Yeah!Changed the background picture once again.Pictures of people who i am currently obsessed with ans the people who have seen me through.Some of the pictures couldn't be seen but the people are- My lovely lovely ladies, Mat, the real Miz, Wentworth Miller (: my siblings and their loved ones, and Syirah.
It's raining right now and i'm enjoying the cold weather.Just like Mat said to me today it was going to be a wet weather.And there i was telling him that he can never predict the future.
If i was given a choice, i would probably sleep in today or indulge myself in the PS2.Just only yesterday i gave in to my temptations of playing it and i did play till late 130am.And of course, being angry at myself after that.Hahahaha!I'm having major zit break-out all over my forehead, i think.The stress is getting to the forehead more than it is causing to the brains.
Exams start in a matter of two days and i don't know whether i'm prepared.It feels like i'm ready to go but at the same time, fear just consumes me and i fail to see the bright side.But i'll try my very best to work for the rewards that i'll gain if i manage to score exceptionally well.
I didn't know the real meaning of love.Not the kind of love "love" but a kind of family love i never knew of.And now i do.With just a few words, i finally realised that you do care for me and you always will.I thank you for giving me the right set of mind to go for this battle of mine.Because without your words of encouragement, i would be sitting down there doing nothing about my fears.Thank you for your love (:
Nelly-SUPRISE!!!I still haven't upload the picture we took because my computer just simply won't work.I'll think of something and let you have the picture soon :) Sorry for the delay lass.Missing you always (:
It's raining right now and i'm enjoying the cold weather.Just like Mat said to me today it was going to be a wet weather.And there i was telling him that he can never predict the future.
If i was given a choice, i would probably sleep in today or indulge myself in the PS2.Just only yesterday i gave in to my temptations of playing it and i did play till late 130am.And of course, being angry at myself after that.Hahahaha!I'm having major zit break-out all over my forehead, i think.The stress is getting to the forehead more than it is causing to the brains.
Exams start in a matter of two days and i don't know whether i'm prepared.It feels like i'm ready to go but at the same time, fear just consumes me and i fail to see the bright side.But i'll try my very best to work for the rewards that i'll gain if i manage to score exceptionally well.
I didn't know the real meaning of love.Not the kind of love "love" but a kind of family love i never knew of.And now i do.With just a few words, i finally realised that you do care for me and you always will.I thank you for giving me the right set of mind to go for this battle of mine.Because without your words of encouragement, i would be sitting down there doing nothing about my fears.Thank you for your love (:
Nelly-SUPRISE!!!I still haven't upload the picture we took because my computer just simply won't work.I'll think of something and let you have the picture soon :) Sorry for the delay lass.Missing you always (:
riyah starr@ 3:04 pm
Saturday, October 28, 2006
So i did go to Causeway Point yesterday with my mum, aunt and grandmother.Didn't really shop cause halfway my mum received a phonecall saying that one of our relative passed away.But honestly, i don't think i know that person very well.So headed home about 4plus before leaving home to visit my mum's friend who lives rather near our home.
My aunt sent me an SMS asking how come nobody was home.Apparently, i forgot to SMS her to inform her that no one was around.She was rushing to find a cab at the peak hour just to pick our little Mat.I told her that i was going to make it on time if i run from my mum friend's house.So there i was in my baju kurung running away.I felt like some dumb teenager running.Not to mention that i saw a bunch of Millenian juniors dribbling soccer ball near my block.
Reached on time and there was my Mat!Poor little hero cried when he saw me and Nurul.Goodness!So i thought he cried cause i was late.But apparently, he cried because he was the source of victim yet again.He was telling me how his friends were bullying him in school practically everyday.And then he told me that he doesn't wanna go to school anymore.I had to slow talk to him about it.Cause this isn't the first time that he has complained about being bully.There was this chinese classmate of his who always extort moeny from him and extort his cute little wallet.Then my poor Mat won't have any money to eat during recess.
I always thought that Mat was going to be the big bully in class cause he bullies us at home.But it turns out otherwise.But i hope and pray that he will find the strength to overcome the fear of bully and be a good boy still.I used to think that his rough actions were solely his fault.So i would understand now why he punched his friend.Yes, he did punch his friend but that was because his friend punched him.So weird yet so cute.But at the end of the day, Mat isn't really that big bully Mat he portrays.Cause deep inside he just is that pampered little baby i know (:
So last night was like a mini babysitters' club at my place.Dee and I had to take care of Hafiz, Hafiza and Nurul.Not that they are very young but it's just a figure of speech.Hahaha.They are the crazy bunch of cousins.I love talking to Hafiza cause her world is different from mine.I wanna know what it goes like in her world.Apart from her hand, everything else works normally.Night time was nice overall.
