dear mummy&daddy,
it saddens me to hear about grandfather.the state he is in right now makes me recall what he was once to me.as a young girl, i always regarded him as my hero.sometimes, i still think of him as a hero.for he was the man, who brought you up daddy.for he was the man, who gave you everything as well as unfairness.sometimes,i dont wish to think that i know him.because he sets you aside daddy and look to you only as a rebel.because he favours all your other siblings and the other grandchildren, and leave us all to think we are different from them all.and i know we are not.
i cannot promise you that i will keep my word to visit him anytime soon.because both of you look to me with hopes that i might put the past behind me.both of you wish for me to see him before its too late.i wish that i can be strong.i am learning.i am getting stronger by the day.but i have not forgotten what has happened to us.how we suffered.how we cried.how we feared, the same man who i respected and looked up to.i can only pray that one day[hopefully soon], ill let you know firmly and honestly, that im going to visit him.but that is only if the both of you are there beside me.in my mind, i envision the sadness in his eyes.i wonder if he regrets treating us like this?i wonder if he regrets.
and deep inside, i know i want to forget what was in the past.i do.i will try mummy&daddy so that i shall see him again before it all ends.i cannot imagine still the cruelty that my flesh and blood have put him in.i promise to be strong.that i shall keep my word.i love you both.and i shall never want to imagine you in the state that grandfather is in now.I LOVE YOU SO (:
with love,
riyah
that was just my thougts!i sincerely will keep to that promise (: i have bought my shoes (: yeapies!!!thanks much aishah,huda and mark for accompanying me to buy my shoes.aishah made me sound like a KPO just now cause i wanted to buy the shoes when huda initiated it.or am i wrong?maaf ye i nie STM jugak.ermm,so i bought the shoes (: what more can i say?-hahahahaha-
tomorrow, we all will be receiving our malay results.im truly scared though i try to act like there is nothing wrong with me.-hehehehe-and im even more frustrated and more disaapointed with myself.failed yet another GP timed assignment.sometimes, i wonder what the hell happened to me.and whats the point exactly being good in my A levels subjects while my GP stinks to the core.?i really really really hope that my GP will improve with time.please please!!
im still thinking of you.
thinking of you.
to the time that will never be.
it saddens me to hear about grandfather.the state he is in right now makes me recall what he was once to me.as a young girl, i always regarded him as my hero.sometimes, i still think of him as a hero.for he was the man, who brought you up daddy.for he was the man, who gave you everything as well as unfairness.sometimes,i dont wish to think that i know him.because he sets you aside daddy and look to you only as a rebel.because he favours all your other siblings and the other grandchildren, and leave us all to think we are different from them all.and i know we are not.
i cannot promise you that i will keep my word to visit him anytime soon.because both of you look to me with hopes that i might put the past behind me.both of you wish for me to see him before its too late.i wish that i can be strong.i am learning.i am getting stronger by the day.but i have not forgotten what has happened to us.how we suffered.how we cried.how we feared, the same man who i respected and looked up to.i can only pray that one day[hopefully soon], ill let you know firmly and honestly, that im going to visit him.but that is only if the both of you are there beside me.in my mind, i envision the sadness in his eyes.i wonder if he regrets treating us like this?i wonder if he regrets.
and deep inside, i know i want to forget what was in the past.i do.i will try mummy&daddy so that i shall see him again before it all ends.i cannot imagine still the cruelty that my flesh and blood have put him in.i promise to be strong.that i shall keep my word.i love you both.and i shall never want to imagine you in the state that grandfather is in now.I LOVE YOU SO (:
with love,
riyah
that was just my thougts!i sincerely will keep to that promise (: i have bought my shoes (: yeapies!!!thanks much aishah,huda and mark for accompanying me to buy my shoes.aishah made me sound like a KPO just now cause i wanted to buy the shoes when huda initiated it.or am i wrong?maaf ye i nie STM jugak.ermm,so i bought the shoes (: what more can i say?-hahahahaha-
tomorrow, we all will be receiving our malay results.im truly scared though i try to act like there is nothing wrong with me.-hehehehe-and im even more frustrated and more disaapointed with myself.failed yet another GP timed assignment.sometimes, i wonder what the hell happened to me.and whats the point exactly being good in my A levels subjects while my GP stinks to the core.?i really really really hope that my GP will improve with time.please please!!
im still thinking of you.
thinking of you.
to the time that will never be.
riyah starr@ 6:33 pm
Sunday, February 26, 2006
my peaceful mind left undisturbed.
how i love the peace i gave myself?
i cant judge whether my weekend was fruitful.but i did some sorting of my thoughts.i guess i always have to sort out my thoughts.well, its always for the betterment of mankind.i lost my temper yesterday at my mummy.every single little thing she said i would just lose my temper and say something hurtful.but i made it up to her this morning before she left with my dad for my uncle's house.at least, i managed to study human geography.i had fear in myself yesterday so i thought "why not study?"i thought i has wanted to read up on management but when i opened up my notes, once again my mind switched off.-hahahaha-
im suffering from all kinds of aches.my pinggang hurts damn one kind.the pain almost like it seems like my period is here but it isnt.and my tummy is bloated.yes, sya!its still bloated.and i have fear for tomorrow's PE.sighs-dammit!have to do NAPFA with the normal people.but nonetheless, ill do my very best to move forward towards positivity (:
i know now that honesty is important.
open up my heart, you'll see what i mean.
how i love the peace i gave myself?
