the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie

the demanding me sucks.
when i demand too much,i get alot but i dont like what i get.
like economics MCQ just now,i was aiming for a 21/30.
but i got a little lesser than that.
im still not happy with what i get.
if you wanna know, you can ask me personally.

im afraid to know my other results.

chelvam said we did pretty bad.

boohoo!

im so afraid!

today was another gloomy day.

finally,had my hug from adik.

almost didnt wanna let go.

but she was making all the funniest sounds.

i laughed cause she sounded like she was talking to herself.

had break with aishah, siti, shiqin, helmi and jacky.

was funny cause we actually ate in silence.

jacky finished first then he was like observing the rest of us.

damn one kind!

whole day was raining on and off.

but it was nice cause i wasnt cold or hot.

body temperature just nice.

weird feeling!

dont know why i dont feel the way for him like i use to.

looked at him and i feel so different.

like i wasnt good enough for him.

time to move on and see what the world has in store for me.

right adik?

only you shall know.

was like in depression mode but mixed with a sense of happiness.

wasnt so good but inside was good.

i dont get what i mean.

SC meeting sucks.

i came so enthusiastically then only 5 people turned up.

stupid!

now im fuming cause i stayed back for nothing.

the more i think of it, the more i love mummy and daddy.

im so proud of them.

i feel like hugging mummy when i see those tears in her eyes.

i wanna bear her pain.

i wanna take it away.

give her all my happiness and let me suffer.

i wanna hug daddy too.

and tell him that i have always loved him thru his strengths and weaknesses.

let him see that he can count on me.

anytime.

anywhere.

my mind is all over the place.

from that to this to that to this.

wow!

i pray that God will give me the strength to carry on.

i know i have that strength in me.

i just need to find it.

this week is a packed week.

results and results.

SC and more SC.

dont like!

im happy that i have this "act-cute" me inside of me.

keeps me going.

it makes me see the bright side of things.

when it gets dark, i look into my "act-cuteness" to find myself again.

riyah starr@ 6:25 pm