My aunt sent me an SMS asking how come nobody was home.Apparently, i forgot to SMS her to inform her that no one was around.She was rushing to find a cab at the peak hour just to pick our little Mat.I told her that i was going to make it on time if i run from my mum friend's house.So there i was in my baju kurung running away.I felt like some dumb teenager running.Not to mention that i saw a bunch of Millenian juniors dribbling soccer ball near my block.
Reached on time and there was my Mat!Poor little hero cried when he saw me and Nurul.Goodness!So i thought he cried cause i was late.But apparently, he cried because he was the source of victim yet again.He was telling me how his friends were bullying him in school practically everyday.And then he told me that he doesn't wanna go to school anymore.I had to slow talk to him about it.Cause this isn't the first time that he has complained about being bully.There was this chinese classmate of his who always extort moeny from him and extort his cute little wallet.Then my poor Mat won't have any money to eat during recess.
I always thought that Mat was going to be the big bully in class cause he bullies us at home.But it turns out otherwise.But i hope and pray that he will find the strength to overcome the fear of bully and be a good boy still.I used to think that his rough actions were solely his fault.So i would understand now why he punched his friend.Yes, he did punch his friend but that was because his friend punched him.So weird yet so cute.But at the end of the day, Mat isn't really that big bully Mat he portrays.Cause deep inside he just is that pampered little baby i know (:
So last night was like a mini babysitters' club at my place.Dee and I had to take care of Hafiz, Hafiza and Nurul.Not that they are very young but it's just a figure of speech.Hahaha.They are the crazy bunch of cousins.I love talking to Hafiza cause her world is different from mine.I wanna know what it goes like in her world.Apart from her hand, everything else works normally.Night time was nice overall.
riyah starr@ 10:01 am
Friday, October 27, 2006
Something is honestly wrong with my computer.Not only is the USB port not doing what it's supposed to, the printer couldn't even be properly connected to the computer.Something has to be done and yet once again, i have to go to my aunt's place in order to print my materials.The past days i have been going out a lot.Two days back, i went to my uncle's place at Bedok.Thank goodness that we took the car (: Phew!Going to my aunt's place was hilarious.When we arrived at the carpark, i saw Mat's cat following this chinese lady.It was funny cause the lady was trying to get rid of the cats.I could clearly imagine how i would have reacted if the cats followed me.ARGHH!So taking the lift, i thought it was going to be a relief.I had to hold my brother's hand cause there were just too many cats around.But once i'm inside my aunt's place, everything seems okay! (:
I really don't know why my aunt's place became like a cat's headquarter mann.Freakky!And there was once that Pipi [Mat's cat] jumped in through the gates.Gosh!You should have seen my reaction when i started to scream.Hahaha!I swear i must find a potential boyfriend who doesn't own a cat (: Hahah!After going home, my siblings and i watched that movie Hostel.It wasn't so bad but it wasn't as gore as Texas Chainsaw.Loved it la.And the actor was handsome too (:
Yesterday headed down to Funan IT Mall with my siblings and Dhaz.I insisted of not going but my brother didn't wanna be alone.I don't know what they bought but i tagged along.Ate at KFC and i ate that cheese banditto thingy.Idiot!I should have just ate the original one.Watched Euro Trip yet again.It's like the many times i have watched that already.It's funny so no harm laughing all over again! (:
I've been really sentimental these past days.And i keep repeating that song "Hurt" by Christina Aguilera all over and over and over again.After watching the video, i realised what it all means.And i had that piece of video within me.Something i keep deep deep in my heart.And each time i hear that song, tears would just well up but i will not cry (:
I really don't know why my aunt's place became like a cat's headquarter mann.Freakky!And there was once that Pipi [Mat's cat] jumped in through the gates.Gosh!You should have seen my reaction when i started to scream.Hahaha!I swear i must find a potential boyfriend who doesn't own a cat (: Hahah!After going home, my siblings and i watched that movie Hostel.It wasn't so bad but it wasn't as gore as Texas Chainsaw.Loved it la.And the actor was handsome too (:
Yesterday headed down to Funan IT Mall with my siblings and Dhaz.I insisted of not going but my brother didn't wanna be alone.I don't know what they bought but i tagged along.Ate at KFC and i ate that cheese banditto thingy.Idiot!I should have just ate the original one.Watched Euro Trip yet again.It's like the many times i have watched that already.It's funny so no harm laughing all over again! (:
I've been really sentimental these past days.And i keep repeating that song "Hurt" by Christina Aguilera all over and over and over again.After watching the video, i realised what it all means.And i had that piece of video within me.Something i keep deep deep in my heart.And each time i hear that song, tears would just well up but i will not cry (:
riyah starr@ 10:41 am
Monday, October 23, 2006
Saturday
It was so so SO NICE to finally meet my girls and my guys after ONE WHOLE BLOODY WEEK!!I know one week seems like a short time but it was the longest one week we all ever had.Didn't expect Mark to be there too but he was.So Aishah, Nani, Jacky, Huda, Mark and I headed for Geetha's house.Saw Junior at the control station.I told them that Geetha was only expecting us at 630pm so we arrived a lil too early then we sat under her block.Hilarious how we made things so nice with our crazy snapshots!Nani i want the pictures baby!!!