i cant judge whether my weekend was fruitful.but i did some sorting of my thoughts.i guess i always have to sort out my thoughts.well, its always for the betterment of mankind.i lost my temper yesterday at my mummy.every single little thing she said i would just lose my temper and say something hurtful.but i made it up to her this morning before she left with my dad for my uncle's house.at least, i managed to study human geography.i had fear in myself yesterday so i thought "why not study?"i thought i has wanted to read up on management but when i opened up my notes, once again my mind switched off.-hahahaha-
im suffering from all kinds of aches.my pinggang hurts damn one kind.the pain almost like it seems like my period is here but it isnt.and my tummy is bloated.yes, sya!its still bloated.and i have fear for tomorrow's PE.sighs-dammit!have to do NAPFA with the normal people.but nonetheless, ill do my very best to move forward towards positivity (:
i know now that honesty is important.
open up my heart, you'll see what i mean.
riyah starr@ 5:33 pm
Friday, February 24, 2006
sometimes, i wish i am completely alone.away from the crowds.away from the noise.away from the disturbance.away from me and away from you.
and sometimes,i wish i am surrounded by people.to keep me smiling.to make me better.to heal my pain.to me happiness is me and happiness is you.
sometimes,i wish that my tears dont dry.so i can cry a river.so my eyes will swell.
but sometimes,i wish i didnt know you and i wish i didnt know me.
isit all worth it?
i guess my weekend started on the right note.today was extremely all over the place.there were times when i felt like crying under immense pressure and other times where i am happy and really mad.im sorry siti&aishah for losing my temper half the time in the noon.sincerely my apologies.and today shiqin made me the happiest girl.at least i am happy around her (: and nani, dont think too much.dont be afraid to approach me.as cold as i can be, my heart aint that mean (: sayang you.
faezah made a very suprising comment to me today.its more of a compliment, i guess.we were sitting through the history seminar when she disturbed me.she touched my pony tail thinking that i didnt see her.but i caught her red-handed!then she commented how she likes my hair for the curls and the bounce.-laughs-then she made a comment about me during the NTU thingy.i shall not say it her cause i very malu.but just know that it was a compliment (: thanks faezah!no girl has said such sincere compliment.
i went to have lunch+dinner with geetha and azlin after the seminar.azlin has such great personality.looks very quiet but actually she makes me laugh a couple of times. (: and geetha thinks i was happy.of course im happy dear (: more dates coming up and yo still owe me one date hor?
sya-mine still have not come yet.i also dont know what happened dhey.but really hope it would come real soon la. (: muahs-
anyways, yesterday malay lesson got to sit with zanura (: at least for the first time since the past weeks, she wasnt doing any work (: -hahahah-ermm,and thanks for telling me about it aight.ill be here if you need me -muahs sayang-
im praying that my weekend would be a fruitful one.my mum has asked my dad and he agreed on buying me my one and only pair of sneakers.i caught my dad in the right mood.whee~and i have to thank huda for agreeing to accompanying me to buy it real soon.thank you darlingg!and yes,i was shocked at your reaction just now.im still single!!
isnt it weird how you want to move on but something's holding you back?i wish i had answers to my doubts.
and sometimes,i wish i am surrounded by people.to keep me smiling.to make me better.to heal my pain.to me happiness is me and happiness is you.
sometimes,i wish that my tears dont dry.so i can cry a river.so my eyes will swell.
but sometimes,i wish i didnt know you and i wish i didnt know me.
isit all worth it?
i guess my weekend started on the right note.today was extremely all over the place.there were times when i felt like crying under immense pressure and other times where i am happy and really mad.im sorry siti&aishah for losing my temper half the time in the noon.sincerely my apologies.and today shiqin made me the happiest girl.at least i am happy around her (: and nani, dont think too much.dont be afraid to approach me.as cold as i can be, my heart aint that mean (: sayang you.
faezah made a very suprising comment to me today.its more of a compliment, i guess.we were sitting through the history seminar when she disturbed me.she touched my pony tail thinking that i didnt see her.but i caught her red-handed!then she commented how she likes my hair for the curls and the bounce.-laughs-then she made a comment about me during the NTU thingy.i shall not say it her cause i very malu.but just know that it was a compliment (: thanks faezah!no girl has said such sincere compliment.
i went to have lunch+dinner with geetha and azlin after the seminar.azlin has such great personality.looks very quiet but actually she makes me laugh a couple of times. (: and geetha thinks i was happy.of course im happy dear (: more dates coming up and yo still owe me one date hor?
sya-mine still have not come yet.i also dont know what happened dhey.but really hope it would come real soon la. (: muahs-
anyways, yesterday malay lesson got to sit with zanura (: at least for the first time since the past weeks, she wasnt doing any work (: -hahahah-ermm,and thanks for telling me about it aight.ill be here if you need me -muahs sayang-
im praying that my weekend would be a fruitful one.my mum has asked my dad and he agreed on buying me my one and only pair of sneakers.i caught my dad in the right mood.whee~and i have to thank huda for agreeing to accompanying me to buy it real soon.thank you darlingg!and yes,i was shocked at your reaction just now.im still single!!
isnt it weird how you want to move on but something's holding you back?i wish i had answers to my doubts.
riyah starr@ 9:55 pm
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
yesterday ended pretty well!at least, i came home to find good things awaiting me (: good things online.-laughs-im sure my dearest girls know what im talking about.and aishah reacted rather excitedly when i was telling her the story.and i was imagining how siti was reacting when i messaged her.its just me and my SMILE now darlings (:
so many teachers wont be in school tomorrow for lessons.so im prolly gonna slack quite abit and hopefully get to finish up the work that they gave us.
