLING::im missing your huggies and so much more.cannot bear the thought.and i miss you and i love you::
::SHIQIN SAYANG::thanks for your ears everytime.my life is put together yet its falling apart.thanks for giving me strength again!::
::HUDA DEARIE::thanks for listening on me complain.i cant take the pressure.i can lean on you.thanks.muahs::
has ended.
riyah starr@ 8:59 pm
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
usual usual stuff in school today.another boring day which i almost slept while paying attention in lessons.another talk by Mr ivan lim about much discipline.dont know if i should be worried about helmi.im worried about him.had student dialogue session just now and was walking around from the different LTs.im tired of climbling too many steps of ther stairs. :p i feel so tired and then after that still gotta attend a meeting by the SCs about teacher's day prep.im just sitting there for the presence of my cuteness in silence.liyun was complaining already.i wanted to get outta there as much as you do li darling but gotta maintain.if not,they will talk.and zhiwei was nice to me just now,so gentleman.laughs.
went home with liyun and michelle.long time since i talked a lot to mich.i miss talking to her.while i was at the entrance of the gate,i looked in and saw HIM.as usual he was in his super short shorts and a simple tee.looked pretty damn hot to me.i dont know if he felt my stare but somehow he just turned and looked at me. i quickly looked away la.as embarrassed as can be.
today smelly boy was acting crazy again[as always].he keeps disturbing me.dont know if he wanted to or on purpose.but his smelly effort makes me laugh.laughs.didnt talk to syed.didnt want to anyway,dont ask me why.im on a part where im so frustrated with the male species.but nothing wrong with you,smelly boy!
lately,i have been thinking about JIM.i dont know why as well.its just that i recall all the things that i went through with him last time.sighs.dont tell me that i miss him k?cause i dont want to believe in that thing as missing JIM.NO!!!!!
got home and its raining.caught in the rain.had my shower and dinner.napped for awhile.goodness!i couldnt get up from napping.but here i am!i still wonder about syirah.i hope she will message me soon.muahs.tonight will try to revise again.though i just want to sleep.i realise im running out of time.i miss my brother alot.didnt talk to him yesterday.a day wasted.
felt like crying yesterday.almost did when i message nasha and huiwen.just needed their concern and being sayanged over and over again.
ronnie said i looked fat.then he said he was kidding but he said i looked chubby and squeezed my cheeks.am i fat?maybe i am.
told myself to forget him you know.i will succeed someday.ill not let him bring me down.casue im tired of waiting and knowing that someone else is beside him.my turn will come.
i miss everybody,people!
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
has ended.
usual usual stuff in school today.another boring day which i almost slept while paying attention in lessons.another talk by Mr ivan lim about much discipline.dont know if i should be worried about helmi.im worried about him.had student dialogue session just now and was walking around from the different LTs.im tired of climbling too many steps of ther stairs. :p i feel so tired and then after that still gotta attend a meeting by the SCs about teacher's day prep.im just sitting there for the presence of my cuteness in silence.liyun was complaining already.i wanted to get outta there as much as you do li darling but gotta maintain.if not,they will talk.and zhiwei was nice to me just now,so gentleman.laughs.
went home with liyun and michelle.long time since i talked a lot to mich.i miss talking to her.while i was at the entrance of the gate,i looked in and saw HIM.as usual he was in his super short shorts and a simple tee.looked pretty damn hot to me.i dont know if he felt my stare but somehow he just turned and looked at me. i quickly looked away la.as embarrassed as can be.
today smelly boy was acting crazy again[as always].he keeps disturbing me.dont know if he wanted to or on purpose.but his smelly effort makes me laugh.laughs.didnt talk to syed.didnt want to anyway,dont ask me why.im on a part where im so frustrated with the male species.but nothing wrong with you,smelly boy!
lately,i have been thinking about JIM.i dont know why as well.its just that i recall all the things that i went through with him last time.sighs.dont tell me that i miss him k?cause i dont want to believe in that thing as missing JIM.NO!!!!!
got home and its raining.caught in the rain.had my shower and dinner.napped for awhile.goodness!i couldnt get up from napping.but here i am!i still wonder about syirah.i hope she will message me soon.muahs.tonight will try to revise again.though i just want to sleep.i realise im running out of time.i miss my brother alot.didnt talk to him yesterday.a day wasted.
felt like crying yesterday.almost did when i message nasha and huiwen.just needed their concern and being sayanged over and over again.
ronnie said i looked fat.then he said he was kidding but he said i looked chubby and squeezed my cheeks.am i fat?maybe i am.
told myself to forget him you know.i will succeed someday.ill not let him bring me down.casue im tired of waiting and knowing that someone else is beside him.my turn will come.
i miss everybody,people!
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
has ended.
riyah starr@ 7:10 pm
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
im back from school at least an hour ago.had my dessert & cold chocolate drink.refreshing!yeah!school was pretty stagnant just now.though i feel grumpy cause was chatting on the phone while i was sleeping.so pissed of cause she didnt talk in much silence.sighs.i need my own room!
yesterday i watched desperate housewives with much excitement though i was pretty embarrassed cause my bother was there watching me drool.laughs.anyways,had fun spending time with my brother!
so today management was pretty dumb!shiqin and i were lying our heads up cause we were super bored and maybe a little bit tired.but i was talking all the way to her also and distracting her from chelvam.i cant blame myself cause she might just fall asleep there and then.you wont believe it but we both almost [AGAIN] slept in econs class.it wasnt boring but my eyes was just shutting down on me.didnt get to take the same bus as himk today.he must have taken the 720am bus instead.but malay class was good.did oral with nani cause its almost like being forced to do it.ermm,then i caught a glimpse of him.yes,i did!and im happy.
geetha and i were talking about how he had this nice body!woah!and his legs is damn nice too.here i go again;droolin.and his hair and that specially made 'gootie' he have.its just nice.and how pissed of i am today cause some things which i shall not describe here.here only good things happen!i hate rumours.i hate lies.i hate being deceived.i hate being used.so if you get me,dont do that to me.PLEASE!im begging you.cause i have had enough.
my patience are running thin.it is exploding right from the underneath.
and peeps,im going to do some work later so i wont be in tonight.but if you miss me,you can just message me.ill surely be there to be a friend to you.
nasha,i still dont feel like hanging out with you know who.sighs.burning sensation of the angry heart.
and peeps,looks like we gotta do the tag thingy once agaibn.im so sorry.i screw up the other time. muahs!