Everything else for the night seems perfect!More perfect than i can ever imagine (: Thanks for lightening up my load peeps *MUACKS*
Sunday
Planned not to study today so i thought might as well help out with the cleaning.Amazingly i cleaned up my brother's room.Never in my life would i do work for someone else.Believe me when it comes to cleaning i'm the worse ever. Yeapies!Hahaha!But i did rearranged here and there and now it looks better than the other time.
Met Qin at Yew Tee since she was going to take her cornflakes macaroon.I was so darn tired after the whole lot of cleaning that i was walking ever so slowly to the mrt station.But managed to nap before waking up grumpy and the disturbance my dad was causing.The whole family was home for dinner with Dhaz and Fifi for extra company.Enjoyed the company as always.Apprentice was awesome!I love Donald Trump and his company.I still wanna work for him can? (:
Nights seem much more easier when the world closes in on you.Sometimes, i can't help feeling so insecure about the future that i get so moody.I nearly cried myself to sleep last night.For once, i was duper uber irritated by my sister.It's not a suprise since she was on war with me on Saturday.But it's okay i fell straight to sleep even before a tear could drop (:
And today, our very last day of fasting!Woke up and had the usual routine.Couldn't get back to sleep even though i'm still tired.Managed to open my eyes and do up some questions.My nose has been running since just now.The same thing that happens every day and every night.And my parents ain't home so i thought i might as well stay online before dad nags me when he gets home.Dee is sleeping away and it kinda pisses me of that her right wrist takes this time to hurt.Honestly, i feel it's full of bull.Cause my own right wrist ain't that strong and i was actually resting it for my exams.But i gotta make sacrifices sometimes (:
In fact, i shouldn't be making such sacrifices.I should have stand my ground and stuck to it.I should have been angry at my brother for 'forcing' me and giving me no choice but to wipe the windows.I should be angry at my sister for giving me no choice but to iron the freaking curtains and the mountainous amount of clothings.My patience is wearing thin as much as my faith is.I don't want to go through it and know that people i love don't notice the suffering i'm going through right now.Sighss!
Tomorrow is another new beginning; a new chapter to my life.
It'd be interesting to know what this family has in store for me.Till then, i gotta keep my mind occupied (: See you!
It was so so SO NICE to finally meet my girls and my guys after ONE WHOLE BLOODY WEEK!!I know one week seems like a short time but it was the longest one week we all ever had.Didn't expect Mark to be there too but he was.So Aishah, Nani, Jacky, Huda, Mark and I headed for Geetha's house.Saw Junior at the control station.I told them that Geetha was only expecting us at 630pm so we arrived a lil too early then we sat under her block.Hilarious how we made things so nice with our crazy snapshots!Nani i want the pictures baby!!!
Everything else for the night seems perfect!More perfect than i can ever imagine (: Thanks for lightening up my load peeps *MUACKS*
Sunday
Planned not to study today so i thought might as well help out with the cleaning.Amazingly i cleaned up my brother's room.Never in my life would i do work for someone else.Believe me when it comes to cleaning i'm the worse ever. Yeapies!Hahaha!But i did rearranged here and there and now it looks better than the other time.