its nice knowing that hafiz seems happy when he sees me.and its even nicer to see him early in the morning and him smiling away at me.at least, it starts the day right aight??
retreat is coming up real soon!as much as im excited,i have my doubts (: but im taking this away from stress at home and in school.i dont wish take with me what i hear at home and how heart-breaking it is.its within my reach and when my mummy needs me,ill be there for her.thats all i can give right now!when i find the means to help out the family,i promise i will mummy (: thats a promise i have told you so many times.ill keep that promise to ease your burden.
and im set on this journey in life where my decisions leads to confusion.i would rather sacrifice myself for the happiness of others.and im not really good at making good my decisions.i dont really know what else to do.there are many probabilities.man!i really really need to talk to shiqin :(
so many teachers wont be in school tomorrow for lessons.so im prolly gonna slack quite abit and hopefully get to finish up the work that they gave us.
its nice knowing that hafiz seems happy when he sees me.and its even nicer to see him early in the morning and him smiling away at me.at least, it starts the day right aight??
retreat is coming up real soon!as much as im excited,i have my doubts (: but im taking this away from stress at home and in school.i dont wish take with me what i hear at home and how heart-breaking it is.its within my reach and when my mummy needs me,ill be there for her.thats all i can give right now!when i find the means to help out the family,i promise i will mummy (: thats a promise i have told you so many times.ill keep that promise to ease your burden.
and im set on this journey in life where my decisions leads to confusion.i would rather sacrifice myself for the happiness of others.and im not really good at making good my decisions.i dont really know what else to do.there are many probabilities.man!i really really need to talk to shiqin :(
riyah starr@ 8:39 pm
Monday, February 20, 2006
such a rough time.but i must constantly remind myself that i have been thru hell and back before.when i think back on today, i think it seems rather silly but emotions i cant control.thats my weakness!
so what was i up to today!?!a litlle bit of rollecoaster ride definitely.early morning already and i felt like shit.so i guess i took out part of my frustrations out during PE.running was alright, i supposed.feeling more and more determined to prove to myself how capable i can be sometimes.i do wish to learn to breathe properly so that i can consistently run my 8 runs without difficulty.sighs.
i came back from PE and talked to my siti baby straight away.i had wanted to talk to someone real bad.and i know she knows the situation best.thanks baby! (: as for the rest of the day, dont mention it!i'm cold.i'm unfriendly.i tried.oh well.
siti baby-you were there when i needed to talk to you on the way to PE.see how alike we can be right!?!and i know you feel scared and sad for me over the situation but i promise you, that if it really came true as i have mentioned,i will move on just fine (: i promise.thank you for being the first to catch me when i fell during break.i really couldnt take the pressure of facing reality sometimes and had to cry myself out.your assurance shall make me much more stronger than i am right now.thank you baby! (: and lets say i were to fall even harder the next time round, pick me up k?muahs-
shiqin sayang-your patience have given me much comfort today!i have been difficult to talk to for my mood swings like so quick.and yes, i did mention how i wished that life is a breeze! (: and you assured me too that i was normal.thanks for making the freaking bulu joke with siti (: damn funny!
aishah dearie-adik!its nice to see you smiling away after the pain on your tummy.and yes, i know you are inexperienced with the whole relationship thingy.but thanks for giving me your ears when i needed it the most yip (:
huda darling-you brighten up my day!you make me happy just knowing that you are willing to crap with me.thank you for supporting me throughout though i dont know where it would lead me now.but i know i still have you and my dearest captain planets.
geetha sweetie- your message made me smile (: you care for me!!-muahs- baby.
my darlings:no matter how many thank yous i say to you.i dont know whether you realise that i am sincere about it.you have brought me back up on my feet and made me smile again.painful as it gets through all my roughest journey, you have been there to guide me through and through.thank you so much (: i love you!
i wrote this while i was in class today.sums up how i felt and the reason why i was feeling rather low:
it's a shame how our heart beats
But not for each other
I see you and you see me
As separate individuals.
It's a pity i couldn't bring myself
To let you know how i feel
I'll live my life with no regrets(hopefully)
I'll smile for you even if it breaks me inside.
p.s: you have been such a wonderful friend to me.i hope you are alright and dont be so sad.just remember that making people happy makes you happy and its the same for me [like i mentioned before].and when you need someone to talk to, im a phone call away (:
so what was i up to today!?!a litlle bit of rollecoaster ride definitely.early morning already and i felt like shit.so i guess i took out part of my frustrations out during PE.running was alright, i supposed.feeling more and more determined to prove to myself how capable i can be sometimes.i do wish to learn to breathe properly so that i can consistently run my 8 runs without difficulty.sighs.
i came back from PE and talked to my siti baby straight away.i had wanted to talk to someone real bad.and i know she knows the situation best.thanks baby! (: as for the rest of the day, dont mention it!i'm cold.i'm unfriendly.i tried.oh well.