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
has ended.
im back from school at least an hour ago.had my dessert & cold chocolate drink.refreshing!yeah!school was pretty stagnant just now.though i feel grumpy cause was chatting on the phone while i was sleeping.so pissed of cause she didnt talk in much silence.sighs.i need my own room!
yesterday i watched desperate housewives with much excitement though i was pretty embarrassed cause my bother was there watching me drool.laughs.anyways,had fun spending time with my brother!
so today management was pretty dumb!shiqin and i were lying our heads up cause we were super bored and maybe a little bit tired.but i was talking all the way to her also and distracting her from chelvam.i cant blame myself cause she might just fall asleep there and then.you wont believe it but we both almost [AGAIN] slept in econs class.it wasnt boring but my eyes was just shutting down on me.didnt get to take the same bus as himk today.he must have taken the 720am bus instead.but malay class was good.did oral with nani cause its almost like being forced to do it.ermm,then i caught a glimpse of him.yes,i did!and im happy.
geetha and i were talking about how he had this nice body!woah!and his legs is damn nice too.here i go again;droolin.and his hair and that specially made 'gootie' he have.its just nice.and how pissed of i am today cause some things which i shall not describe here.here only good things happen!i hate rumours.i hate lies.i hate being deceived.i hate being used.so if you get me,dont do that to me.PLEASE!im begging you.cause i have had enough.
my patience are running thin.it is exploding right from the underneath.
and peeps,im going to do some work later so i wont be in tonight.but if you miss me,you can just message me.ill surely be there to be a friend to you.
nasha,i still dont feel like hanging out with you know who.sighs.burning sensation of the angry heart.
and peeps,looks like we gotta do the tag thingy once agaibn.im so sorry.i screw up the other time. muahs!
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
has ended.
riyah starr@ 4:15 pm
Monday, June 27, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
so yeah!its the beginning of school again today.i was so pumped up for school but i didnt know why.i felt more alive than ever.maybe thias the time to boost myself and move into the freaking future.i know now that worrying will kill me faster than work.so im going to work and stop worrying.which i wont be doing much.on the way to school today,i was lining up att the stop then i turned around.and there he was walking too.my heart melted.like DELIBERATELY melted.i thought i already forgot about him.sighs.i have to move on seriously.everything about him now makes me melt.he looks way better than months back.i cant help.but i didnt like him cause of his looks.sighs.i really feel crazy about this guy.sighs.but i know its impossible to grab him in anyway possible cause he likes another girl.who is definitely way prettier than i am and much much much thinner.what's up with guys and their ego?i dont know.when you figure it out, you lemme know aight?thanks.
the whole day was pretty cruising then PE begun and disaster struck.its almost like lightning struck me.i was so ashamed to be doing PE again.its like torture.and i aint surviving much.thank you so much to hui wen for being there every step of the way.almost die of pain!thanks baby!(: i know i can still count on you for everything.i do realise that i miss you millions.yeah!then PE he was there.almost like my heaven but at the same time my kinda hell.looking at him brings so much joy yet so much PAIN.like im being stupid again.maybe im stupid with guys.seriously i AM!so frustrating lo.its like i know i shouldnt have this feeling cause i been hurt BAd before.like completely BAD!that stupid monkey head.sighs.
so far,im doing all the wrong things but i know that ill do something much productive later.but i might sleep.i had my coke float with geetha just now.muahs muahs.love you darling for accompanying my fat ass there.yeah!so ill be having more dates with you.i still got lots to tell yuo still.keep yourself available!
im off now.going to watch tv.needs to put my milo into the fridge so that it will be super cool by the time i wanna sleep.
im going to sleep later in peace.and i will be so glad to wake up tomorrow.yeah!school once again!you know syirah!school aint so bad. (:muahs
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
has ended.
so yeah!its the beginning of school again today.i was so pumped up for school but i didnt know why.i felt more alive than ever.maybe thias the time to boost myself and move into the freaking future.i know now that worrying will kill me faster than work.so im going to work and stop worrying.which i wont be doing much.on the way to school today,i was lining up att the stop then i turned around.and there he was walking too.my heart melted.like DELIBERATELY melted.i thought i already forgot about him.sighs.i have to move on seriously.everything about him now makes me melt.he looks way better than months back.i cant help.but i didnt like him cause of his looks.sighs.i really feel crazy about this guy.sighs.but i know its impossible to grab him in anyway possible cause he likes another girl.who is definitely way prettier than i am and much much much thinner.what's up with guys and their ego?i dont know.when you figure it out, you lemme know aight?thanks.
the whole day was pretty cruising then PE begun and disaster struck.its almost like lightning struck me.i was so ashamed to be doing PE again.its like torture.and i aint surviving much.thank you so much to hui wen for being there every step of the way.almost die of pain!thanks baby!(: i know i can still count on you for everything.i do realise that i miss you millions.yeah!then PE he was there.almost like my heaven but at the same time my kinda hell.looking at him brings so much joy yet so much PAIN.like im being stupid again.maybe im stupid with guys.seriously i AM!so frustrating lo.its like i know i shouldnt have this feeling cause i been hurt BAd before.like completely BAD!that stupid monkey head.sighs.