Met Qin at Yew Tee since she was going to take her cornflakes macaroon.I was so darn tired after the whole lot of cleaning that i was walking ever so slowly to the mrt station.But managed to nap before waking up grumpy and the disturbance my dad was causing.The whole family was home for dinner with Dhaz and Fifi for extra company.Enjoyed the company as always.Apprentice was awesome!I love Donald Trump and his company.I still wanna work for him can? (:
Nights seem much more easier when the world closes in on you.Sometimes, i can't help feeling so insecure about the future that i get so moody.I nearly cried myself to sleep last night.For once, i was duper uber irritated by my sister.It's not a suprise since she was on war with me on Saturday.But it's okay i fell straight to sleep even before a tear could drop (:
And today, our very last day of fasting!Woke up and had the usual routine.Couldn't get back to sleep even though i'm still tired.Managed to open my eyes and do up some questions.My nose has been running since just now.The same thing that happens every day and every night.And my parents ain't home so i thought i might as well stay online before dad nags me when he gets home.Dee is sleeping away and it kinda pisses me of that her right wrist takes this time to hurt.Honestly, i feel it's full of bull.Cause my own right wrist ain't that strong and i was actually resting it for my exams.But i gotta make sacrifices sometimes (:
In fact, i shouldn't be making such sacrifices.I should have stand my ground and stuck to it.I should have been angry at my brother for 'forcing' me and giving me no choice but to wipe the windows.I should be angry at my sister for giving me no choice but to iron the freaking curtains and the mountainous amount of clothings.My patience is wearing thin as much as my faith is.I don't want to go through it and know that people i love don't notice the suffering i'm going through right now.Sighss!
Tomorrow is another new beginning; a new chapter to my life.
It'd be interesting to know what this family has in store for me.Till then, i gotta keep my mind occupied (: See you!
riyah starr@ 7:35 am
Saturday, October 21, 2006
I couldn't get to sleep after eating this morning. So i thought i helped my mother out with the cookies.She still has three different types of kueh to make.Sighs.Sometimes i wish that she won't have to work so hard.But it's okay, she's going to have a good break while i suffer in return.So here i am right in front of this computer having such terrible tummy ache.I woke up with this pain in the throat on the left side.Drank plenty of water just now so i hope that it'd be all okay soon (:
Lately, life isn't of much excitement.Apart from busily thinking about the A levels and more A levels, there is nothing much people like me and struggling students out there could do.How i wish this was just another promotional exams!But reality is unkind and it's NOT!
Anyhoos, today is Deepavali!HAPPY DEEPAVALI to the people who celebrates this event!And to those who don't enjoy the day nonetheless!!
Lately, life isn't of much excitement.Apart from busily thinking about the A levels and more A levels, there is nothing much people like me and struggling students out there could do.How i wish this was just another promotional exams!But reality is unkind and it's NOT!
Anyhoos, today is Deepavali!HAPPY DEEPAVALI to the people who celebrates this event!And to those who don't enjoy the day nonetheless!!
riyah starr@ 7:47 am
Friday, October 20, 2006
I wanna dance like JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE.hahaha.
Hell, i'd rather dance with him (: *drools*
Hell, i'd rather dance with him (: *drools*
riyah starr@ 12:48 pm
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Finally i told my mother about the real emotions i was experiencing.Somehow, it's always better after telling her what's on my mind.These days she has been so busy with making so many things at home i don't feel like bothering her at all.
I can't wait for Saturday.I need to see my beloved friends BADLY.HONESTLY!!arghhh.The amount of missing is tremendous.Gosh, and it's barely a week from the last time we saw each other :
I can't wait for Saturday.I need to see my beloved friends BADLY.HONESTLY!!arghhh.The amount of missing is tremendous.Gosh, and it's barely a week from the last time we saw each other :
riyah starr@ 12:05 pm
Monday, October 16, 2006
jacky&huda&me- honestly fierce; aishah- pretendin to be fierce; siti- sadly fierce; qin&hugh- completely not fierce.hahaha (:
Tell me that this picture is darn darn cute (: right right?
earth.fire.wind.water.heart.
i was too happy while geetha turns to her 'sexy' mood.aishah&huda are just being awfully shy.
West Coast Park was one crazzzyyy experience.I should be happy that finally i had my thoughts all settled out and moving on with what i honestly feel i should have.And now i should be thankful to Geetha for telling me what i ought to do.It's not easy being me.All these scary thoughts rushing through my mind.About the possible failure that i will be if i fail this mission of mine.The possible failure i would be to this family.Why would i out of all people feel like this?I don't know.And it's worse that i couldn't share my thoughts with nobody at all.Sometimes i just sit down in my room thinking that the world is there to swallow me up.But in fact, the world is waiting for me.