siti baby-you were there when i needed to talk to you on the way to PE.see how alike we can be right!?!and i know you feel scared and sad for me over the situation but i promise you, that if it really came true as i have mentioned,i will move on just fine (: i promise.thank you for being the first to catch me when i fell during break.i really couldnt take the pressure of facing reality sometimes and had to cry myself out.your assurance shall make me much more stronger than i am right now.thank you baby! (: and lets say i were to fall even harder the next time round, pick me up k?muahs-
shiqin sayang-your patience have given me much comfort today!i have been difficult to talk to for my mood swings like so quick.and yes, i did mention how i wished that life is a breeze! (: and you assured me too that i was normal.thanks for making the freaking bulu joke with siti (: damn funny!
aishah dearie-adik!its nice to see you smiling away after the pain on your tummy.and yes, i know you are inexperienced with the whole relationship thingy.but thanks for giving me your ears when i needed it the most yip (:
huda darling-you brighten up my day!you make me happy just knowing that you are willing to crap with me.thank you for supporting me throughout though i dont know where it would lead me now.but i know i still have you and my dearest captain planets.
geetha sweetie- your message made me smile (: you care for me!!-muahs- baby.
my darlings:no matter how many thank yous i say to you.i dont know whether you realise that i am sincere about it.you have brought me back up on my feet and made me smile again.painful as it gets through all my roughest journey, you have been there to guide me through and through.thank you so much (: i love you!
i wrote this while i was in class today.sums up how i felt and the reason why i was feeling rather low:
it's a shame how our heart beats
But not for each other
I see you and you see me
As separate individuals.
It's a pity i couldn't bring myself
To let you know how i feel
I'll live my life with no regrets(hopefully)
I'll smile for you even if it breaks me inside.
p.s: you have been such a wonderful friend to me.i hope you are alright and dont be so sad.just remember that making people happy makes you happy and its the same for me [like i mentioned before].and when you need someone to talk to, im a phone call away (:
riyah starr@ 6:14 pm
Sunday, February 19, 2006
what a weekend!paranoid paranoid!i dont even know how to get rid of this thing called paranoid.but i will though it seems to just appear suddenly (:
friday was actually huda's advanced birthday suprise party.i guess she was expecting it, thanks to the horrible acting of siti and mark (: we enjoyed it though.the balloons, the cake, the hugs.i guess we gotta thank the mastermind, mark, for everything that he has done for that day. (:
i went out with wonder woman yesterday.we caught Casanova.it's sucha romantic flick.the woman inspires me!!but i dont really know whether love exists.?!?but nonetheless, i especially liked this line when the woman said "i will love him alone and FOREVER."it does so darn romantic when she said it in the flick.whee~
today, we went to that hotel for the NTU talks on the various courses.not so bad i guess.i wasnt totally in a good mood today.havent been for the past few days.finally, gave huda's present to her today.she loved it!i loved it too!!
my darlings made me smile today.turned my horrible frowns into smiles.!backed me up when i was super low (: i cannot resist their wonderful time (:
i will be fine.take my hand&lead the way.
p.s: you blew my insecurities.thank you!
friday was actually huda's advanced birthday suprise party.i guess she was expecting it, thanks to the horrible acting of siti and mark (: we enjoyed it though.the balloons, the cake, the hugs.i guess we gotta thank the mastermind, mark, for everything that he has done for that day. (:
i went out with wonder woman yesterday.we caught Casanova.it's sucha romantic flick.the woman inspires me!!but i dont really know whether love exists.?!?but nonetheless, i especially liked this line when the woman said "i will love him alone and FOREVER."it does so darn romantic when she said it in the flick.whee~
today, we went to that hotel for the NTU talks on the various courses.not so bad i guess.i wasnt totally in a good mood today.havent been for the past few days.finally, gave huda's present to her today.she loved it!i loved it too!!
my darlings made me smile today.turned my horrible frowns into smiles.!backed me up when i was super low (: i cannot resist their wonderful time (:
i will be fine.take my hand&lead the way.
p.s: you blew my insecurities.thank you!
riyah starr@ 8:27 pm
Friday, February 17, 2006
i am DISAPPOINTED with myself.i really am.
riyah starr@ 9:31 pm
i keep on wondering if i have done enough for you girls.sometimes,i feel like i mistreat you.but inside, i care so much that it hurts me to see any of you not smiling.if i have not done enough,please let me know.im willing to change for the benefits of you.i treasure you so much, do know that (:
hafiz had swimming lesson yesterday and its funny how he describes the experience to me.only the first lesson for him and yet he forgot to bring back his towel.im suprised he didnt forget to take back his trunks.he was irritated with me today.for no apparent reason, he wasnt happy that i ate my aunt's ice-cream [which she gave me].then he just didnt wanna talk to me :(
i learnt that hafiza has learnt to take her own form of transportation.im PROUD of her.almost felt like crying knowing that after 13 years she can be more independent.i just am proud of her, thats all.
i hope nurul would be a lil bit hardworking this year.i wish to guide her way thru for PSLE but its tough for me to even teach her dreaming days.-sighs-
im looking forward to tomorrow :)
hafiz had swimming lesson yesterday and its funny how he describes the experience to me.only the first lesson for him and yet he forgot to bring back his towel.im suprised he didnt forget to take back his trunks.he was irritated with me today.for no apparent reason, he wasnt happy that i ate my aunt's ice-cream [which she gave me].then he just didnt wanna talk to me :(
i learnt that hafiza has learnt to take her own form of transportation.im PROUD of her.almost felt like crying knowing that after 13 years she can be more independent.i just am proud of her, thats all.
