im pretty frustrated. i am actually doing my second draft for I&R. and the freaking fingers of mine just typed in the first paragragh and somehow, i deleted it altogether.twice!! and my patience is running really thin.like thinner than a piece of paper.i cannot stand the constant noise at home when daddy just cannot contain his anger to himself. cause he seems almost like his dad like this. sighs.
and im on a swingers where my mood just change drastically. must be pms but im trying to control. i hate being a girl sometimes but i love being one so much. and my mum is not helping me that much cause she is always seems to be screaming in my ears. it almost seems like its my fault that i barely have time to make the freaking cookies. im sorry i dont have that time. but i have to worry about my studies and my project work rather than some freaking cookies which will only bring in revenue of $25. i dont need excess worry ma. i dont!! and time definitely is not by my side. i have so many things to worry about yet none really matters to others. im sorry im just going on and on.
im just hoping that things will run smoothly for PW. so much changes were made today and it freaks me out that i have not seen the slides and i know that the freaking slides in itself is like shit. seriously!! and im not that happy that i dont have microsoft powerpoint at home, i trust that geetha has done her best but the freaking thing is that our individuals part need to be done by individulas ourselves. thats our mistakes!! i hate myself right now!! argh!!
so much for not being depressed.
im not depressed but im just letting out my utmost fears and angers.
and im on a swingers where my mood just change drastically. must be pms but im trying to control. i hate being a girl sometimes but i love being one so much. and my mum is not helping me that much cause she is always seems to be screaming in my ears. it almost seems like its my fault that i barely have time to make the freaking cookies. im sorry i dont have that time. but i have to worry about my studies and my project work rather than some freaking cookies which will only bring in revenue of $25. i dont need excess worry ma. i dont!! and time definitely is not by my side. i have so many things to worry about yet none really matters to others. im sorry im just going on and on.
im just hoping that things will run smoothly for PW. so much changes were made today and it freaks me out that i have not seen the slides and i know that the freaking slides in itself is like shit. seriously!! and im not that happy that i dont have microsoft powerpoint at home, i trust that geetha has done her best but the freaking thing is that our individuals part need to be done by individulas ourselves. thats our mistakes!! i hate myself right now!! argh!!
so much for not being depressed.
im not depressed but im just letting out my utmost fears and angers.
riyah starr@ 8:41 pm
Saturday, October 29, 2005
..khairiyah..dayana..syaiful..
..i was preparing way before the jazz concert..
..just look at my brudder trying so hard to be cute..hehe..
..when the quarrels come and go, you'll find a sister in her..i have calmed myself down&trying to view things on the bright side.
alumni or no alumni;its my own sole decision.
whether they like it or not, i shall just give them a piece of my crap.
today, will be another freaked normal day ever in my life.
i wanna go shopping but with no one in particular.
my sister is working till late.
my brother works& no, i cant go out shopping with him.
my mum is super busy still making cookies.
and dad?dont even bother thinking.
but maybe i can pull geetha later for a while at lot 1??
i hope she agrees with me but if she doesnt, its okay.
i can manage without shopping :(
im bored.
super duper bored.
riyah starr@ 9:28 am
Friday, October 28, 2005
i dont like being the freaking president for some stupid secondary school alumni.
im never NEVER good at this kinda things.
they definitely picked the freaking wrong person to do such stuff.
i dont want i dont WANT.
stupid stupid stupid!!
and now they haunt me all day and all night.
sighs.
i just wanna kill them for actually picking me.
and blaming myself for being so dumb!!
I HATE ALUMNIs.
im never NEVER good at this kinda things.
they definitely picked the freaking wrong person to do such stuff.
i dont want i dont WANT.
stupid stupid stupid!!
and now they haunt me all day and all night.
sighs.
i just wanna kill them for actually picking me.
and blaming myself for being so dumb!!