After so long, i thought back about what Geetha told me about this particular someone.I don't know what she is trying to prove to everyone cause there is NOTHING to prove.Furthermore, she brought this upon herself so why should she blame others?And just to clear things out, what is this about quality friendship?Have you ever heard about quality friendship?Honestly, i haven't heard about it.But i suppose you assume that the quantity leads to poor quality.I gotta prove you wrong there girl cause there is definitely quality in this friendship that my friends and i have.You should go for some x-ray and realise that you are at the loss right now.So friends of mine REMEMBER THAT WE ARE QUALITY FRIENDS DESPITE THE LARGE GROUP (:
Moving on, as much as i feel low these days, the only thing that puts me up again is the thought of my late grandfather.It's only right that i have an inspiration that continuously keeps me going in my prayers and keeping me company in reality.I'm almost there i know that!And he should be guiding me through (:
Seems liek a long entry.Hope you guys like the pictures.Just being silly in those days!
I didnt know that i was gonna bump into you today dude.But after just a glimpse, it felt like a lifetime.Just don't go entering my heart for the wrong reasons.
riyah starr@ 7:41 pm
Sunday, October 15, 2006
The stress is getting to the head.The amount it holds can no longer be held within myself.I need to explode and in a way i did it by changing my blog skin which after so long, it seems really really terrible.I'm not satisfied and at this juncture, i'm going to think that whatever i do it brings nothing in return.I'm feeling so lousy with the end of school and the end of everything good.
Being at home isn't all that great either.I wish that someone could understand what i feel inside but i barely know this girl right now.I just have to stay strong.Oh my goodness!Give me strength to move on step by step.I don't need to crumble.
Hurt
Being at home isn't all that great either.I wish that someone could understand what i feel inside but i barely know this girl right now.I just have to stay strong.Oh my goodness!Give me strength to move on step by step.I don't need to crumble.
Hurt
riyah starr@ 1:13 pm
Monday, October 09, 2006
Today was rather an interesting day!Nothing much was done since mostly things were focussed on self-study.But of course Nani&I ended up talking most of the time.But we went to the library to check out some questions on Geogprahy.Seems pretty interesting this part too.Cause i was telling her my deepest darkest secret.Honestly, it's just honestly secrets.
Adik made me upset in the morning due to some reasons pertaining to the Miz.But thank god that didn't affect my mood too much throughout the day.Anyways, it just has to be this way.And this morning we were walking down the stairs a different direction.And somehow, i just think that someone would think we were walking there for him.Sorry dude!
Friendster is killing me!It's damn slow mann.And it keeps going through this phase of some restarting itself.Dumbass!Anyhoos, i'm on an emotional rundown with much ups and downs creeping down my veins.I just wished that every single human being was responsible enough for the actions that they are doing.Honestly, human beings who have common sense would inform people of changes earlier.I'm just really angry!But true enough, they do exist in our world.
Adik made me upset in the morning due to some reasons pertaining to the Miz.But thank god that didn't affect my mood too much throughout the day.Anyways, it just has to be this way.And this morning we were walking down the stairs a different direction.And somehow, i just think that someone would think we were walking there for him.Sorry dude!
Friendster is killing me!It's damn slow mann.And it keeps going through this phase of some restarting itself.Dumbass!Anyhoos, i'm on an emotional rundown with much ups and downs creeping down my veins.I just wished that every single human being was responsible enough for the actions that they are doing.Honestly, human beings who have common sense would inform people of changes earlier.I'm just really angry!But true enough, they do exist in our world.
riyah starr@ 3:40 pm
Sunday, October 08, 2006
I don't need somebody to complete me
I complete myself
Nobody's got to belong to somebody else
I belong to me
Idon't belong to you
Myheart is my possession
I'llbe my own reflection
I belong to me
I'mone not half of two
If you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me
riyah starr@ 8:37 pm
Saturday, October 07, 2006
The Gift Heaven Brought To ME (:
Went out yesterday for dinner.5 outta our usual 7 came for the dinner.But it was okay.We enjoyed the comapny all the same (: It was funny how we were wanting to eat so much yet we couldnt finish up the last bit of the murtabak.Phew luckily we didn't get the biggest of it.Anyways, Aishah and i got a little lecture from the stall that we were buying food from.Goodness!The aunty was darn right rude larr.She could like talk nicely but luckily her voice was quite soft.Anyhoos, saw someone from the past but didnt do much about it, in fact i didnt do anything about it.Muahahah!
