finally, this blog isn't PMSing on me.so you people can view this normally.im going round with the mood swings again.it's never nice to be like this.but i accept myself the way i am.i will just cry myself to sleep at nights so i can rid the pain that i inflict upon myself.not that i literally hurt myself.i dont think im that upset to do that kinda thing.i guess i understand myself better.sighs- what am i talking about?!?anyways,oh yes the mood swings.it always always come even more when i feel pressured by so many things.and now since it's the common test feeling,i feel rather small.

it didnt help actually that my darlingg friends are teasing me extra alot this week.it doesnt matter to me that im being teased.but somehow i took things a little too hard on myself till i pressurised myself even more.and all i yearn each day is to go home and sleep my way outta stress.but thank goodness,im having such a wonderful time sleeping (: and dreamless sleeps at that (:

something embarrassing happened today during mass GP lecture.we were all having a break.and siti was looking thru jacky's neoprints.so i was talking some things to jacky.and i wanted to ask jacky something else.and i called him by the wrong name.silly me!and the person i called was right beside him and i was so paiseh, that my fingers got cold.-muahaha-

i went back home with jiali today.it's sucha great time talking to her.cause it feels like eternity that i talked heart to heart with her.i've missed doing that! (:

on the way home while walking to the bus stop, i saw the guy in my dreams.so i smiled at him and was wondering why the hell he was smiling so wide.and he said "you bring good luck!"i thought what only.sekali bus dah datang rupernyer.muahaha-

siti-thank you yups.i seriously was burden just now when i messaged you.the tears were truly at the brim of my lids but you made me smile again.yes, i was smiling to myself in class and i think anyone might have thought i was crazy (: thanks much 'once' more time.i love siti!!-muahs-

illya- seeing you in the train definitely made me forget about my woes.i will find my path soon and lead on.afterall,you might just be my senior in university.i've missed you girl.i'll plan something for us k?love ya!

syirah-yes, i smiled at nelly not enough ah??and it's so stress free talking to you.i shall hire dinie as my photographer on my wedding day k?? (:

such weird moments.
i still feel it.
such wonderful pain.
i shall embrace it.

this crazy feeling i'd like to call my own.

riyah starr@ 5:12 pm