..og10..mamemo..woah..
..riyah&hafiz..aww..

i feel like vomiting my guts out.knowing that i feel already so stressed out and emotional drained.thought i had wanted to go out today to find out some stuff for teachers' day.but i couldnt bring myself to go out.sighs.i just wanna stay cooped up in my room and not worry.but i cant.its my natural instinct to worry anyways.

i thank my friends for constantly reminding me to take care of myself and not to stress myself out.if you guys dont remind me, i might just prolly continue to stress myself out.i rreally cant help it!!

had another round of chats with syirah darl [winks]. chatted with aishah&siti. sighs.

mummy thought i was sick or something cause i couldnt take my body off the bed.im not sick mummy but i cant help feeling like i am.i mean, i just recovered from my sickness and here i am feeling like shit once again.

i dreamt of my friends lately.practically evry night i drreamt of them.i dream of huda twice already.and all the extras just keep coming into my dreams as well.oh well!!

i cant wait for tomorrow to come so i can let my mind be at ease for once.i really hope that i shall not be of trouble to my friends.my nonsense is around.my frustration wont go away.

im caught in a web of emotions where i cant control my anger for every single little thing people say.so beware my friends!i might just be DAMN cruel to you.cause i really ccant control it.when im pissed of, i shall bite your neck for breathing down my neck.i shall remind myself to be nice to you all but if i fail, dont blame me. i have tried to advice you against it. so be nice to me these days, and you shall rock my world!

i miss geetha the most already.oh baby, im gonna go crazy with you tomorrow.

i loved the picture i took with hafiz. i think he is extremely adorable.he is the only reason i still remain sane in this condition.me shouting at him and yet he apologises for something which isnt his fault at all.he is so sweet to me and hugs me to ease my pain.i can tell him that i wanna cry and he shows me so much concern till i forget that i was hurt.he would console me and pat my shoulder when im down.he never fails to make me smile and does those taufik batisah's dances.i cant help but to sing praises for being the cutest living cousin i ever have.i feel blessed to have him open his heart out to me.i feel blessed that i was given the chance to care for him.i feel blessed that i have a younger being who can try to be there for me.i shall say sorry to you baby as time pass by and i will not be home.it breaks my heart that i got home and know that you are already gone.it breaks my heart to know that you are just you. i cant help teasing him still about siti aishah.and one day when i grow up too fast, i hope you will still lean on me for evrything. a decade my junior means that i will be an adult when you are a teen.then you shall be rebellious against my mummy and talk to me about girl problems.how i wish i can hold the time and let you know that you have always been the greatest and bestest friend that i ever have. you rock my world baby!! :)

riyah starr@ 4:30 pm