I HATE ALUMNIs.
riyah starr@ 9:19 pm
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
oh my!i'm feeling really really tired from all this school stuff.
but its the last day of school so it doesnt really matter.
its a pretty slack today i guess.
started of with morning assembly where we departed with mrs ong.
a fine woman with big dreams.
im proud of her somehow.
but i felt a little bit odd cause i didnt have my sc&school badge on.
i felt naked.
it was the freaking first time that i forgot my badges this year.
sighs.
doing the slides all over again was a heartache.
on one side,i have the ever sleeping beauty&the ever moody beauty.
on the ither side, i have the small-eyed boys playing games.
so we completed the slides but with not much satisfaction.
but i was happy that the others were there to give their comments.
i guess geetha was just not in the mood.
and keane was still sick.
nasri and jiang jin just enjoys each other company.
OP again was such a bore.
stumbled through many lines in between.
but im confident ill do just fine with much practice.
so after i was done with the group's presentation, i took my digi cam.
sat at the back of the class with shiqin.
took some good pictures.
was supposed to go back home straight after OP.
but somehow, we took our time taking pictures.
and laughing away.
and laughing away.
and laughing away.
definitely,fun.
sitting at the staircase and we frightened a couple of people.
laughs loudly.
im happy :)
im loved :)
im wanted :)
just cause i found amazing beautiful electrifying friends like my dearest midfielders [captain planet inc], geetha and nani.
aishah siti huda shiqin.
oh my!i'm feeling really really tired from all this school stuff.
but its the last day of school so it doesnt really matter.
its a pretty slack today i guess.
started of with morning assembly where we departed with mrs ong.
a fine woman with big dreams.
im proud of her somehow.
but i felt a little bit odd cause i didnt have my sc&school badge on.
i felt naked.
it was the freaking first time that i forgot my badges this year.
sighs.
doing the slides all over again was a heartache.
on one side,i have the ever sleeping beauty&the ever moody beauty.
on the ither side, i have the small-eyed boys playing games.
so we completed the slides but with not much satisfaction.
but i was happy that the others were there to give their comments.
i guess geetha was just not in the mood.
and keane was still sick.
nasri and jiang jin just enjoys each other company.
OP again was such a bore.
stumbled through many lines in between.
but im confident ill do just fine with much practice.
so after i was done with the group's presentation, i took my digi cam.
sat at the back of the class with shiqin.
took some good pictures.
was supposed to go back home straight after OP.
but somehow, we took our time taking pictures.
and laughing away.
and laughing away.
and laughing away.
definitely,fun.
sitting at the staircase and we frightened a couple of people.
laughs loudly.
im happy :)
im loved :)
im wanted :)
just cause i found amazing beautiful electrifying friends like my dearest midfielders [captain planet inc], geetha and nani.
aishah siti huda shiqin.
riyah starr@ 5:46 pm
Thursday, October 27, 2005
what can you give me to make me satisfied?
i just want a peace of mind so that i can rest in peace for at least some time now.
my results. i dont want to talk about it.
people may think im crazy for not being grateful for what i have.
i am grateful and thankful to god for giving me guidance.
but the drive inside of me just feels it aint enough.
and i hope it aint just words im saying.
i hope to put my words into my actions.
and strive to help my loved ones along the way.
and im sure ill be blessed with the strength.
i just want a peace of mind so that i can rest in peace for at least some time now.
my results. i dont want to talk about it.
people may think im crazy for not being grateful for what i have.
i am grateful and thankful to god for giving me guidance.
but the drive inside of me just feels it aint enough.
and i hope it aint just words im saying.
i hope to put my words into my actions.
and strive to help my loved ones along the way.
and im sure ill be blessed with the strength.
i'm still in pain for the past few days now.
my tongue still hasnt healed.
i still feel like puking myguts out.
i feel like something is hurting mytummy.
ouch!
i think i can go crazy maintaining my stupid tummy.
i just hope it doesnt create more problems tomorrow.
my tongue still hasnt healed.
i still feel like puking myguts out.
i feel like something is hurting mytummy.
ouch!
i think i can go crazy maintaining my stupid tummy.
i just hope it doesnt create more problems tomorrow.
and OP is still a thing so far away.
we are still struggling with the slides.
today it was so hard for me and shiqin to finish it up.
just to find out that we cant save the work.
it was so heartbreaking and both of us felt like crying.
we did it for like nearly an hour and a half.
so now we are counting on our final hopes to get it done by tomorrow.
nasri, jiang jin, shiqin and geetha.
im glad we are in this together.