so far,im doing all the wrong things but i know that ill do something much productive later.but i might sleep.i had my coke float with geetha just now.muahs muahs.love you darling for accompanying my fat ass there.yeah!so ill be having more dates with you.i still got lots to tell yuo still.keep yourself available!
im off now.going to watch tv.needs to put my milo into the fridge so that it will be super cool by the time i wanna sleep.
im going to sleep later in peace.and i will be so glad to wake up tomorrow.yeah!school once again!you know syirah!school aint so bad. (:muahs
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
has ended.
riyah starr@ 8:55 pm
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
::in school right now::watching school of rock::
::yesterday watched a walk to remember::cried like crazy::yeah!!::
::have an obsession for BENJAMIN MCKENZIE::
::have been feeling great in school::
::sighs::
::nasri lost the survey questions::im so sad!!::but he will photocopy it himself::
::will have PE later and i will go Westmall to buy some food::yeah!!::
it'll come back when i am at home with my imagination. and i still owe syirah my poem :)
::in school right now::watching school of rock::
::yesterday watched a walk to remember::cried like crazy::yeah!!::
::have an obsession for BENJAMIN MCKENZIE::
::have been feeling great in school::
::sighs::
::nasri lost the survey questions::im so sad!!::but he will photocopy it himself::
::will have PE later and i will go Westmall to buy some food::yeah!!::
it'll come back when i am at home with my imagination. and i still owe syirah my poem :)
riyah starr@ 1:49 pm
Sunday, June 26, 2005
a different beginning with the same ending
"the diary of khairiyah mckenzie"
::me and my beloved imagination is sailing thru the lands of the free::
::didnt study yesterday and its pretty sad lo::
::met nasha yesterday [she claimed she was smelly]::went to my house to get her shoes::she said that my house was cosy and her room was better than mine::i have to agree with that::
::was alone the whole night [sadly]::always always alone::
::chatted for like 4 hours plus with nasha syirah adik hoyi sheila::YEAH!!::
::was abandoned by syirah but i dont blame her cause she was being kidnapped::poor darling::
::school starts in less than 24 hours::WOW!!::still cant believe it::
::listened to Class 95FM last night::all the songs rocks::
::listening to BSB still::
::chatted with my brudder::i waited for him to come back from work like around 1am::
::chatting with syirah and sheila now::
::missed my secondary school friends::ALOT::
::was thinking of someone yesterday::the whole freaking day::
::monday got PE but never mind at least can see him::
:dont ask me whats up with the mckenzie::i just think it sounds PURRFECT for me::
i aint got nothing much to say today. my mind is in a mess but im telling myself to start believeing. and ya i told chubs that i wanted a figure like mischa barton lo. sighs. so depressing. i shall do that lo. then i can be prettier than someone. laughs wickedly.
p.s. aishah adik this is dedicated to you
the same ending with a different beginning
"the diary of khairiyah mckenzie"
"the diary of khairiyah mckenzie"
::me and my beloved imagination is sailing thru the lands of the free::
::didnt study yesterday and its pretty sad lo::
::met nasha yesterday [she claimed she was smelly]::went to my house to get her shoes::she said that my house was cosy and her room was better than mine::i have to agree with that::
::was alone the whole night [sadly]::always always alone::
::chatted for like 4 hours plus with nasha syirah adik hoyi sheila::YEAH!!::
::was abandoned by syirah but i dont blame her cause she was being kidnapped::poor darling::
::school starts in less than 24 hours::WOW!!::still cant believe it::
::listened to Class 95FM last night::all the songs rocks::
::listening to BSB still::
::chatted with my brudder::i waited for him to come back from work like around 1am::
::chatting with syirah and sheila now::
::missed my secondary school friends::ALOT::
::was thinking of someone yesterday::the whole freaking day::
::monday got PE but never mind at least can see him::
:dont ask me whats up with the mckenzie::i just think it sounds PURRFECT for me::
i aint got nothing much to say today. my mind is in a mess but im telling myself to start believeing. and ya i told chubs that i wanted a figure like mischa barton lo. sighs. so depressing. i shall do that lo. then i can be prettier than someone. laughs wickedly.
p.s. aishah adik this is dedicated to you
the same ending with a different beginning
"the diary of khairiyah mckenzie"
riyah starr@ 12:30 pm
Saturday, June 25, 2005
the beginning of the end of the beginning
"adaptations from khairiyah mckenzie"
ola!what an amazing journey.i've got loads on my mind but sometimes it doesnt come out write on the computer.hmmph!i wonder why..today is Saturday and im still at home.here is some things you can see about me..enjoy!
[going out later to meet nasha for a while to get back back my skirt][yeah!!][can see nasha again]
[managed to study here and there yesterday & today will be no different][trying to complete econs today]
[still struggling to get the last few peribahasa in my mind][sighs loudly]
[have written in TWO entries of (isit called poetry?) yesterday][one is still untitled and the other is called"scribbles"]
[bad relationships or friendships or bad whatever-shit will definitely make a great poetry]
[still have the desire to learn how to play the guitar][*dreaming again*]
[its raining but im still feeling super HOT]
[my surverys are DONE except 2 entries][thanks so much to my brudder & sister for showing me their support by helping me out with the surveys][kisses for you]
[now i'm looking forward to school so MUCH][am i crazy?]
okays,i learnt that sometimes you dont get all that you ever wanted.in fact, you might never ever get it.i heard they said that you will come to a good start after encountering many wrong turns.its up to you on which turn you wanna take.if you make it a good turn, then it'll be good.i know its easier said than done.but if you believe,then it will happen.SOMEHOW!so peeps,start believeing ya.
and yeah!aishah[my lil sister] said i havent wrote much about her in my blogs.i think she a little bit more thick-skinned than the rest to actually have said that.she thinks i dont miss her enough isit?i SMS you everyday also not enough ah until you can fall asleep right?laughs.im just kidding.when we do something together again then ill say all the things about you.hehehehehehe..
the end of the beginning of the end
with loves, riyah
"adaptations from khairiyah mckenzie"
ola!what an amazing journey.i've got loads on my mind but sometimes it doesnt come out write on the computer.hmmph!i wonder why..today is Saturday and im still at home.here is some things you can see about me..enjoy!
