such a rough time.but i must constantly remind myself that i have been thru hell and back before.when i think back on today, i think it seems rather silly but emotions i cant control.thats my weakness!
so what was i up to today!?!a litlle bit of rollecoaster ride definitely.early morning already and i felt like shit.so i guess i took out part of my frustrations out during PE.running was alright, i supposed.feeling more and more determined to prove to myself how capable i can be sometimes.i do wish to learn to breathe properly so that i can consistently run my 8 runs without difficulty.sighs.
i came back from PE and talked to my siti baby straight away.i had wanted to talk to someone real bad.and i know she knows the situation best.thanks baby! (: as for the rest of the day, dont mention it!i'm cold.i'm unfriendly.i tried.oh well.
siti baby-you were there when i needed to talk to you on the way to PE.see how alike we can be right!?!and i know you feel scared and sad for me over the situation but i promise you, that if it really came true as i have mentioned,i will move on just fine (: i promise.thank you for being the first to catch me when i fell during break.i really couldnt take the pressure of facing reality sometimes and had to cry myself out.your assurance shall make me much more stronger than i am right now.thank you baby! (: and lets say i were to fall even harder the next time round, pick me up k?muahs-
shiqin sayang-your patience have given me much comfort today!i have been difficult to talk to for my mood swings like so quick.and yes, i did mention how i wished that life is a breeze! (: and you assured me too that i was normal.thanks for making the freaking bulu joke with siti (: damn funny!
aishah dearie-adik!its nice to see you smiling away after the pain on your tummy.and yes, i know you are inexperienced with the whole relationship thingy.but thanks for giving me your ears when i needed it the most yip (:
huda darling-you brighten up my day!you make me happy just knowing that you are willing to crap with me.thank you for supporting me throughout though i dont know where it would lead me now.but i know i still have you and my dearest captain planets.
geetha sweetie- your message made me smile (: you care for me!!-muahs- baby.
my darlings:no matter how many thank yous i say to you.i dont know whether you realise that i am sincere about it.you have brought me back up on my feet and made me smile again.painful as it gets through all my roughest journey, you have been there to guide me through and through.thank you so much (: i love you!
i wrote this while i was in class today.sums up how i felt and the reason why i was feeling rather low:
it's a shame how our heart beats
But not for each other
I see you and you see me
As separate individuals.
It's a pity i couldn't bring myself
To let you know how i feel
I'll live my life with no regrets(hopefully)
I'll smile for you even if it breaks me inside.
p.s: you have been such a wonderful friend to me.i hope you are alright and dont be so sad.just remember that making people happy makes you happy and its the same for me [like i mentioned before].and when you need someone to talk to, im a phone call away (:
so what was i up to today!?!a litlle bit of rollecoaster ride definitely.early morning already and i felt like shit.so i guess i took out part of my frustrations out during PE.running was alright, i supposed.feeling more and more determined to prove to myself how capable i can be sometimes.i do wish to learn to breathe properly so that i can consistently run my 8 runs without difficulty.sighs.
i came back from PE and talked to my siti baby straight away.i had wanted to talk to someone real bad.and i know she knows the situation best.thanks baby! (: as for the rest of the day, dont mention it!i'm cold.i'm unfriendly.i tried.oh well.
siti baby-you were there when i needed to talk to you on the way to PE.see how alike we can be right!?!and i know you feel scared and sad for me over the situation but i promise you, that if it really came true as i have mentioned,i will move on just fine (: i promise.thank you for being the first to catch me when i fell during break.i really couldnt take the pressure of facing reality sometimes and had to cry myself out.your assurance shall make me much more stronger than i am right now.thank you baby! (: and lets say i were to fall even harder the next time round, pick me up k?muahs-
shiqin sayang-your patience have given me much comfort today!i have been difficult to talk to for my mood swings like so quick.and yes, i did mention how i wished that life is a breeze! (: and you assured me too that i was normal.thanks for making the freaking bulu joke with siti (: damn funny!
aishah dearie-adik!its nice to see you smiling away after the pain on your tummy.and yes, i know you are inexperienced with the whole relationship thingy.but thanks for giving me your ears when i needed it the most yip (:
huda darling-you brighten up my day!you make me happy just knowing that you are willing to crap with me.thank you for supporting me throughout though i dont know where it would lead me now.but i know i still have you and my dearest captain planets.
geetha sweetie- your message made me smile (: you care for me!!-muahs- baby.
my darlings:no matter how many thank yous i say to you.i dont know whether you realise that i am sincere about it.you have brought me back up on my feet and made me smile again.painful as it gets through all my roughest journey, you have been there to guide me through and through.thank you so much (: i love you!
i wrote this while i was in class today.sums up how i felt and the reason why i was feeling rather low:
it's a shame how our heart beats
But not for each other
I see you and you see me
As separate individuals.
It's a pity i couldn't bring myself
To let you know how i feel
I'll live my life with no regrets(hopefully)
I'll smile for you even if it breaks me inside.
p.s: you have been such a wonderful friend to me.i hope you are alright and dont be so sad.just remember that making people happy makes you happy and its the same for me [like i mentioned before].and when you need someone to talk to, im a phone call away (:
riyah starr@ 6:14 pm