i wont change anything from this world.
thanks for enduring the many heartaches and anger :)
we are still struggling with the slides.
today it was so hard for me and shiqin to finish it up.
just to find out that we cant save the work.
it was so heartbreaking and both of us felt like crying.
we did it for like nearly an hour and a half.
so now we are counting on our final hopes to get it done by tomorrow.
nasri, jiang jin, shiqin and geetha.
im glad we are in this together.
i wont change anything from this world.
thanks for enduring the many heartaches and anger :)
i love you all my friends.
i do.
i do.
i do.
i do.
riyah starr@ 9:24 pm
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie.
what's better than having a day to yourself and reading a book?
nothing's better than that.
except maybe the warmth of the pillow.
and the sound of the wind.
i'm enjoying myself today with the coolness of the atmosphere.
i'm trying to keep myself occupied with the pain i'm feeling.
what's better than having a day to yourself and reading a book?
nothing's better than that.
except maybe the warmth of the pillow.
and the sound of the wind.
i'm enjoying myself today with the coolness of the atmosphere.
i'm trying to keep myself occupied with the pain i'm feeling.
but no worries.
i'm not in pain by anyone.
i'm forgiving.
but i'm just in pain cause i have the same old gastric problem.
i thought not taking the medication this morning would be okay.
but i was wrong.
i'm suffering all the juices that makes me wanna puke.
and i'm not feeling any better.
that thing or ulcer or whatever on my tongue is hurting me bad.
it got bigger today.
putting on bonjela didnt help last night.
i didnt feel a thing when i put the bonjela.
i can barely talk much today.
and swallowing my own saliva can be torturous.
ouch!
i seem to think that my right cheek is swollen but its not.
im in pain.
*pouts*
i'm not in pain by anyone.
i'm forgiving.
but i'm just in pain cause i have the same old gastric problem.
i thought not taking the medication this morning would be okay.
but i was wrong.
i'm suffering all the juices that makes me wanna puke.
and i'm not feeling any better.
that thing or ulcer or whatever on my tongue is hurting me bad.
it got bigger today.
putting on bonjela didnt help last night.
i didnt feel a thing when i put the bonjela.
i can barely talk much today.
and swallowing my own saliva can be torturous.
ouch!
i seem to think that my right cheek is swollen but its not.
im in pain.
*pouts*
i feel lousy cause i made hafiz cried.
it wasnt my fault.
he didnt wanna learn his spellings.
so i had to shout at him and pinch him.
i gave him a choice or studying or sleeping.
before he slept, he apologised to me for hitting me before.
how sweet!
how i want him to grow up at all?
sighs.
it wasnt my fault.
he didnt wanna learn his spellings.
so i had to shout at him and pinch him.
i gave him a choice or studying or sleeping.
before he slept, he apologised to me for hitting me before.
how sweet!
how i want him to grow up at all?
sighs.
riyah starr@ 5:20 pm
Monday, October 24, 2005
i should have thought through everything that i have been through.
but then again, maybe not.
to the following people,i just have to give a shout-out to you all:
shiqin- i admire you for being so strong in your moment of silence. and for voicing out your fears to me. your being certainly have complemented us both in every way and im glad that i still have the chance to tell you that i love you.
huda- i feel so close to you no matter what differences we have. and the umbrella sharing doesnt look nice cause we stil get caught half inthe rain. but you are a soul i can count on for peace and tranquility. :)
aishah- my one and ONLY adik!the one who provides so much love and smiles for others. my time with you has not ended yet.it shall go on for the rest of our lives , insya'allah.muahs.
siti- yes, indeed you are afraid. everyone is behind you.everyone loves you just the way you are. if they wish to hate you in any way, i guess they're pretty dumb. but you're special little lady!!you are!!and it hurts me to see you lose confidence in yourself.it does.but ill stay strong for you baby :)
nani - look where we are now baby!??!definitely, back on track.do i regret anything? no i dont!in fact, i feel much better than ever. coffee bean dates, more movies and wonderful photo-taking ya.that definitely has got to be us!! :) i sayang you just as much as you know.