[going out later to meet nasha for a while to get back back my skirt][yeah!!][can see nasha again]
[managed to study here and there yesterday & today will be no different][trying to complete econs today]
[still struggling to get the last few peribahasa in my mind][sighs loudly]
[have written in TWO entries of (isit called poetry?) yesterday][one is still untitled and the other is called"scribbles"]
[bad relationships or friendships or bad whatever-shit will definitely make a great poetry]
[still have the desire to learn how to play the guitar][*dreaming again*]
[its raining but im still feeling super HOT]
[my surverys are DONE except 2 entries][thanks so much to my brudder & sister for showing me their support by helping me out with the surveys][kisses for you]
[now i'm looking forward to school so MUCH][am i crazy?]
okays,i learnt that sometimes you dont get all that you ever wanted.in fact, you might never ever get it.i heard they said that you will come to a good start after encountering many wrong turns.its up to you on which turn you wanna take.if you make it a good turn, then it'll be good.i know its easier said than done.but if you believe,then it will happen.SOMEHOW!so peeps,start believeing ya.
and yeah!aishah[my lil sister] said i havent wrote much about her in my blogs.i think she a little bit more thick-skinned than the rest to actually have said that.she thinks i dont miss her enough isit?i SMS you everyday also not enough ah until you can fall asleep right?laughs.im just kidding.when we do something together again then ill say all the things about you.hehehehehehe..
the end of the beginning of the end
with loves, riyah
riyah starr@ 12:15 pm
Friday, June 24, 2005
bubbly bubbly pop (",)
the diary of khairiyah mckenzie:
::life can get no tougher than you thought::
::jiali a piece of news for you::i've completed my assignments with some questions not done::YEAH!!::
::beginning to feel more alive than ever::
::starting to really focus on my studies::not a bad thing aight::
::new playstation games::double joy::
::surveying almost done provided my siblings did their job::
::research done but needs proper printing on paper::
::blurrystarr on holiday::
::missing people still::want me to list for you??::
::aishah illya amira aishah huda shiqin siti nasha geetha syirah lila jiali yinlei huiwen helmi nani liyun athiyah [many many misses] suhana::
::i miss hanging out with them so very much::
::hasnt been eating well still::had chapati for breakfast now mum puts ice-cream in my mouth by force::sighs::
::couldnt lose weight anymore::cant figure why::
::good news for myself::
::im up with ideas for a new upcoming thoughts on poetry soon::yeah!!
::miss writing on paper::
::just chatted with my cousin and he told me that another cousin was getting married::and get this okays??::
::i dont know ho the hell is getting married except that her name is tina and my uncle is called uncle hod::
::weird::
::must be cause daddy's family are so far away from singapore & they rarely visit::
::lesson learnt-dont ever give birth to many children::keep it real-FOUR is enough::in my case that is::
::see you soon::
bubbly bubbly pop says (",)
fin of the diary of khairiyah mckenzie
the diary of khairiyah mckenzie:
::life can get no tougher than you thought::
::jiali a piece of news for you::i've completed my assignments with some questions not done::YEAH!!::
::beginning to feel more alive than ever::
::starting to really focus on my studies::not a bad thing aight::
::new playstation games::double joy::
::surveying almost done provided my siblings did their job::
::research done but needs proper printing on paper::
::blurrystarr on holiday::
::missing people still::want me to list for you??::
::aishah illya amira aishah huda shiqin siti nasha geetha syirah lila jiali yinlei huiwen helmi nani liyun athiyah [many many misses] suhana::
::i miss hanging out with them so very much::
::hasnt been eating well still::had chapati for breakfast now mum puts ice-cream in my mouth by force::sighs::
::couldnt lose weight anymore::cant figure why::
::good news for myself::
::im up with ideas for a new upcoming thoughts on poetry soon::yeah!!
::miss writing on paper::
::just chatted with my cousin and he told me that another cousin was getting married::and get this okays??::
::i dont know ho the hell is getting married except that her name is tina and my uncle is called uncle hod::
::weird::
::must be cause daddy's family are so far away from singapore & they rarely visit::
::lesson learnt-dont ever give birth to many children::keep it real-FOUR is enough::in my case that is::
::see you soon::
bubbly bubbly pop says (",)
fin of the diary of khairiyah mckenzie
riyah starr@ 2:05 pm
Thursday, June 23, 2005
thoughts of the sickness=
::finishing homework pretty soon as jealousy sets in after reading jiali's blog::
::getting sick still with little changes::
::tossing & turning in bed due to intense coughing::
::missing the relevant people in my life::
::thinking too much about things that im not supposed to::
::spending less time on the net & playstation::
::cravings for more food despite not eating due to bad appetite::
::worrying about surveying people::
::surveyed abang::thanks for being so understanding::muahs::
::wanna go back to school but dont want exams::please::
::awaits testimonials [still] from helmi & nas::ive waited months & still none::
::waiting new songs::
::cant think of anything but sitting here and doing more work::
::sighs::
::keep smiling riyah::you'll feel better::
::i'm BETTER now!!::
bye...
ending the thoughts for the sick!!
