Joanne complained that i don't blog enough.Well, each time i get to this very page beloved, my mind goes blank unless i have something really worth getting off my chest.But here i am, updating yet again and telling you what i'm feeling.
The past days were like a rollercoaster ride.Almost as if things were moving too fast for me.But i know that i have to learn to take things one thing at a time.I remembered working night shift on Monday and sacrificing my Tuesday morning to send my darling Mat to Clementi.I was truly very zombified with having to wake up really early.But thank goodness, his student care centre got sofa for me to sleep for an hour.
Valentine's day wasa bore.Truly people would think that we hang out alot on V-day.But i decided to do some catching up on my sleep.I told Nani that i was going to help my mother with the completion of the CNY orders.I managed to hehlp a tiny bit and the rest of the time i really slept.Just lay my head upon the pillow and i enter the blissful world of dreamless sleeps.And i knew how stressed my mother must truly have been.
On Thursday, i came to work with the heaviest heart i can ever imagine myself to carry.I nearly cried on my way to work.It was purely heartbreaking!!I swear i was helpless.I swear i had wanted to take the hurt away from you, mother.I swear i thought of you throughout my day at work.I wanted to tell just someone but i couldn't bring myself to tell anyone in particular because it was the hurt i wanted to feel for myself.I wanted to torture myself with the hurt you're feeling, mother.I wanted to tell Nani about it but then work consumed us like never before and i forgot what to feel.But Ashley and Michelle, i'm truly sorry i was super duper quiet.I had some really serious thoughts in my mind.I wanted to cry so you could stop crying.I hope you know that i love you.
And CNY is here.I'm going to have a great time working (:
The past days were like a rollercoaster ride.Almost as if things were moving too fast for me.But i know that i have to learn to take things one thing at a time.I remembered working night shift on Monday and sacrificing my Tuesday morning to send my darling Mat to Clementi.I was truly very zombified with having to wake up really early.But thank goodness, his student care centre got sofa for me to sleep for an hour.
Valentine's day wasa bore.Truly people would think that we hang out alot on V-day.But i decided to do some catching up on my sleep.I told Nani that i was going to help my mother with the completion of the CNY orders.I managed to hehlp a tiny bit and the rest of the time i really slept.Just lay my head upon the pillow and i enter the blissful world of dreamless sleeps.And i knew how stressed my mother must truly have been.
On Thursday, i came to work with the heaviest heart i can ever imagine myself to carry.I nearly cried on my way to work.It was purely heartbreaking!!I swear i was helpless.I swear i had wanted to take the hurt away from you, mother.I swear i thought of you throughout my day at work.I wanted to tell just someone but i couldn't bring myself to tell anyone in particular because it was the hurt i wanted to feel for myself.I wanted to torture myself with the hurt you're feeling, mother.I wanted to tell Nani about it but then work consumed us like never before and i forgot what to feel.But Ashley and Michelle, i'm truly sorry i was super duper quiet.I had some really serious thoughts in my mind.I wanted to cry so you could stop crying.I hope you know that i love you.
And CNY is here.I'm going to have a great time working (:
riyah starr@ 12:34 pm