stinks!!
what stinks you may ask.!?
Life stinks...maybe..
i'm not so sure. life is full of uncertainties and dat's why it stinks.but what stinks the most is the feelings of being betrayed and let down by people.alot of times i;ve been looked down by people.they think they're some big shot just cause they're pretty/handsome.i don't give a fuck what they think about me.i don't fucking understand though why she took me for granted.just when i thought i had everything with her,i only learnt that her friendship with me was made-believe.but i'm over it cause there is no point brooding about it la..
having crushes seem such like a great thing to happen.but when you're in too deep, you're in deep shit i tell tou.don't go making the same mistakes as i did.i made the same mistakes over and over again and it's my heart that breaks.what the hell.??why should i suffer for some worthless guy?someone that leads me on to something else.someone whom i could trust but i was hurt.but i still believe in karma.what goes around comes around. so beware peeps!!
Life stinks...maybe..
i'm not so sure. life is full of uncertainties and dat's why it stinks.but what stinks the most is the feelings of being betrayed and let down by people.alot of times i;ve been looked down by people.they think they're some big shot just cause they're pretty/handsome.i don't give a fuck what they think about me.i don't fucking understand though why she took me for granted.just when i thought i had everything with her,i only learnt that her friendship with me was made-believe.but i'm over it cause there is no point brooding about it la..
having crushes seem such like a great thing to happen.but when you're in too deep, you're in deep shit i tell tou.don't go making the same mistakes as i did.i made the same mistakes over and over again and it's my heart that breaks.what the hell.??why should i suffer for some worthless guy?someone that leads me on to something else.someone whom i could trust but i was hurt.but i still believe in karma.what goes around comes around. so beware peeps!!
riyah starr@ 7:31 pm
to my ladys
my life isn't all that smooth sailing.and i'm not making it easy for the people around me.really gotta say thank you to everyone on this blog so here goes:
aishah [my adik]: for being the ear that listens to my craps over and over again.your support has made me believe in myself sometimes.and you teach me to express myself.in anger,i kept quiet and u understand.thanks for understanding me.
siti [my chomel]: for giving me so much hope.u being urself made me learn so much about myself and also about you.will definitely cherish each and every moment.be strong dear.
dee [my beloved sister]:for always crapping and laughing with me when i'm down. you're truly the only sister that understands what i'm going thru. thank you for treating me to so many things yet not getting anything in return. i promise we will make it to switzerland together one day after i started werking ya babe..i'll take you there with my own money.our lives won;t ever be the same again.
shiqin [my darl]: thanks for being my partner in crime. you shud see yourself when you panicked when i cried. i was just letting go off my emotions. thanks for the tissue papers though i have dem myself.thaks for bringing so much laughter in my life and making me go crazy at the slightest silly smallest things.you make me feel so myself and yet u hurt me. i guess it's true dat ur bez fren hurt u d most but im still here darl.i know u laugh at me n laugh wit me.i wun forget kermit forg ever.i'll be the bear that protects her lil cubs in danger.hahakz.thanks much darl!!
huiwen [my drive]: thanks for d many encouragement notes.i kept dem in my file n close to my heart.it really drives me to push myself harder.i guess u understand what i'm going thru best.just so u noe..i'll be here to return d favoour.i still owe u 23 cents ice-cream hor..i'll remember that babe. thanks.
lila [my burger]: bk reminds me of bk la.heh!thanks for being you dear.learnt so mucha bout you in just a few minutes.imagine what a lifetime would bring.i hope that what you aspire to be will be what you be.(if you get what i mean la.)thanks for being yourself cause it opens my eyes to the flaws that i make. :)
huda [my n'bour]:thanks for being by my side every morning n every noon.my mornings would be so lonely when i dun go school wid u.thanks for understanding what i;ve been thru.i'll be there for u lo.so dun try to act tough nd run away from me.it wun werk la babe.
liyun [my bezfren]:thanks for standing by me wen i was in doubt. we are both lost when it cums to SC but it is dat one thing that made you and me inseparable from each other.the person that sits beside me and laugh and joke with me for being lame and cold and spastic.thanks for everything.
nasha [my chubs]:the one and only chubster that motivates me the most.ur bright baby and i noe dat and dat makes u a person worth being admired.u still drive me to strive for myself and do better.thanks loads baby.ur lovely!i noe u will understand me cause it feels dat wat ur going thru coplements wat im going thru.so thanks for making me feel ur pain and learn from it.
Girls, I LOVE YOU LOADS & MUCH!!
aishah [my adik]: for being the ear that listens to my craps over and over again.your support has made me believe in myself sometimes.and you teach me to express myself.in anger,i kept quiet and u understand.thanks for understanding me.
siti [my chomel]: for giving me so much hope.u being urself made me learn so much about myself and also about you.will definitely cherish each and every moment.be strong dear.
dee [my beloved sister]:for always crapping and laughing with me when i'm down. you're truly the only sister that understands what i'm going thru. thank you for treating me to so many things yet not getting anything in return. i promise we will make it to switzerland together one day after i started werking ya babe..i'll take you there with my own money.our lives won;t ever be the same again.
shiqin [my darl]: thanks for being my partner in crime. you shud see yourself when you panicked when i cried. i was just letting go off my emotions. thanks for the tissue papers though i have dem myself.thaks for bringing so much laughter in my life and making me go crazy at the slightest silly smallest things.you make me feel so myself and yet u hurt me. i guess it's true dat ur bez fren hurt u d most but im still here darl.i know u laugh at me n laugh wit me.i wun forget kermit forg ever.i'll be the bear that protects her lil cubs in danger.hahakz.thanks much darl!!