geetha - nothing will change the way we are. i am me and you are you. yet honey cornflakes made us argue. how sad! but no matter what you're my smartie ass!! :)
syirah - do i have to say more? we read each other better than what people might think. im thinking of you lady always.muahs. good luck for your 'o' levels aight :)
*this period seems to be so crucial for all of us.i feel as scared as any of you waiting for your results.honestly, im anxious for you and myself.you all might think im crazy to worry about myself.i just have to tell you that being me doesnt make it seem easy.somehow, i have to fight harder to keep myself strionger so i can continue to inspire you.i have faith in all of you even if it might be little.but it definitely hurts me to see any of you losing faith in yourself when a being still believes in you.it does hurt.but nonetheless, i dont love you any lesser than right now cause you have given me more to think of than myself.*
but then again, maybe not.
to the following people,i just have to give a shout-out to you all:
shiqin- i admire you for being so strong in your moment of silence. and for voicing out your fears to me. your being certainly have complemented us both in every way and im glad that i still have the chance to tell you that i love you.
huda- i feel so close to you no matter what differences we have. and the umbrella sharing doesnt look nice cause we stil get caught half inthe rain. but you are a soul i can count on for peace and tranquility. :)
aishah- my one and ONLY adik!the one who provides so much love and smiles for others. my time with you has not ended yet.it shall go on for the rest of our lives , insya'allah.muahs.
siti- yes, indeed you are afraid. everyone is behind you.everyone loves you just the way you are. if they wish to hate you in any way, i guess they're pretty dumb. but you're special little lady!!you are!!and it hurts me to see you lose confidence in yourself.it does.but ill stay strong for you baby :)
nani - look where we are now baby!??!definitely, back on track.do i regret anything? no i dont!in fact, i feel much better than ever. coffee bean dates, more movies and wonderful photo-taking ya.that definitely has got to be us!! :) i sayang you just as much as you know.
geetha - nothing will change the way we are. i am me and you are you. yet honey cornflakes made us argue. how sad! but no matter what you're my smartie ass!! :)
syirah - do i have to say more? we read each other better than what people might think. im thinking of you lady always.muahs. good luck for your 'o' levels aight :)
*this period seems to be so crucial for all of us.i feel as scared as any of you waiting for your results.honestly, im anxious for you and myself.you all might think im crazy to worry about myself.i just have to tell you that being me doesnt make it seem easy.somehow, i have to fight harder to keep myself strionger so i can continue to inspire you.i have faith in all of you even if it might be little.but it definitely hurts me to see any of you losing faith in yourself when a being still believes in you.it does hurt.but nonetheless, i dont love you any lesser than right now cause you have given me more to think of than myself.*
riyah starr@ 9:32 pm
Thursday, October 20, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
i need some breathing space.
the air choked me.
the filth.
the dirt.
the evil.
i need some breathing space.
away from the your hurting words.
away from my grumpiness.
i wanna run away into the wind and never stop.
to hit the beach in MIAMI.
to walk thru the GREAT WALL OF CHINA.
i wanna run away.
i need some breathing space.
so you wont suffocate me to my death bed,
because i need some sense knocked into me.
because i feel so alone.
cause im too afraid.
i need some breathing space.
so i can be happy.
p.s. dont worry guys im not sad or anything.
i just typed what my fingers wanted.
at this moment it wanted some space.
i need some breathing space.
the air choked me.
the filth.
the dirt.
the evil.
i need some breathing space.
away from the your hurting words.
away from my grumpiness.
i wanna run away into the wind and never stop.
to hit the beach in MIAMI.
to walk thru the GREAT WALL OF CHINA.
i wanna run away.
i need some breathing space.
so you wont suffocate me to my death bed,
because i need some sense knocked into me.
because i feel so alone.
cause im too afraid.
i need some breathing space.
so i can be happy.
p.s. dont worry guys im not sad or anything.
i just typed what my fingers wanted.
at this moment it wanted some space.
riyah starr@ 5:55 pm
Saturday, October 15, 2005
i was looking through the blogs of the different people.
and i guess most teenagers feel this kind of feeling where they are not good enough for something.
maybe i should not really feel that way.
i mean sounding so angry, or depressed.
maybe i should learn to be more happy than ever.
than i will be happy.