::finishing homework pretty soon as jealousy sets in after reading jiali's blog::
::getting sick still with little changes::
::tossing & turning in bed due to intense coughing::
::missing the relevant people in my life::
::thinking too much about things that im not supposed to::
::spending less time on the net & playstation::
::cravings for more food despite not eating due to bad appetite::
::worrying about surveying people::
::surveyed abang::thanks for being so understanding::muahs::
::wanna go back to school but dont want exams::please::
::awaits testimonials [still] from helmi & nas::ive waited months & still none::
::waiting new songs::
::cant think of anything but sitting here and doing more work::
::sighs::
::keep smiling riyah::you'll feel better::
::i'm BETTER now!!::
bye...
ending the thoughts for the sick!!
riyah starr@ 12:28 pm
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
i just had my nap which wasnt really like a nap.seems more like a sleep.i was watching "so little time" then lay on the mat.didnt know that i would fall asleep the minute my head hit the ground.ouch!my mum was ranting & ranting about the laptop cause she couldnt trust me enough to use it properly.hurts so much!so much for having mutual trust between parents.hmmph!so right now i refuse to talk to practically anybody.im mean!!but they cant blame me really.my sickness is getting worst!im not telling my mum that im sick.i like being sick cause the attention will be on me.i wish she would be like daddy alittle bit.but when imk sick she will nag & nag more.sighs.heartburn!!
im sitting here now after much brainwashing of BSB's album.i turn to them now cause they have the vibe that i can groove to.my simple plan still have huda so i gotta hang on now.but at least got shiqin's eminem CD, if not, in times of great needs,ill be lost.
okays people!i need to figure out how to do survey.anyone willing to do a survey for me please lemme know ya.thanks.muahs :)
im sitting here now after much brainwashing of BSB's album.i turn to them now cause they have the vibe that i can groove to.my simple plan still have huda so i gotta hang on now.but at least got shiqin's eminem CD, if not, in times of great needs,ill be lost.
okays people!i need to figure out how to do survey.anyone willing to do a survey for me please lemme know ya.thanks.muahs :)
riyah starr@ 8:13 pm
alright!im back.i just got back from school once again.it just seems that my life now will evolve around school again.i dont believe it lo.i went there then i was late with kailing.and to think that the sc meeting has not yet started.so i went buy drink,i came back also the same situation.by the time the meeting starts,it was already 940am.by 10am i had to leave for PW.YEAH!!never have i been super duper excited about a PW meeting.laughs while coughing. mrs lee talked and talked until very long. scary you know.she was talking about the survey and our written report. i do realise that we dont have much time lo.really frightened me up.i did some research yesterday.
left school at 11++.went home after going westmall to buy stuffs cause im not really feeling too well.im coughing,having tremendously bad flu,predicting that ill be up with fever.so here i am!at home,in front of the comp.ill eat my soya beancurd later.my parents arent home but darling hafiz is always here with me.super cute!i love him love him more :)
i truly dont know [still] how im going to study right now. im going to plan but planning sucks. i did managed to do some reading and answer a question from phy geog.today, i have my aunt's laptop so i will have my revision done on it. see la!! me and my freaking 'good' plans. but dont worry ill be on my playstation the whole night tonight. i believe i have a lot of catching up to do. my brudder managed to win so many things so i abit jealous liao. cannot let him take over the only champion of this household;ME!!!!!!!!
actually i like going school just now cause i saw my frens once again. i miss them so MUCHES!!saw adik at the interchange. please admit that you're still childrenish.you cannot deny that fact thus,ill stay forever young!!saw siti,hugh,brandon,jiali,liyun,yinlei,tracy,nani.saw jj,nas,qin[muahs],geetha[hugs],huda[hugs].saw helmi too!!yeah!!smart smart psycho but still HELMI lo.laughs wickedly.lastly,saw jacky!haiyo!this guy still dare tal;k about me right behind my back.he think i cant hear but i heard lo.then say miss you to me.*pukes* so i say back to him la [isit cos i have no choice?~you think leh]smiles from ear to ear.okays la.i gotta go rest now..wanna eat beancurd.adios!!
p.s:i love where i am today though i hate it everyday
p.p.s:just scolded darlin hafiz.he cried.i feel bad.
p.p.p.s:"spongebob squaishpants"-hishorriblesingingseemstobemymelody (:
left school at 11++.went home after going westmall to buy stuffs cause im not really feeling too well.im coughing,having tremendously bad flu,predicting that ill be up with fever.so here i am!at home,in front of the comp.ill eat my soya beancurd later.my parents arent home but darling hafiz is always here with me.super cute!i love him love him more :)
i truly dont know [still] how im going to study right now. im going to plan but planning sucks. i did managed to do some reading and answer a question from phy geog.today, i have my aunt's laptop so i will have my revision done on it. see la!! me and my freaking 'good' plans. but dont worry ill be on my playstation the whole night tonight. i believe i have a lot of catching up to do. my brudder managed to win so many things so i abit jealous liao. cannot let him take over the only champion of this household;ME!!!!!!!!
actually i like going school just now cause i saw my frens once again. i miss them so MUCHES!!saw adik at the interchange. please admit that you're still childrenish.you cannot deny that fact thus,ill stay forever young!!saw siti,hugh,brandon,jiali,liyun,yinlei,tracy,nani.saw jj,nas,qin[muahs],geetha[hugs],huda[hugs].saw helmi too!!yeah!!smart smart psycho but still HELMI lo.laughs wickedly.lastly,saw jacky!haiyo!this guy still dare tal;k about me right behind my back.he think i cant hear but i heard lo.then say miss you to me.*pukes* so i say back to him la [isit cos i have no choice?~you think leh]smiles from ear to ear.okays la.i gotta go rest now..wanna eat beancurd.adios!!
p.s:i love where i am today though i hate it everyday
p.p.s:just scolded darlin hafiz.he cried.i feel bad.
p.p.p.s:"spongebob squaishpants"-hishorriblesingingseemstobemymelody (:
riyah starr@ 12:14 pm
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
i think im pretty stupid or plain forgetful. i forgot to mention the bad side of whatever. the bad thing was that i had SC stuff yesterday. it wasnt so bad afterall. except for the fact that i had to wake up early to drag myself to school. that sucks. that aside, everything was going fine :) started of with a little lecture then have to be seperated. liyun and i not enthu cos sure got seperated from each other. i hate when they always always try to seperate us both. then my group members are[basitd,thohirah,eric,lyvia,tessa&myself]. actually taufik in my group but he didnt turn up for the whole freaking thing.we went to quadrangle for games which was like alright ah.did push-ups and all.went back to lecture theatre for more course talk.lunch was chicken rice which doesnt seem pleasant.just ate anyhow.
