When i try to understand what i'm going through,it gets harder to come to terms with the way things are.Sometimes i can barely accept the imperfections that i have.Isit so hard to be perfect?I guess it is now.When my heart aches everytime but all i can portray is this girl full of smiles.How long more can i lie to myself?How long more can i lie to people?

I'm sitting at this very screen, thinking about myself.I remember this time last year, i was going through some bad things.And the same time this year, i'm feeling the same way for no apparent cause.I feel so alone.I feel so abandoned.I wish there were buckets of tears to cry.I wish there was something i could do to make myself happy each day.And if there was a remedy for this kinda feeling, i'd be the first to get it.

I should stop crying before my chest hurts any further.No laughter right now can bring me to my feet so quickly.Just let me be.

riyah starr@ 7:47 pm