-that mash of friendship-

-practically the craziest moments-

-almost my fave amazing race team-

-finally i got hold of this baby-awwwwww-

my aunt and cuzzie are staying over for the night.
i dont have anything against that.

but somehow i feel a little insecure.
cause it reminds me of my grandfather.
it's rather not be reminded of him.
and im thankful that we are not going to KL for my cuzzin's wedding.
i know i sound bad,
but my other uncles&aunties are going to be there.
and i certainly dont wanna see them or be near them.
as much as i wanna see my cuzzin who i haven met for like 18 years of my life.
i dont wanna see them.
and i do wanna spend some time my other cousins.
but i cant bear to see my uncles&aunties.
im not good enough to be there.
im sorry im acting like this.


but somehow, today i feel like my wounds crack.
and i see my grandfather everywhere.

riyah starr@ 10:49 pm