i was reading thruu a chapter of a book about controlling your anger.
and i do realise that in the past, i was angry for having to go thru changes.
so i guess its normal.
and i now i shall and can only learn from that.
so i shall try to rejuvenate myself with all the love and happiness in this world.
whether or not, people like me for it.
i shall.
i will be friends with those who are worthy of me.
i will.
and you cant stop me from doing that.
i will continue leadingt he life that i alwyas lead.
and i guess most teenagers feel this kind of feeling where they are not good enough for something.
maybe i should not really feel that way.
i mean sounding so angry, or depressed.
maybe i should learn to be more happy than ever.
than i will be happy.
i was reading thruu a chapter of a book about controlling your anger.
and i do realise that in the past, i was angry for having to go thru changes.
so i guess its normal.
and i now i shall and can only learn from that.
so i shall try to rejuvenate myself with all the love and happiness in this world.
whether or not, people like me for it.
i shall.
i will be friends with those who are worthy of me.
i will.
and you cant stop me from doing that.
i will continue leadingt he life that i alwyas lead.
P.S: this entry is dedicated to aishah :)
riyah starr@ 11:20 am
Friday, October 14, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
im already grumpy.
yet i cant seem to do things right.
i wasnt in the mood at all today to play nice.
and i wasnt that nice.
i changed my skin twice in an hour or more.
i had love the brtiney spears one.
but then it became crappy.
so i changed to this atomic kitten one just cause i like it.
it looks too feminine right now but it'll stick till i find something dark.
and jacky, i tyoed in that vectors thingy you told me to,
but it didnt work at all.
i got this "i love my teddy" skin which was damn ugly.
or isit just me and my grumpiness?
im fine when im on MSN.
playing games with siti and chatting away.
but when i get to talking face to face with anybody,ill be like so damn pissed of.
phew~i think something wrong with me already.
and the way i SMS tonight was terrible.
i sucked bigt ime today.
i should learnt o control my grumpiness.
it aint good for me.
but i know why im like this.
but i cant tell anyone cause its hard for them to understand maybe.
and the fact that im very demanding with my life right now.
and all i want is for things to go my own way,it aint helping if i spend ten hours talking to anyone.
sighs.
and i do realise that my nature now is like my mother.
im so much like her.
the way i want to always win on any arguments and such.
no wonder some people find it hard to please me sometimes.
sighs.
geetha, im glad you're still willing to share a part of your life with me.
its amazing how you can try to tolerate the shit that i've been giving you.
haha.love you baby!! :D
im already grumpy.
yet i cant seem to do things right.
i wasnt in the mood at all today to play nice.
and i wasnt that nice.
i changed my skin twice in an hour or more.
i had love the brtiney spears one.
but then it became crappy.
so i changed to this atomic kitten one just cause i like it.
it looks too feminine right now but it'll stick till i find something dark.
and jacky, i tyoed in that vectors thingy you told me to,
but it didnt work at all.
i got this "i love my teddy" skin which was damn ugly.
or isit just me and my grumpiness?
im fine when im on MSN.
playing games with siti and chatting away.
but when i get to talking face to face with anybody,ill be like so damn pissed of.
phew~i think something wrong with me already.
and the way i SMS tonight was terrible.
i sucked bigt ime today.
i should learnt o control my grumpiness.
it aint good for me.
but i know why im like this.
but i cant tell anyone cause its hard for them to understand maybe.
and the fact that im very demanding with my life right now.
and all i want is for things to go my own way,it aint helping if i spend ten hours talking to anyone.
sighs.
and i do realise that my nature now is like my mother.
im so much like her.
the way i want to always win on any arguments and such.
no wonder some people find it hard to please me sometimes.
sighs.
geetha, im glad you're still willing to share a part of your life with me.
its amazing how you can try to tolerate the shit that i've been giving you.
haha.love you baby!! :D
riyah starr@ 11:30 pm
Thursday, October 13, 2005
..a picto of my brother with his girlfriend..
