..feel cold still..
..huda&me..
..aishah&me..
..siti&me&shiqin..
..dee&me..

im like so in love with these people around me.

my wonderful friends and my lovely sister.

aww.

i sucked.

i should just screw myself upside down.

i did 2.4kn and i failed.

not a big blow though i gotta thank my lovely huiwen for enduring with me.

running and right arm went numb.

fuck myself.

went for NDP rehearsal.

told myself that i shall sit down one corner.

but i stupid go and follow them do the drill.

got home and now i still have a fever.

so clever was i?

i wasnt clever or smart or whatever shit you call smart people.

im a real dumb ass.

who thinks for herself but puts others first.

i fucked myself la.

i dont like how my day went today.

i didnt care that they were bullying me about my permanent lipstick lips.

i didnt give a damn about that and whatever funny things they say.

i loved them loads la.

but i cant help feeling what im feeling.

it was supposed to be nothing you know aishah;

now it turned to something.

how to control this stupid feelings.?

i cannot torture myself and lie to myself that i could forget him.

fact is, i cant!!

see,another shit thing happened to me.

maybe today is shit day!

i guess quite true la.

stepped on some stupid bitch's shit.

some stupid owner doesnt know how to clean after their bitch's shit.

screw then for screwing me.

temperature's rising.

i feel migraine with major impact.

still coughing.

makes heads pound somemore.

i sucked.

riyah starr@ 8:25 pm