the chapter of khairiyah mckenzie
why do we get tired easily?
i wish i have an answer so that i can cure my fatigueness.
2 days straight had to attend rehearsals for NDP thingy.
marching like an idiot around the quadrangle.
luckily today,liyun got come so i wasnt all alone.
i could die of boredom and no cuteness without her :)
school was alright.
got more results from malay and overall stuff.
was quite satisfying for myself and like i said can still do better.
got top 10% in school just above Jiali at 33.
but i wondering whether i can make it at number 1.
laughs.
i must be dreaming cause i doubt can even reach the tenth spot :(
i miss sayang hafiz.
i miss him hugging me tight.
i miss him telling me about his day.
i miss his kisses.
i just miss him so much cause i shall not see him loads anytime soon.
i miss you baby.
these days very difficult to keep up with my friends.
so sad cause we are all busy with our own things.
i like got no more life as busy with this and that.
quite sad really.
the feel so lonely all the time.
and after school just now, i was in class with huda, liyun and jacky.
lame jokes that jacky made man.
and liyun act cute [as always].
and huda sat there just laughing.
but the most funniest thing was that huda and i were talking about boys.
she was telling me that all my crushes have girlfriends already.
she felt pity for me. laughs.
i told her it was alright that i dont have a boyfriend.
an eye candy just for eye washing.
not so bad really.
then she came up with this stupid idea od match-making me with her secondary school friend.
i was like "NO!".
really hope she forgets this incident and move on.
i can live without boys for the time-being at least.
let me just believe that there will be someone out there for me.
i wish it was him [the new him].
but not all my wishes will come true so i shall stick by my words that i dont need a guy for the time-being.
i guess my mind is in a turmoil again.
wondered only where i have done wrong.
wonder whether im worthy for others.
wonder if im a nuisance.wonder if im a pest.
just feel burden by the load of shit.
wonder if she is who she is.
wonder if she knows what she did.
it can be you who is reading this.
i dont know.
i just wonder.
sighs.
my messy mind.
so real yet so fake.
so true yet its almost like a lie.
what have i done wrong?
and if you ask me that, i dont have the fucking answer.
so just buzz off.
i yearn to listen to the melody of your voice,britney spears.
i wanna listen to someday (i will understand).
-blessed with you-but draining being with you-so what shall i do?-
why do we get tired easily?
i wish i have an answer so that i can cure my fatigueness.
2 days straight had to attend rehearsals for NDP thingy.
marching like an idiot around the quadrangle.
luckily today,liyun got come so i wasnt all alone.
i could die of boredom and no cuteness without her :)
school was alright.
got more results from malay and overall stuff.
was quite satisfying for myself and like i said can still do better.
got top 10% in school just above Jiali at 33.
but i wondering whether i can make it at number 1.
laughs.
i must be dreaming cause i doubt can even reach the tenth spot :(
i miss sayang hafiz.
i miss him hugging me tight.
i miss him telling me about his day.
i miss his kisses.
i just miss him so much cause i shall not see him loads anytime soon.
i miss you baby.
these days very difficult to keep up with my friends.
so sad cause we are all busy with our own things.
i like got no more life as busy with this and that.
quite sad really.
the feel so lonely all the time.
and after school just now, i was in class with huda, liyun and jacky.
lame jokes that jacky made man.
and liyun act cute [as always].
and huda sat there just laughing.
but the most funniest thing was that huda and i were talking about boys.
she was telling me that all my crushes have girlfriends already.
she felt pity for me. laughs.
i told her it was alright that i dont have a boyfriend.
an eye candy just for eye washing.
not so bad really.
then she came up with this stupid idea od match-making me with her secondary school friend.
i was like "NO!".
really hope she forgets this incident and move on.
i can live without boys for the time-being at least.
let me just believe that there will be someone out there for me.
i wish it was him [the new him].
but not all my wishes will come true so i shall stick by my words that i dont need a guy for the time-being.
i guess my mind is in a turmoil again.
wondered only where i have done wrong.
wonder whether im worthy for others.
wonder if im a nuisance.wonder if im a pest.
just feel burden by the load of shit.
wonder if she is who she is.
wonder if she knows what she did.
it can be you who is reading this.
i dont know.
i just wonder.
sighs.
my messy mind.
so real yet so fake.
so true yet its almost like a lie.
what have i done wrong?
and if you ask me that, i dont have the fucking answer.
so just buzz off.
i yearn to listen to the melody of your voice,britney spears.
i wanna listen to someday (i will understand).
-blessed with you-but draining being with you-so what shall i do?-
riyah starr@ 9:15 pm