..a picto of my sister with her boyfriend..im so thankful that the exams are over.
finally!i can breathe easy.
i dont really wanna think about my results anyways.
so now my energy is fully on PW.
im pretty excited to get it done and over with too.
then can i only truly enjoy myself to the maximum.
well,i thought i show you readers my darling siblings.
with their loved ones.
dont ask me where's mine k?
cause i dont have one.
hahaha.
and i dont need one at least for the time being.
grins.
and i was wondering this morning "how did this kind hearted girl becomes so GRUMPY all of a sudden?"
my mood was so weird that i was so damn irritated with just anybody.
and my expressions showed it all.
oh my god!
and all i can do now is pray that my family is going to be fine.
grandmother just fell seriously sick.
now poor lil cuzzie [fizah] gets sick.
and im gonna fall sick.
and my mummy had injured her right arm.
i dont really know whats going on but i just know that they will be fine.
so yesterday we went to jurong point to break fast.
a splendid moment for the 6 of us minus qin plus geetha.
it was a great time considering the fact that we keep missing people.
and yesterday i was just so blessed to have wonderful friends who were showering me with so much love and happiness.
do i need something more?
in the future,yes but not now.
:)
riyah starr@ 11:55 am
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
left with one human geography paper to go.
thats all im rooting for right now.
then its all project work and more of it.
im kinda worried abour the project work thingy.
its like nasri is given the biggest part of all for the report.
but nonetheless,i have faith that he will complete that piece by thursday.
im praying that he will at least.
right now,im so thankful that i dont have any paper today.
cause im having kinda flu.
and something that goes in my stomach.
nearly puked this morning but i kinda redeemed myself.
goodness!!
but at least its perfect timing since its coming to e closure for promos :D
and im having a memory trace lately.
something happened in the 77 bus yesterday on the way home.
a small little quarrel broke out between an old man&a teenager.
it kinda scared me to my toes.
cause when that old man shouted,i was reminded of the past.
that painful past.
so i went like silent completely for like 2 minutes before resuming talking to geetha.
i wanted to tell someone that i was afraid but i couldnt.
i just have to shake it off.
phew~
so after i departed with huda,i was still like thinking about it.
and stepping into this crib of my family kinda make me feel so comfy but yet so alienated.
but i managed to tell dee last night about how i felt yesterday.
but still,i cannot erase that thought.
sighs sighs sighs.
im outta here already.
im going to study for my human geography with a bad stomach.
smiles.
:D
left with one human geography paper to go.
thats all im rooting for right now.
then its all project work and more of it.
im kinda worried abour the project work thingy.
its like nasri is given the biggest part of all for the report.
but nonetheless,i have faith that he will complete that piece by thursday.
im praying that he will at least.
right now,im so thankful that i dont have any paper today.
cause im having kinda flu.
and something that goes in my stomach.
nearly puked this morning but i kinda redeemed myself.
goodness!!
but at least its perfect timing since its coming to e closure for promos :D
and im having a memory trace lately.
something happened in the 77 bus yesterday on the way home.
a small little quarrel broke out between an old man&a teenager.
it kinda scared me to my toes.
cause when that old man shouted,i was reminded of the past.
that painful past.
so i went like silent completely for like 2 minutes before resuming talking to geetha.
i wanted to tell someone that i was afraid but i couldnt.
i just have to shake it off.
phew~
so after i departed with huda,i was still like thinking about it.
and stepping into this crib of my family kinda make me feel so comfy but yet so alienated.
but i managed to tell dee last night about how i felt yesterday.
but still,i cannot erase that thought.
sighs sighs sighs.
im outta here already.
im going to study for my human geography with a bad stomach.
smiles.
:D
riyah starr@ 9:48 am
Saturday, October 08, 2005
....
....
..thank GOD joel is blocking me..hahaha..
..back when it was a happy family..the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
as written in diary on July 16th:
I think produing Captain Planet Inc have made aishah
siti
shiqin
huda and i much closer to each other.
i feel the empowerment of our friendship through time.
It's crazy cause their friendship have somehow saved me.
saved me fromthe pain&they brought me so much happiness.
they are my guarantee to ensure that my life is complete.
they are my guarantee formany tomorrows to come.
i love them all.
as written by nani for me:
enjoy life cause its short&soend it with the people who makes you happy
&whom you cherish.
