the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie

had NDP rehearsal.
SC improved loads.
here i am with my mouth dissing those shitters who never believed in us.
you sucked!

stressed up.
about teacher's day stuff.
more pressure now.
i hate the tight schedule.
i dont like the rush.

stressed up about dont know what.
kept on smiling today.
made things better for myself.
thank you aishah and shiqin for listening to me.
love you girls muches.
i really need to fight these feelings that i have for that person.
weirf feelings.

i shall leave you with these thoughts i had titled 'i apologize'.

i thought it started out as nothing.
i only trested you as my friend.
then it sparkled into something.
now im falling for you again.

i apologize for the way i have been treating you
i cant help but to pull myself away
if there was something else that i could do,
maybe i would have stayed.
i apologize if things are not the same
i didnt know what else to talk
i never wanted to ever play this game
without you, i shall continue this walk.
i apologize.

i dont want to be like this.
living in a shadow of your smile.
i cant help feeling like this.
when i see you with someone else.

my sincerity comes from the heart
where you are wont tear me apart
someday i will understand me
when i begin to understand you.
i apologize.

riyah starr@ 9:55 pm