after lunch had a small game. my group and liyun's group combined to challenge the other group.played something like volleyball.pretty cool.lucky got volleyball experience ah.then saw suhana on the third floor.inside me happy to see her la.long time never talk to her also. then we managed to keep the ball in the air for 14 times. after much hardship we had to face.then had tea break.had dinner at 5pm.kinda early right?after dinner got game something like star wars.almost dark liao then still play but i could barely see in the freakling dark.it was at the field lo.moved to the hall at 8pm.played this game where we were to squueze in with each other.the coaches were going to pull us out of the group.all the time i try to be beside liyun she squeeze in lo.then i ended up ont he outside.in between two guys[junjie & jonathan from bartley].i was holding them so tight lo then the girl coach try to pull me out.first she pull my hand[failed!].pulled my stomach are[failed!].finally,she pulled my legs.i scream & scream lo.almost drag the whole group on the floor but the guys strong ah.luckily.
second round must sit down.i also cannot squeeze in.junjie ask me to move faster but my faster not fast enough.they tried pulling me again after some time.i almost gave up lo.then junjie pulled and pulled.super funny sia!the akira was bleeding.liyun got fingernail scars.i went out just smelly lo.seriously by then i already was having migraine.bad migraine.truly bad!my head felt like exploding,i felt like vomiting.sucks!
reach home only i took off my rubber band and my hair went crazy.had my shower.drank my dosage of coke float despite a bad throat.migraine got worse but subsided.then i was on the PS with abang till 2am.yeah!sleep time.
so my plans today!im fully awake today by the way.im gonna be on the net,have brunch,have a shower, do my homework and study.ayah not home so i dont feel so stressful.yeah!
P.S:hafiz rocks my world
P.P.S:got a long speech from mr cheng for somethings
P.P.P.S:my SC friends rocks[shahani,kailing,lynette,michelle]not forgetting ym best fren[liyun](:
after lunch had a small game. my group and liyun's group combined to challenge the other group.played something like volleyball.pretty cool.lucky got volleyball experience ah.then saw suhana on the third floor.inside me happy to see her la.long time never talk to her also. then we managed to keep the ball in the air for 14 times. after much hardship we had to face.then had tea break.had dinner at 5pm.kinda early right?after dinner got game something like star wars.almost dark liao then still play but i could barely see in the freakling dark.it was at the field lo.moved to the hall at 8pm.played this game where we were to squueze in with each other.the coaches were going to pull us out of the group.all the time i try to be beside liyun she squeeze in lo.then i ended up ont he outside.in between two guys[junjie & jonathan from bartley].i was holding them so tight lo then the girl coach try to pull me out.first she pull my hand[failed!].pulled my stomach are[failed!].finally,she pulled my legs.i scream & scream lo.almost drag the whole group on the floor but the guys strong ah.luckily.
second round must sit down.i also cannot squeeze in.junjie ask me to move faster but my faster not fast enough.they tried pulling me again after some time.i almost gave up lo.then junjie pulled and pulled.super funny sia!the akira was bleeding.liyun got fingernail scars.i went out just smelly lo.seriously by then i already was having migraine.bad migraine.truly bad!my head felt like exploding,i felt like vomiting.sucks!
reach home only i took off my rubber band and my hair went crazy.had my shower.drank my dosage of coke float despite a bad throat.migraine got worse but subsided.then i was on the PS with abang till 2am.yeah!sleep time.
so my plans today!im fully awake today by the way.im gonna be on the net,have brunch,have a shower, do my homework and study.ayah not home so i dont feel so stressful.yeah!
P.S:hafiz rocks my world
P.P.S:got a long speech from mr cheng for somethings
P.P.P.S:my SC friends rocks[shahani,kailing,lynette,michelle]not forgetting ym best fren[liyun](:
riyah starr@ 1:10 pm
Sunday, June 19, 2005
yawn! my body aches & my throat hurts. i think sore throat is coming my way. sighs. right now all the bad thoughts entering my head. but lets talk about the good side of things first.
yesterday i went out with nasha to town to but skirt for myself. been waiting for weeks to look for a suitable one. went to far east to look for it lo. bought a brown skirt which was very nice on me for $29.90. we ate at LJS after that. actually both of us only slightly hungry but dont know why we ate also. laughs. hmm, i think eat for the fun of it. after that we went to heeren to snap some neoprints. for the first time, the neoprints we took were perfectly PERFECT. had a blast. then took the card ones which we were pretty dumb about it. from there we went to Taka to Borders looking for a map for nasha's papa. cannot find also. walk abit more; saw najip ali. i think im born to see stars. laughs. hmm, then can go back home already. laughs.
going nash'a house was the greatest part of everything. i think of the sleepover almost all the time. really glad it came true. quite sad cause i left ibu at home alone. poor ibu! but i love her okays. went nasha's house sit down a while then i went to shower ah. nasha's turn shower. went al-ameen for supper. both of us full to the max after that. laughs. walk home steadily. talk & talk & gossip & gossip & bitch & bitch. imagine that! hell of a great time man...! went to do something crazy for the kicks but it wasnt so crazy ah. i dont understand what im saying but never mind.. i think we turned of the lights quite early at 12 something. then talk & talk some more. nasha kept drifting away in her 'boat' bed with the special wheels. only went to sleep at 2something. i know she tired mah then my knees was acting up on me. i think im growing too old to walk to far. sighs. woke up at noon today. pretty late la! never shower both me and nasha then went down with nadia to buy brunch. me and nadia ate nasi lemak which was super freaking pathetic la. lucky i was fulfilled and full. went online..showered..then uncle gulam sent me home with nadia and nasha. they wanna go but shoes for nasha. hmmph! i jealous.