Remember to smile always cause you look pretty& cute that
way baby.
note:reading back on this note nani, its certainly heart-warming.
as written by nasha for me:
i just want you to constantly remember that im here&
i give a damn!
i hope our friendship will continue burning dtrong in the midst of
horribly cold winds.
Let's strive for happiness.
thanks for being my friend&my firm pillar of support.
thanks for seeing me for me,imperfections&all.
and most of all,thanks for being you.
note: i still feel the warmth you brought to me.
though it seems like forever ago, you're still remembered sugar :)
as written in diary on July 16th:
I think produing Captain Planet Inc have made aishah
siti
shiqin
huda and i much closer to each other.
i feel the empowerment of our friendship through time.
It's crazy cause their friendship have somehow saved me.
saved me fromthe pain&they brought me so much happiness.
they are my guarantee to ensure that my life is complete.
they are my guarantee formany tomorrows to come.
i love them all.
as written by nani for me:
enjoy life cause its short&soend it with the people who makes you happy
&whom you cherish.
Remember to smile always cause you look pretty& cute that
way baby.
note:reading back on this note nani, its certainly heart-warming.
as written by nasha for me:
i just want you to constantly remember that im here&
i give a damn!
i hope our friendship will continue burning dtrong in the midst of
horribly cold winds.
Let's strive for happiness.
thanks for being my friend&my firm pillar of support.
thanks for seeing me for me,imperfections&all.
and most of all,thanks for being you.
note: i still feel the warmth you brought to me.
though it seems like forever ago, you're still remembered sugar :)
when you remember what friendship had brought to you,
things will be okay again.
reading thru those lil notes have made me run away from the screaming notion
of this family.
chaos.
uncertainty.
thus,i find a lil something in you :)
things will be okay again.
reading thru those lil notes have made me run away from the screaming notion
of this family.
chaos.
uncertainty.
thus,i find a lil something in you :)
riyah starr@ 9:20 pm
Friday, October 07, 2005
..the man with the nice soul..
..its just another craziness..
..mike the miz..geddit?..
..britney..when she was like bloated and preggy..wonder if ill end up like this one day..okays.the day had come for me to be here with you finally.
i know you all have missed me so much.
thats why i came back for you.
im fasting.
yeapies!
great feelings when you just dont eat.
im so so SO ready for hari raya.
my clothing is already done and i look much slimmer in it.
laughs.im beginning to imgaine what my friends will say.
im done.
DONE with physical geography.
Done with economics essays.
DONE with MOB paper 1.
but i can safely say that ill do not that well.
as usual the expectations are high.
but the minute i saw the paper i went like "SHUCKS!"
i should have done something more than what i aalready am doing.
but to think of it, i've done enough for myself.
im so into MTV right now.
real world/road rules:the inferno rocks.
apart from mike being in there, i just thinkthe game in itself is awesome.
i think i've lost my touch in blogging.
byes byes.
riyah starr@ 1:34 pm
Saturday, October 01, 2005
the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
oh well.
GP is over.
it feels like promos are over too.
but unfortunately,it has only begun.
i guess, my essay will be alrighty.
the compre was a bug no-NO.
i wish i could kill myself looking at the others write their paper.
-sobs-
oh well.
GP is over.
it feels like promos are over too.
but unfortunately,it has only begun.
i guess, my essay will be alrighty.
the compre was a bug no-NO.
i wish i could kill myself looking at the others write their paper.
-sobs-
im filled with a sense of pain.
everywhere is aching.
*pouts*
everywhere is aching.
*pouts*
that chinese guy just wont stop i guess.
ill make him stop.
i say the attention is good but his intention's are not.
asking for my hp number a zillion times wont make me like him in an instanbt.
oh my god!
i think he should go and prey on other girls.
cause each time he asked my tummy just wanna create problem for me.
hahahahahahaha.
i have nothing much to say.
i love my friends so much.
and my sleeping partner.
ill make him stop.
i say the attention is good but his intention's are not.
asking for my hp number a zillion times wont make me like him in an instanbt.
oh my god!
i think he should go and prey on other girls.
cause each time he asked my tummy just wanna create problem for me.
hahahahahahaha.
i have nothing much to say.
i love my friends so much.
and my sleeping partner.
riyah starr@ 11:40 am