so much of being away from this bloggy.
just have to let out my frustrations somehow.
the betrayal too.
it doesnt really matter to me if friendship turns sour.
but me being kind somejow will take it so hard on myself.
suck.
and family can hurt you as much.
when blood runs thicker than water.
what do you get?
those sweet little betrayals.
so you're angry at daddy for a decision he made.
you think im not angry or even sad about it?
i am as angry as traumatised as you can be.
i thank you for protecting me for from a monster of a grandfather that i have.
i do i appreciate that.
but you shouldnt blame daddy for what he decide on.
nobody knew that it was going to be this way,
nobody knew that he was going to be so crazy.
nobody nobody NOBODY!!
why cant you just forget that it happened 2 months back?
its over now.
we all have to move on and you're still hurting about it.
it haunts me at night to sleep.
it frightens me to go the toilet and knowing that he stood there once.
it freaked me to enter the house and know that he attacked me.
it scares me to sit at this computer and remember that my fingers were cold.
im putting all that behind now.
can you just leave it all behind?
please dee.
somehow you're angry with daddy.
must you take out on mummy?
must you hurt her?
and hurt me?
we are all victims in this family.
if daddy didnt take him, grandfather would be left in the hands of unfilial children.
but we know now that he is far from us.
we prolly wont see him till the day he die.
so forget that fact would you?
i dont like you hurting my family.
your family too.
just dont.
i know you have a boyfriend now.
you wanna share your joys of him with me.
i cant pretend to be happy for you when you're just hurting me.
you never let mummy know your whereabouts anymore.
its almost like you forgot your roots.
your mother.
the person who carried you for nine months.
in your case ten months.
i hope you realise that soon enough,
or i shall say karma gets back to you.
brother, i need you right now.
please come home
just have to let out my frustrations somehow.
the betrayal too.
it doesnt really matter to me if friendship turns sour.
but me being kind somejow will take it so hard on myself.
suck.
and family can hurt you as much.
when blood runs thicker than water.
what do you get?
those sweet little betrayals.
so you're angry at daddy for a decision he made.
you think im not angry or even sad about it?
i am as angry as traumatised as you can be.
i thank you for protecting me for from a monster of a grandfather that i have.
i do i appreciate that.
but you shouldnt blame daddy for what he decide on.
nobody knew that it was going to be this way,
nobody knew that he was going to be so crazy.
nobody nobody NOBODY!!
why cant you just forget that it happened 2 months back?
its over now.
we all have to move on and you're still hurting about it.
it haunts me at night to sleep.
it frightens me to go the toilet and knowing that he stood there once.
it freaked me to enter the house and know that he attacked me.
it scares me to sit at this computer and remember that my fingers were cold.
im putting all that behind now.
can you just leave it all behind?
please dee.
somehow you're angry with daddy.
must you take out on mummy?
must you hurt her?
and hurt me?
we are all victims in this family.
if daddy didnt take him, grandfather would be left in the hands of unfilial children.
but we know now that he is far from us.
we prolly wont see him till the day he die.
so forget that fact would you?
i dont like you hurting my family.
your family too.
just dont.
i know you have a boyfriend now.
you wanna share your joys of him with me.
i cant pretend to be happy for you when you're just hurting me.
you never let mummy know your whereabouts anymore.
its almost like you forgot your roots.
your mother.
the person who carried you for nine months.
in your case ten months.
i hope you realise that soon enough,
or i shall say karma gets back to you.
brother, i need you right now.
please come home
riyah starr@ 4:09 pm