huiwen [my drive]: thanks for d many encouragement notes.i kept dem in my file n close to my heart.it really drives me to push myself harder.i guess u understand what i'm going thru best.just so u noe..i'll be here to return d favoour.i still owe u 23 cents ice-cream hor..i'll remember that babe. thanks.
lila [my burger]: bk reminds me of bk la.heh!thanks for being you dear.learnt so mucha bout you in just a few minutes.imagine what a lifetime would bring.i hope that what you aspire to be will be what you be.(if you get what i mean la.)thanks for being yourself cause it opens my eyes to the flaws that i make. :)
huda [my n'bour]:thanks for being by my side every morning n every noon.my mornings would be so lonely when i dun go school wid u.thanks for understanding what i;ve been thru.i'll be there for u lo.so dun try to act tough nd run away from me.it wun werk la babe.
liyun [my bezfren]:thanks for standing by me wen i was in doubt. we are both lost when it cums to SC but it is dat one thing that made you and me inseparable from each other.the person that sits beside me and laugh and joke with me for being lame and cold and spastic.thanks for everything.
nasha [my chubs]:the one and only chubster that motivates me the most.ur bright baby and i noe dat and dat makes u a person worth being admired.u still drive me to strive for myself and do better.thanks loads baby.ur lovely!i noe u will understand me cause it feels dat wat ur going thru coplements wat im going thru.so thanks for making me feel ur pain and learn from it.
Girls, I LOVE YOU LOADS & MUCH!!
riyah starr@ 7:22 pm
mummy's love
mum's birthday was friday (25th march 2005).i love my mum.i always will love her.i hide my feelings from her cos i can;'t stand to cause her anymore pain. she has hold so much for me for my sister for my brother n for my father.she is an absolutely great example that i truly admire.dere need not be the late princess diana to make things well for the country.my mum made good enuf contributions and i'm proud of her in every single way.
I LOVE YOU,IBU!!!!
I LOVE YOU,IBU!!!!
riyah starr@ 6:46 pm
sad stories!
i don't know why the past weeks was so horrible and truly shitty.
can't understand what was happening around me.i refuse to accept reality i guess.
everything was already so frustrating than athiyah wasn't in good mood dat tuesday.she don't want to leave MI but gotta move on aight girl..??
I'll be missing every moment i spent with Richter 27 especially Lin & Athiyah. these ladies are like my baby sisters. i noe dey call us sisters athiyah.am proud of dat.am glad u came to crash MI dat day.i mean seriously was so happy to see u again girl.saw u and i juz remembered our very own og. sad la for me.hope someone understands me.
can't understand what was happening around me.i refuse to accept reality i guess.
everything was already so frustrating than athiyah wasn't in good mood dat tuesday.she don't want to leave MI but gotta move on aight girl..??
I'll be missing every moment i spent with Richter 27 especially Lin & Athiyah. these ladies are like my baby sisters. i noe dey call us sisters athiyah.am proud of dat.am glad u came to crash MI dat day.i mean seriously was so happy to see u again girl.saw u and i juz remembered our very own og. sad la for me.hope someone understands me.
riyah starr@ 6:42 pm
open up to me!
i don't know what was bothering you nasha that day.i really wanted to take your pain away somehow.but you seemed so far from me.i was hurt for a moment.thought you decided abandon me and forget that i ever existed in your life.i just want to know what happened, that's all.open up to me chubs!it will make you feel so much better.i know i'm not much compared to others but you and i have much in common. i could understand you and i would even try to understand you. :)
riyah starr@ 2:42 am
JAE orientation 2005
i know ur thinking dat im enjoyin every freakin minute of orientation.yeah!i know im away from class but at dis moment i feel like going to class so i could be prepared for my common test.i've been trying so hard to cope with orienatation and studying but very little helps.i read my geog notes while in a meeting.i read my econs while my members were lunching.(am i a freak?). i can't help it but to compare oG 10 with my previous OG (Richter 27)..and guess what's my og name..??ans:ma me mo..i know what ur thinking but i haf no idea where dat cum from.
the first day really ws okay.i anticipated them to be quiet and they were la.sum were more difficult than others but i kept my sanity.second day was more happening but i was so damn super freaking tired. i almost blew my top la but i was just very calm cool & collected. a big shout out of thank you to hui wen for lending me her SLE shirt.another shout out to my girl frens [nasha lila aishah siti shiqin] for giving me strength to carry out my duties. thank you to liyun huda n kailing for being there for me. everything is appreciated.
i truly hope that another 2 days of orientation wouldn't kill me and my common test results. i just hope that this og is worth failing my common test. i would hate to fail but never mind.
the first day really ws okay.i anticipated them to be quiet and they were la.sum were more difficult than others but i kept my sanity.second day was more happening but i was so damn super freaking tired. i almost blew my top la but i was just very calm cool & collected. a big shout out of thank you to hui wen for lending me her SLE shirt.another shout out to my girl frens [nasha lila aishah siti shiqin] for giving me strength to carry out my duties. thank you to liyun huda n kailing for being there for me. everything is appreciated.
i truly hope that another 2 days of orientation wouldn't kill me and my common test results. i just hope that this og is worth failing my common test. i would hate to fail but never mind.
riyah starr@ 2:28 am
my apologies
first and foremost, my apologies to everyone who might be anticipating so much from me. everything seems so hectic that i dun understand it myself.the least i can do is to update thid damn thing once aweek.no internet access at home makes it so difficult to catch up on things.
riyah starr@ 2:21 am
Thursday, March 17, 2005