After dinner Huda Geetha Nani Aishah and i headed to West Coast park.Goodness!The park is damn dark at night eh.So now i know why people go to such parks.But it''s really nice the place and all.It was a BLAST i must say.We gave Nani her way way belated birthday prezzie (: Then we started to blast the cameras.Yesterday was full of silly fun shots.Definitely hard to pose fiercely when you're in abunch with few people who ended up laughing at how silly they will be.I'm guilty of that too anyways (: I love the night and i love my girls.
After much thought, it came to me that i should be happy that i'm single.Not that i'm saying i want to be single forever, but at this juncture, it seems right.I hear how painful it is and it hurts the most when it's affecting the one you really love.As i helplessly listen to what's going on, i can only pray that things go well and i should be there for you.I am there for you.I will be there for you.Because you have done so much for me.I didn't know she could take for granted what you've done for her.Honestly, if i was to have someone like you, you'd be the person that i'd cherished the most.I hope you know that lil sis will be there.
(:
When you know that opportunities are there, go grab them.
Don't be like me and regret it.
riyah starr@ 1:02 pm
Friday, October 06, 2006
2 days of not being in school is definitely productive but to what extent it depends.Just this morning i was writing to myself about what are the fears that i'm facing right now.Well, it's s till pretty much the same kind of fears (: Anyhoos, Mr teacher called me and luckily it was mummy who picked it up.At least, he didn't say much.My heart was racing thinking it was Armani.Thank God it wasn't.
Going out later to meet my girls for dinner.2 days and i misses you already.Can you imagine what it would be like if it was forever?Just make sure you're there for my funeral.I'm beginning to crap right now.I shall head back on to my notes.
Why do i miss you?
Seeing you seems to be the sweetest thing yet.
Seeing you is the cure for this lust but it carries with it heartache.
How can i know so much about you when i barely know you at all?
Why do you exist in my life creating this misery of unhappiness?
Going out later to meet my girls for dinner.2 days and i misses you already.Can you imagine what it would be like if it was forever?Just make sure you're there for my funeral.I'm beginning to crap right now.I shall head back on to my notes.
Why do i miss you?
Seeing you seems to be the sweetest thing yet.
Seeing you is the cure for this lust but it carries with it heartache.
How can i know so much about you when i barely know you at all?
Why do you exist in my life creating this misery of unhappiness?
riyah starr@ 9:45 am
Thursday, October 05, 2006
When my soul seems restless,you send an angel to guide me through.
When my happiness halt,you send an angel to put a smile on my face.
When you feel down, i can be that angel to pick you up again.
The EARTH that binds us together.
The WIND that blows love throughout.
The WATER that calms this beautiful friendship.
The HEART that reminds us of our existence.
That's my Captain Planet Inc.
And me, i'm the FIRE that lights us in darkness.
riyah starr@ 11:36 am
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Yet once again,a new week came.It's so amazing how quick it has been these days.Somehow,i learnt lessons along the way and i'm appreciating things more with the stories i hear each day.Sometimes, life gets so hard that you'd want to give up but at the end of the day,the life you want to give up on is all about you.Might as well take things well within yourself and make the most of your capabilities.Just a little shout-out to my girls who experienced a little upsetting turn:
Nani
Wow!I didn't know you were going to keep so much of information within you.But i'm truly truly glad that you opened up to me.Honestly, i understand how it feels like cause i tend to keep things to myself a lot more these days.And trust me, it's never never good to do just that.Yeah, sometimes we feel unappreciated by the people around us and it hurts the most when they are the people we love the most.I can safely say that it's going to be just fine as you are that strong girl i have always known.In a way, it's prolly that she knows that you are capable of so many things that she's leaning too much on you.It doesn't matter the hardship that you'll face cause these difficulties you face in life will only make you a better and wiser lady altogether.Isn't that a good thing?