CONCLUSION: time spent with nasha was amazingly awesome. thogh i forogt to bring back my skirt. oops!!
yesterday i went out with nasha to town to but skirt for myself. been waiting for weeks to look for a suitable one. went to far east to look for it lo. bought a brown skirt which was very nice on me for $29.90. we ate at LJS after that. actually both of us only slightly hungry but dont know why we ate also. laughs. hmm, i think eat for the fun of it. after that we went to heeren to snap some neoprints. for the first time, the neoprints we took were perfectly PERFECT. had a blast. then took the card ones which we were pretty dumb about it. from there we went to Taka to Borders looking for a map for nasha's papa. cannot find also. walk abit more; saw najip ali. i think im born to see stars. laughs. hmm, then can go back home already. laughs.
going nash'a house was the greatest part of everything. i think of the sleepover almost all the time. really glad it came true. quite sad cause i left ibu at home alone. poor ibu! but i love her okays. went nasha's house sit down a while then i went to shower ah. nasha's turn shower. went al-ameen for supper. both of us full to the max after that. laughs. walk home steadily. talk & talk & gossip & gossip & bitch & bitch. imagine that! hell of a great time man...! went to do something crazy for the kicks but it wasnt so crazy ah. i dont understand what im saying but never mind.. i think we turned of the lights quite early at 12 something. then talk & talk some more. nasha kept drifting away in her 'boat' bed with the special wheels. only went to sleep at 2something. i know she tired mah then my knees was acting up on me. i think im growing too old to walk to far. sighs. woke up at noon today. pretty late la! never shower both me and nasha then went down with nadia to buy brunch. me and nadia ate nasi lemak which was super freaking pathetic la. lucky i was fulfilled and full. went online..showered..then uncle gulam sent me home with nadia and nasha. they wanna go but shoes for nasha. hmmph! i jealous.
CONCLUSION: time spent with nasha was amazingly awesome. thogh i forogt to bring back my skirt. oops!!
riyah starr@ 3:43 pm
Friday, June 17, 2005
alright here goes. the whole day yesterday i was super tired from what i dont know. i woke up and handed hafiz his present. he told me he didnt want to have a birthday cause he is shy. i like totally freaked out. he wont talked to me. sighs. signs of loneliness without hafiz. hate that feeling. i tried getting some econs shit in my head. managed to finish up one topic only for MCQ. im going to die soon. laughs. ermm, halfway through i was on the playstation playing x-men then i fell asleep while lying on my bed. laughs. stupid me! i should have studied in the living room but ayah was watching the damn TV. laughs. then the whole family without abang went with my 'god brothers' for dinner at changi. had a great deal of food in tummy. suprisingly, we saw ONE person whom probably everybody knows. indra shahdan was going to eat at the place where we ate. so my ibu called out indra shahdan and he waved back. cool or what!? i still think he super duper handsome. *dreaming* my first football crush. and his children very cute. laughs. forgot to mention that before we went to dinner then i had another dosage of coke float which abang bought for me. YEAH! i think im crazy for coke float. laughs. after we came back from dinner, i took pictures with abang's phone. i think it was pretty cute. show you soon! laughs. erm, then i watched the OC. played playstation [need for speed] with my abang. my goodness! the freaking car was fucking great. i had to stop at 230am cause abang was getting sleepy. i tried going to bed but i couldnt get to sleep. i thinki slept at 4am. shit! im deprived of sleep. its okays. i still havent shower but mind you its still early noon. laughs. ill go play the game now and do a little bit of study.
fuck ah.next week got sc stuff. i hate being an sc. yucks!
p.s: backstreet's boys new album is HOT! i like..
fuck ah.next week got sc stuff. i hate being an sc. yucks!
p.s: backstreet's boys new album is HOT! i like..
riyah starr@ 11:44 am
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
i just got back from meeting up with my project work members [myself geetha nasri jiangjin shiqin]. i'm tired cause my blood isnt flowing well in my veins. winks. ermm, we met up for setting up of the questionnaire for our surveys. geetha & i went early to study for a little while then nasri came late for half an hour. jiang jin and shiqin came much later but that was all part of the plan. chatted a little bit then decided to call it a day. i really dont think that we were being productive but meeting each other would mean getting out of the house. laughs wickedly. so out of the library we went. then nasri met syirah which we also saw. so i happily waved at syirah. im super duper happy to see her again. laughs. ermm, then we were like walking up the platform and splitted ways. that explains why im home early. had my dosage of coke float today. it helped ease the pain of whatever shit im feeling now. i realised that im pretty fucked up right now. i got fooled. my life is fucking great cause i know i couldnt get started in studying. i did some before but couldnt continue doing it. well oh well. sitting in front of the desk here doesnt makes it better but ill continue doing it anayways. ill drop in again tonight for more action. P.S: tomorrow is hafiz's birthday. yippee!!
riyah starr@ 4:23 pm
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
alright! a new day. more updates on the hunt of speedy; the loose hamster. he screw my life. slept in the cozy bed and abang messaged me and say speedy is still in his room. i told kakak about it then we went to hunt him down. started of our work. located him behind abang's cupboard. then we waited for what seems like forever for it to come out. it came out and i screamed. YUCKS! i hate that thing. really. then it ran loose again. ran out by another entrance when kakak wasn't alert. stupid hamster. now its behing yet another cupboard. im not going to help this time. seriously, that thing freaks me out! eww! moving on. the good side of life goes to the ultimate outing. kakak, me and baby hafiz went to lot 1 for a movie. watched madagascar. hafiz asked tonnes of questions inside the theatre but i patiently answered him back. laughed loads which means its funny. roar. says the lion. but i roar too. im a bear does that makes me a lion?then we went to take neoprint with hafiz. actually he dont want then he took anyways. super cute and super nice! hafiz rawks! yeah!! ill show you when its up on the comp. went a little shopping. yeah!bought stationery [obsession for it]. bought 2 VCDs. a walk to remember & new york minute. must be nice to watch la. borrowed hafiz's 'the incredibles' vcd. will watch soon. im in for a good movie marathon. yipees! catch you later. need a b r e a k!