i hope nurul would be a lil bit hardworking this year.i wish to guide her way thru for PSLE but its tough for me to even teach her dreaming days.-sighs-
im looking forward to tomorrow :)
riyah starr@ 8:19 pm
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
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-a creation by her- (:
-the effects of the lights made this glow-
-just my sister&me-i'm proud of 04A1 despite coming in 2nd runner up for project runway!a job well done dancers, designer and model (:
i had gastric pain last night and i was pretty stubborn, not wanting to eat when nasi briyani finished already (: my tummy is much better today and hope it'll be even better tomorrow.these days mu tummy is bloated.bad sign! ):
daddy had to work night shift again tonight.he came back in the morning then had to go back again.and he is sick!everybody falls sick i know.but i dont like it when my daddy falls sick.as much as i have problems with him, i still love him all the same.let's just hope that he knows.
i cant wait for the weekends (: i really cant. a date with wonder woman.not truly a date, im straight but its still a date (: weekends, going out with my dolls (:
riyah starr@ 5:28 pm
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
what a lovely day!body aches i may suffer but it didnt stop me from smiling most of my day through.sucha wonderful way to start the day today.arrived in school to be greeted by lovers who are in love.i received some nice thoughts and small lil prezzies (: thanks people.here's what i got today:
nani-a plastic bag by pop hop with chocolates and sweets.thanks much baby (:
tho-a wrapped packet of three cookies inside.i like the cookies as much as you (:
hugh- a packet of chocolates and sweets. i think (:
rozita-one mentos (:
azlin- a packet of goodies (:
miss low- a sweet lil note and a peppermint chocolate (:
aishah&siti- good loving huggies (: i love you (:
zash-an adorable bookmark (: so bear, so ME.-muahs-
thank you so much people for bringing in chocolates and sweets and other relevant stuff for me (: it made my day even more (:
nani-a plastic bag by pop hop with chocolates and sweets.thanks much baby (:
tho-a wrapped packet of three cookies inside.i like the cookies as much as you (:
hugh- a packet of chocolates and sweets. i think (:
rozita-one mentos (:
azlin- a packet of goodies (:
miss low- a sweet lil note and a peppermint chocolate (:
aishah&siti- good loving huggies (: i love you (:
zash-an adorable bookmark (: so bear, so ME.-muahs-
thank you so much people for bringing in chocolates and sweets and other relevant stuff for me (: it made my day even more (:
riyah starr@ 6:53 pm
Monday, February 13, 2006
im neither here nor there.im still slacking behind somehow in my lessons.its either im too tired to listen or i try too hard till nothing gets into my head.but im still hoping that i can find more time for everything thats going on around me.for the first time this year, i slept in management lesson.i was already suffering from my migraine [which has not happen for a week] so i placed my head on the table just to find myself sleeping away.i worked hard for PE.at least i think i tried my best.but i had problems breathing properly.from the beginning when i start running, i was gasping for air.did 2.4km run just now.timing not that satisfying but working towards my goals.my sister was teasing me about being slow just cause her timing was way better than mine.ill kill you,dee! (:
aishah was telling me how quiet nani,shiqin and i were today.it cant be helped.i think today was our rest day though we managed to quarrel a little bit.especially in human geog lesson.i dont know what problem nani and huda had with me and shiqin.but it just so happens that jacky too was picking on me.and mark said i sounded like a sheep.-sighs-hahahaha.
i havent been able to talk to keong so far.everytime we talk it just seems like still got so many things to talk like that.but never mind la,soon we will finish up talking aight! (:
i have been dying to catch so many movies these days.
1. casanova [prolly catch with nani (:]
2. walk the line [a date with my darlings]
3. north country
4. fun with dick&jane
5. the pink panther
if anyone is interested to watch the movies with me, just let me know aight (: whee~
anyways,my mummy was being so pampered today (: i love my mother so much (:
aishah was telling me how quiet nani,shiqin and i were today.it cant be helped.i think today was our rest day though we managed to quarrel a little bit.especially in human geog lesson.i dont know what problem nani and huda had with me and shiqin.but it just so happens that jacky too was picking on me.and mark said i sounded like a sheep.-sighs-hahahaha.
i havent been able to talk to keong so far.everytime we talk it just seems like still got so many things to talk like that.but never mind la,soon we will finish up talking aight! (:
i have been dying to catch so many movies these days.