At times, grey clouds crawl above our heads and we feel like hanging our heads and talking to the ground.But you have friends like me (: Always ready to pick you up again.And if it was still 3am in the morning, you can still call me cause i would love to talk when i am having difficulty sleeping myself.I'm sure you know what's with the hardness of sleeping when people are inconsiderate about me going to bed *winks*And i'm sure you're smiling now and reading this, we still have so much to talk about and yeah!Damn that sexy back guy!(: I love you lady *MUACKS*
Aishah
What you said in the bus really got me thinking!I see people believing that they are not going to make it.Do not think that i always feel like i'm going to do so well for my paper.I always always doubt my capabilities and each time i make a comeback, i am proud of myself.I hope you find something about yourself that you can be proud of.I know i'm behind you no matter the distance.It's not a matter of how smart one is, nobody is born stupid,nobody is born dumb.We create ourselves and you are who you are.You know what my O levels was but that didnt damper my spirits.I'm sure you can do it with the amount of effort you put in.I love you adik!
Geetha
So much has happened to you and to me in a way.I was affected too but you were affected more.Such strength you found in handling sucha matter.I just have to think that you never gave in and yes, she is at fault.How could she do that to you and to us?But nonetheless,i not kerek okay.Top 10% now doesn't really mean that much but i'm aiming high and so should you (: Remember our goals and i want you on top with me (: Love you girl !!
Shiqin, Siti and Huda
I have not forgotten you as well.Make the most of the days left (: SHINE ON!
Jacky: Not one of my girls but the boy :p Don't give up yet okay?
What it's like to be me?
I'm clueless.
Don't look at me yet.
I'm still growing.
I'm still learning.
But i know that...
I want to be just like you.
Nani
Wow!I didn't know you were going to keep so much of information within you.But i'm truly truly glad that you opened up to me.Honestly, i understand how it feels like cause i tend to keep things to myself a lot more these days.And trust me, it's never never good to do just that.Yeah, sometimes we feel unappreciated by the people around us and it hurts the most when they are the people we love the most.I can safely say that it's going to be just fine as you are that strong girl i have always known.In a way, it's prolly that she knows that you are capable of so many things that she's leaning too much on you.It doesn't matter the hardship that you'll face cause these difficulties you face in life will only make you a better and wiser lady altogether.Isn't that a good thing?
At times, grey clouds crawl above our heads and we feel like hanging our heads and talking to the ground.But you have friends like me (: Always ready to pick you up again.And if it was still 3am in the morning, you can still call me cause i would love to talk when i am having difficulty sleeping myself.I'm sure you know what's with the hardness of sleeping when people are inconsiderate about me going to bed *winks*And i'm sure you're smiling now and reading this, we still have so much to talk about and yeah!Damn that sexy back guy!(: I love you lady *MUACKS*
Aishah
What you said in the bus really got me thinking!I see people believing that they are not going to make it.Do not think that i always feel like i'm going to do so well for my paper.I always always doubt my capabilities and each time i make a comeback, i am proud of myself.I hope you find something about yourself that you can be proud of.I know i'm behind you no matter the distance.It's not a matter of how smart one is, nobody is born stupid,nobody is born dumb.We create ourselves and you are who you are.You know what my O levels was but that didnt damper my spirits.I'm sure you can do it with the amount of effort you put in.I love you adik!
Geetha
So much has happened to you and to me in a way.I was affected too but you were affected more.Such strength you found in handling sucha matter.I just have to think that you never gave in and yes, she is at fault.How could she do that to you and to us?But nonetheless,i not kerek okay.Top 10% now doesn't really mean that much but i'm aiming high and so should you (: Remember our goals and i want you on top with me (: Love you girl !!
Shiqin, Siti and Huda
I have not forgotten you as well.Make the most of the days left (: SHINE ON!
Jacky: Not one of my girls but the boy :p Don't give up yet okay?
What it's like to be me?
I'm clueless.
Don't look at me yet.
I'm still growing.
I'm still learning.
But i know that...
I want to be just like you.
riyah starr@ 4:13 pm
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Went out yesterday to celebrate both Fifi's&Dhaz's birthdays.Cute how their birthdays fall on the same day.Woke up pretty late after seeing that the whole family was sleeping (: Anyhoos, watched Stay Alive!!Truthfully, i enjoyed that so much.Besides the gorgeous lead actor the story was pretty much amazing.I was shaking from the uncertainties of the movie.Yeah,great movie! (:
Break fast at Swensen's (: Actually it was pretty much a lonely night for me.Not that i didn't enjoy it,i was just lonely.
Break fast at Swensen's (: Actually it was pretty much a lonely night for me.Not that i didn't enjoy it,i was just lonely.
riyah starr@ 11:20 am