riyah starr@ 7:31 pm
Monday, June 13, 2005
i did mention i was at my aunt's place then my darling sister messaged me to inform me that the freaking speedy which is a hamster was on the loose. i asked her what happened. she told me that she placed speedy inside a ball [which are meant for hamsters to roll around freely]. she went to sweep the house and realised after a while that the door of the ball was opened and speedy is nowhere to be seen. seriousl;y, i feel like strangling her cause i hate those animals that run loose. i do check them out but when they are in the loose, anything can happen. so hours pass and still no speedy. ibu didnt know about it cause she will panic like hell. i can betcha that speedy will die soon enough. laughs wickedly. i mean its beyond impossible that it will be found unless abang will be willing to tear the house down. i mean jazzy died. then spidey died. they died a horrible death so if speedy died, it should be bless that it died while it was out for an 'adventure'. jazzy died cause abang didnt feed them for days and spidey and speedy got hungry and fed on jazzy. gross! it was baby hafiz who found that out. cried as normal. took picture of jazzy-dead! spidey died in the same fate as jazzy. so now im like the human reminder to abang to feed the one surviving hamster whom still on the -LOOSE.ARGGGGH!!!!
riyah starr@ 6:41 pm
i just got back from what seems to be the most tiring day of the month. yesterday got kenduri then i had to help my aunt and family members. all day standing up and my feet hurts super bad. slept through the night in peace with air-conditioning. laughs. in the morning it rained and i got a little bit of mucus so i woke up and shifted my ass to the living room where hafiz was sleeping and slept next to him for another two hours before deciding to wake up at 1030am. i was left alone at my aunt's house cause my grandparents went home with my cousins and my aunt went for her check-up. hafiz refused to stay home with me even though i helped him to make mee goreng [instant one la]. so i stayed home and discovered that i had eaten bad food. sighs. bad day!! but never mind. stayed and watched garfield and the incredibles on VCD. left with nothing to do i went to tidy the house a little bit and went to hafiz's room and lay on the bed with air-con and radio on. when hafiz came back home with my aunt and uncle, i just chilled out with them. and when it's time to go back to my own home, it was a sad departure. hafiz didnt want me to go home and he cried pleading me to stay. its always like this and its so sad to see him sad. i held back my tears and went home la. no choice. now im sitting at the desk at home with no one at home and a stupid hamster on the loose. thats the beginning of my story. be right back!
riyah starr@ 6:22 pm
Saturday, June 11, 2005
if there is one thing i'm looking forward to this week is..it has got to be my upcoming sleepover with nasha. sighs. i miss her so much. still cant believe she actually went to temasek poly. but i wont stop her chasing her dreams. im super happy for her. anyways, this will be my first sleepover ever. going to be crazy anyways. i know for certain we will be bitching about with each other and just talk and talk about everything under the sun. i can just spill out whatever comes in my heart to nasha. then i can freely tell her about "the crush". man, i'm so looking forward to that. nasha, here i come to your house. laughs wickedly. muahahahahaha.
riyah starr@ 2:10 pm
Friday, June 10, 2005
forgot to mention that amira aishah siti huda shiwin and i went to east coast on tueasday, 7th june 2005. just went there to have a simple day out. met kinda early in the morning so that we can find a good spot and all. wanna spend the whole day with each other. so sweet right!! build a tent which huda brought from home. was a big success then we neatly arranged our stuffs inside. got changed in the tent. ate breakfast. went straight to the water and splashing occurred. i mean majority of us couldnt swim for nuts so we didnt wander far. then somewhere aishah was saying that a typhoon was nearby. nearly stole me heart you know. i thought i was going to die. we did lots of 'going under the water' competition. i didnt win any of it. i was breathless loads. we got out of the water at roughly noon. dried ourselves and ate snacks. and you might not believe this? the 6 of us got in the tent and lay down and then slept. like literally slept. for an hour i think. until siti woke up and talked so loud. we had lunch which ibu cooked. straight after that when into the water again! i felt like puking but remained calm la. then i swam a little bit. not a pro but i tried. i was crazy with shiqin. when to shower then eat then went home. to round of a day: it was fantastically awesome :)
riyah starr@ 11:28 pm
tried doing my revision for the mid-year but to much of no avail. slacking away and i'm gonna get my head chopped of cause im such a lazy asshole. life is so fucked up. trying to enjoy so many things but then enjoyment last no longer than the tortures of life. what can i say about it? been so moody these days. cant be nice to anyone including myself. how nice right? i guess it's one of those mood swing and must be the PMS or something. but at least keeping myself sane so im chatting with syirah [nas' girlfriend;my friend]. met syirah about two weeks ago. was out with lil nasha then met up with nas and syirah. she is such a sweetheart. its as if we already know her for like millions of dinosaur years. took many neoprints [in fact only two]. but still nice and its my favourite part so who cares. okay back to topic. two weeks from now and school will reopen. tried to push the thoughts away from my mind but it's like haunting me. it keeps coming. sighs. life is getting more hectic. i feel so desperate for something new.
riyah starr@ 11:12 pm
Thursday, June 09, 2005
holidays are here. doesnt seem like a holiday. no messages received. seems like i'm forgotten. luckily have my own life somehow. spent it with my family. went out with my friends. neoprinting a lil bit. here and now got a chance to update this life of mine up here. got a new skin. kinda how i am right now. figure me out!
riyah starr@ 1:36 pm