1. casanova [prolly catch with nani (:]
2. walk the line [a date with my darlings]
3. north country
4. fun with dick&jane
5. the pink panther
if anyone is interested to watch the movies with me, just let me know aight (: whee~
anyways,my mummy was being so pampered today (: i love my mother so much (:
riyah starr@ 6:09 pm
Sunday, February 12, 2006
the weekends were wonderful.i couldnt ask for a better one (: saturday!despite having to go to school, i enjoyed it.the principal talk was inspiring.the floorball was wonderful.and the food was delicious.no regrets.after which huda and i went to causeway point to meet up with aishah and siti for geography stuff (: seeing my girls again makes me happy than before.so we only went off from causeway at around 7pm.i didnt know what we were doing the whole time (:
sunday!went with wonder woman to have breakfast at jurong east.funnyness!talk&laugh&talk&laugh.thats why i say we'd prolly suffer from laughing disease soon.then we went to the library while waiting for shiqin.after that discussed the things about jetties and gabions.we were very productive cause it took us just a while to complete our work (: cheers people!we went to IMM since we had nothing better to do.i met up with my mummy, ,my aunt and my grandma at causeway [again] for some things that my mummy wanted to do.it was so damn tiring since i was out the whole day yesterday and the whole day today.but its okay (: i enjoyed myself with my family and my friends over the course of the weekend (: i have not come across such meaningful weekends since the year starts.im such there's more to come (:
another day at school tomorrow.another reason to be happy!keep smiling peeps (:
sunday!went with wonder woman to have breakfast at jurong east.funnyness!talk&laugh&talk&laugh.thats why i say we'd prolly suffer from laughing disease soon.then we went to the library while waiting for shiqin.after that discussed the things about jetties and gabions.we were very productive cause it took us just a while to complete our work (: cheers people!we went to IMM since we had nothing better to do.i met up with my mummy, ,my aunt and my grandma at causeway [again] for some things that my mummy wanted to do.it was so damn tiring since i was out the whole day yesterday and the whole day today.but its okay (: i enjoyed myself with my family and my friends over the course of the weekend (: i have not come across such meaningful weekends since the year starts.im such there's more to come (:
another day at school tomorrow.another reason to be happy!keep smiling peeps (:
riyah starr@ 7:23 pm
Friday, February 10, 2006
mummy cooked such spicy food today.it burns my tongue.but i love love love mummy's wonderful food.no wonder i cant resist her cooking (: mummy treats me so well these days i feel like thanking her ten times more-laughs-
i seem more blur and forgetful these days.but im more myself.aishah said a funny thing yesterday.i was mentioning how happy i was after buying bread cause i was happy just being able to be around my friends.she said i was happy cause i am happy to see her everyday.i know i know!!im happy to see you aishah and siti and huda and nani and geetha and shiqin.how can life be so meaningless with you bunchies around right!?!tell me im crazy but i have never come across such bunchies (:
wonder woman- i think the 'ahem' syndrome will fade away rather soon.i think PMS ah then 'ahem' thoughts all come out.and we will have our outing soon after things settle down a little bit more.and you are still treating me to casanova kan?!?yeapies~if acoording to heart, you're the best!-laughs-and yes, luckily im not the maki-ing kinda girl ah.if not,id prolly put so many * here in my blog to express my little anger at you.still dare irritate me anot..?but you know i love you right woman!? (:
water- i miss talking to you, i do.cause the rare occasions that we get to send texts to each other.then in school also like very difficult to communicate (: we'll trash everything out okay!?!im glad you asked after me about the incident.it made me feel so much better.and yes, we are both positively attention seeker in a good way.i wonder how wind tolerate with the both of us sometimes (: -laughs-and i sayang sekali dengan you ye -winks-
i seem more blur and forgetful these days.but im more myself.aishah said a funny thing yesterday.i was mentioning how happy i was after buying bread cause i was happy just being able to be around my friends.she said i was happy cause i am happy to see her everyday.i know i know!!im happy to see you aishah and siti and huda and nani and geetha and shiqin.how can life be so meaningless with you bunchies around right!?!tell me im crazy but i have never come across such bunchies (:
wonder woman- i think the 'ahem' syndrome will fade away rather soon.i think PMS ah then 'ahem' thoughts all come out.and we will have our outing soon after things settle down a little bit more.and you are still treating me to casanova kan?!?yeapies~if acoording to heart, you're the best!-laughs-and yes, luckily im not the maki-ing kinda girl ah.if not,id prolly put so many * here in my blog to express my little anger at you.still dare irritate me anot..?but you know i love you right woman!? (:
water- i miss talking to you, i do.cause the rare occasions that we get to send texts to each other.then in school also like very difficult to communicate (: we'll trash everything out okay!?!im glad you asked after me about the incident.it made me feel so much better.and yes, we are both positively attention seeker in a good way.i wonder how wind tolerate with the both of us sometimes (: -laughs-and i sayang sekali dengan you ye -winks-
riyah starr@ 3:10 pm
Thursday, February 09, 2006
i have searched quite a bit but to no avail.i shall continue to persevere on.im sure my wonder woman would know what im talking about.its been 2 days baby of searching :) not giving in yet yup (: but on the good side i did run into khairul anuar's.so it came out good in the end aight (:
school has been so great these days i have not much complains to say.maybe too much laughing gas withinh myself that i can go on and on just laughing.nani and shiqin the craziest bunch that made me laugh till i cried.and just so happen today me and nani were extra 'ahem' and laughed even more.im sure shiqin couldnt stand our 'ahem' talks and thoughts.-laughs-but seriously, i think whatever we talked about seems to fall into that 'ahem' category so it cannot really be helped.honest!but its okay we are equally happy people today what with fiona and miz.funnyness (:
valentine's day is coming!not that im so looking forward to it.never looked forward to it.but i do look forward to just spending time with my friends.i guess the real miz is right.who the hell sets aside a day for valentine's day just for people to feel like sh#t!?!when i think about it again, everyday can be valentine's day aight (:
aside that, huda will be turning 20 soon.she is so not looking forward to that man.i know how she feels.and thank you darlingg for the very sound advice you gave me.i shall pluck up my courage to send him a message soon.i have straighten up my thoughts over the past days.its best that i have been good to myself. (:
my sister and my mother were really sweet today!!i was acting all childish and babyish when i got home.i was throwing a baby tantrum and they attended to my needs.im so happy (: they still love me. (:
school has been so great these days i have not much complains to say.maybe too much laughing gas withinh myself that i can go on and on just laughing.nani and shiqin the craziest bunch that made me laugh till i cried.and just so happen today me and nani were extra 'ahem' and laughed even more.im sure shiqin couldnt stand our 'ahem' talks and thoughts.-laughs-but seriously, i think whatever we talked about seems to fall into that 'ahem' category so it cannot really be helped.honest!but its okay we are equally happy people today what with fiona and miz.funnyness (:
valentine's day is coming!not that im so looking forward to it.never looked forward to it.but i do look forward to just spending time with my friends.i guess the real miz is right.who the hell sets aside a day for valentine's day just for people to feel like sh#t!?!when i think about it again, everyday can be valentine's day aight (:
aside that, huda will be turning 20 soon.she is so not looking forward to that man.i know how she feels.and thank you darlingg for the very sound advice you gave me.i shall pluck up my courage to send him a message soon.i have straighten up my thoughts over the past days.its best that i have been good to myself. (:
my sister and my mother were really sweet today!!i was acting all childish and babyish when i got home.i was throwing a baby tantrum and they attended to my needs.im so happy (: they still love me. (:
riyah starr@ 8:19 pm
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
i so miss chatting away with syirah.she always always seem to have some things cropping up when im chatting with her.especially her computer.if i can curse for her computer, i would la.but chatting with her makes me smiles :) more chats soon!!and she left me twice in the span of thirty minutes.-sighs-
im reading straits times while trying to blog in this entry.its not really a good idea cause i get distracted with the blog rather than focussing on the paper.-laughs-anyways,school was fun!cause tuesdays lessons are a bore.management,economics and GP.of course nothing much.but mr fung called me twince in class today.such nerve wrecking moments!!i hate it when gp gets more tension.but the sencond time he called me must blame nani a little bit.she started laughing away with shiqin then i was involved in the laughter.mr fung said the three of us were on a high!-laughs-a high from what?!?
i saw mindy today.the same bus stop.the same bus.i saw the miz.ill miss seeing them in school.but its okay.
p.s the miz rocks!
im reading straits times while trying to blog in this entry.its not really a good idea cause i get distracted with the blog rather than focussing on the paper.-laughs-anyways,school was fun!cause tuesdays lessons are a bore.management,economics and GP.of course nothing much.but mr fung called me twince in class today.such nerve wrecking moments!!i hate it when gp gets more tension.but the sencond time he called me must blame nani a little bit.she started laughing away with shiqin then i was involved in the laughter.mr fung said the three of us were on a high!-laughs-a high from what?!?
i saw mindy today.the same bus stop.the same bus.i saw the miz.ill miss seeing them in school.but its okay.
p.s the miz rocks!
riyah starr@ 6:27 pm
Monday, February 06, 2006
yet another day has come.its so fast and its like week 6 already of school.im slowly climbing back up on my slow painful process of revision.i gotta stay strong for me and for you little darlinggs of mine.remember we are all EQUAL.but seriously, im so lagging behind in management.sighs.i must put my focus back on track (:
school was alright!i loved ample company and laughter.today nani,shiqin and myself were laughing and chatting away in class.it started during human geog lesson.i guess we were tired and started laughing to stay awake.it works anyways so i guess its okay (: im rather sad that mrs ruby khoo will be leaving us real soon.i wont really want that to happen but i shall always wish her all the best for the future (:
i bought lights&sounds.im happy.too HAPPY for anything else!! (:
for my dearest mother,
its hard sometimes to tell you how i feel but i do leave you a note to tell you that i love you.i can never be the perfect daughter as i have told you.nonetheless, i shall work hard for this family.i will not disappoint you.and you're going thru so much right now.i know the tears you shed makes you stronger, like it did me.daddy can hurt you all he wants for he will regret what he has done.i know you have me mother.and i love you still for guiding me thru so many storms (: muahs.
school was alright!i loved ample company and laughter.today nani,shiqin and myself were laughing and chatting away in class.it started during human geog lesson.i guess we were tired and started laughing to stay awake.it works anyways so i guess its okay (: im rather sad that mrs ruby khoo will be leaving us real soon.i wont really want that to happen but i shall always wish her all the best for the future (:
i bought lights&sounds.im happy.too HAPPY for anything else!! (:
for my dearest mother,
its hard sometimes to tell you how i feel but i do leave you a note to tell you that i love you.i can never be the perfect daughter as i have told you.nonetheless, i shall work hard for this family.i will not disappoint you.and you're going thru so much right now.i know the tears you shed makes you stronger, like it did me.daddy can hurt you all he wants for he will regret what he has done.i know you have me mother.and i love you still for guiding me thru so many storms (: muahs.
riyah starr@ 6:14 pm
Saturday, February 04, 2006
my gums are hurting even worse now.i have difficulties eating and swallowing cause it hurt truly truly bad!!i have drank milk and loads of plain water so i hope ill get a teeny bit better soon :) im glad to announced that i have recovered from my fever.so i hope that i shall stay healthy till at least my a levels has finished.
my mum is taking advantage of the fact that im well again and she is complaining about me not doing the housework.so im just doing the laundry for the sake of it being done.and also me being very short fused these days,which might be pms [i dont know], i get super irritated at her.in fact i get irritated at the family.half the time, im alone with no watchful eyes and ill wish that they would give me attention.and when they are at home, they'll nag me around about being so untidy and lazy and yada yada yada.so which is better!?!
it was so fun talking to michelle yesterday in the den.poor sweetheart,she was sleepy and tired.its no wonder she was sleeping when i entered the den.thanks darlinnnnggg for listening to me :)
my mum is taking advantage of the fact that im well again and she is complaining about me not doing the housework.so im just doing the laundry for the sake of it being done.and also me being very short fused these days,which might be pms [i dont know], i get super irritated at her.in fact i get irritated at the family.half the time, im alone with no watchful eyes and ill wish that they would give me attention.and when they are at home, they'll nag me around about being so untidy and lazy and yada yada yada.so which is better!?!
it was so fun talking to michelle yesterday in the den.poor sweetheart,she was sleepy and tired.its no wonder she was sleeping when i entered the den.thanks darlinnnnggg for listening to me :)
riyah starr@ 10:39 am
Thursday, February 02, 2006
for the very first time,i never studied for my economics test.but to think of it, it was only MCQ.no biggie la.the paper was alright practically copy and paste from the TYS.so me having quite good memory, i actually recognised some questions and knew the answers.but i wont be suprised if i dont do well.i dont intend to anyways.
i still feel weak.sucha weakling.yet i did all i could to please myself.quite dumb but at the same time satisfying le.PE was refreshing since my sickness brought my fitness completely to the ground.but i still mangae to do all i can la.sya-i should keep to my promise and run with you side by side next time.i always go off without you.but im glad i got a crazy pal to jog with :D whee~
lessons could be a drag.we finished up the third coastal notes!i catch no ball for the last few pages.my brain slowed me down.-hahaha-but im pretty determined to catch up real real soon.anyways,this saturday sc outing cancelled and my study group disappeared, i shall just catch up on my own studying.i shall truly plan my timetable.-i must remind myself on that-
i still feel weak.sucha weakling.yet i did all i could to please myself.quite dumb but at the same time satisfying le.PE was refreshing since my sickness brought my fitness completely to the ground.but i still mangae to do all i can la.sya-i should keep to my promise and run with you side by side next time.i always go off without you.but im glad i got a crazy pal to jog with :D whee~
lessons could be a drag.we finished up the third coastal notes!i catch no ball for the last few pages.my brain slowed me down.-hahaha-but im pretty determined to catch up real real soon.anyways,this saturday sc outing cancelled and my study group disappeared, i shall just catch up on my own studying.i shall truly plan my timetable.-i must remind myself on that-
riyah starr@ 7:17 pm
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
someone who i still admire till now :p she makes me feel like i amHUMAN (:
today was a short day in school.i love wednesdays for its short days :) what a pity i didnt get to go back with my dearest friends.i hate going back on my own.but thank god,i left at the right time as ain.so i walked with her till bukit batok mrt station where we departed.she is such a darling.i think she is a shy person la :)really anot sya??
anyhoots,i had short concentration span today.in physical geog lesson, i was trying my best to focus on what mrs khoo was trying to say.and the worst bit was that she seems to always be looking in my direction.must be cause nani always answer the question maybe thats why she waiting for answer from wonder woman ;) but i did clarify with her some things that i didnt understand so yeah!im gonna have to present on GP research this friday.my group has number 4 missing.wonder what mr fung will say.but apparently, we dont have much reseach on that.
keong keong keong!sucha gentleman right?-pukes-first thing in the morning already ask me if i was better.awwww!!happy now i write something about you :) (: -laughs- and the description you read out during HT period was funny.no wonder manan seems so blur la.-laughs-
my darlingg hafiz is sick!!had bad tummy.he vomited in school so my darlingg mummy fetched him from school while i was on my way back.now he is resting.i think he should start to learn to eat more vegatables and fruits.see la all the good things for the health people dont wish to take.it goes for me as well la :) but he is going to have fever soon.he is prolly gonna take over me!!
before i forget:: this morning, i went to school with huda as normal.then apparently yao zhong walked with us when we arrived at bukit batok.he didnt seem to realise that i always exist la.so he was happily talking to huda.then he actually let huda enter the queue first before going in himself.-blanks-then he turned around and realise that i was there.wahlao!never mind that la.but then after a while, he asked me "eh, you got put on make up ah?" OMG! i was in so much shocked that i laughed at him.me?make-up to school??-NO NO-
anyhoots,i had short concentration span today.in physical geog lesson, i was trying my best to focus on what mrs khoo was trying to say.and the worst bit was that she seems to always be looking in my direction.must be cause nani always answer the question maybe thats why she waiting for answer from wonder woman ;) but i did clarify with her some things that i didnt understand so yeah!im gonna have to present on GP research this friday.my group has number 4 missing.wonder what mr fung will say.but apparently, we dont have much reseach on that.
keong keong keong!sucha gentleman right?-pukes-first thing in the morning already ask me if i was better.awwww!!happy now i write something about you :) (: -laughs- and the description you read out during HT period was funny.no wonder manan seems so blur la.-laughs-
my darlingg hafiz is sick!!had bad tummy.he vomited in school so my darlingg mummy fetched him from school while i was on my way back.now he is resting.i think he should start to learn to eat more vegatables and fruits.see la all the good things for the health people dont wish to take.it goes for me as well la :) but he is going to have fever soon.he is prolly gonna take over me!!
before i forget:: this morning, i went to school with huda as normal.then apparently yao zhong walked with us when we arrived at bukit batok.he didnt seem to realise that i always exist la.so he was happily talking to huda.then he actually let huda enter the queue first before going in himself.-blanks-then he turned around and realise that i was there.wahlao!never mind that la.but then after a while, he asked me "eh, you got put on make up ah?" OMG! i was in so much shocked that i laughed at him.me?make-up to school??-NO NO-
riyah starr@ 5:33 pm